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WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE, WHEN YOU TRULY LOVE SOMEONE, THAT PERSON BECOMES APART OF YOU, THEY BECOME YOUR LIFE, YOUR EVERYTHING. THEY CHANGE YOU AND THEY INSPIRE YOU IN SO MANY DIFFERENT WAYS THAT ARE INDESCRIBABLE. HOW DO YOU LET GO OF SOMEONE WHO HAS MADE SUCH AN IMPACT ON YOUR LIFE? HOW DO YOU LET GO OF THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS YOU GOING? KEEPS YOU STRONG? LOVING SOMEONE WITH ALL YOU HAVE IS LETTING GO OF FEAR, ITS GROWING UP. CAUSE WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE WHOLE- HEARTEDLY, YOU LET GO OF YOURSELF- TO LIVE IS TO LOVE- SO HOW DO YOU LET GO OF SOMEONE YOU TRULY CARE ABOUT? THE TRUTH IS I DONT THINK YOU CAN.
the 411 on this bitch yo wuz good in the hood myspace my name is AMY if you didnt already know, im 21 years young ima january baybe! born & raised in HOLLYWOOD FLORIDA! my life can get dramatic from time to time but i live and learn everyday. im constantly learning from my mistakes and i learn to not make the same ones twice. i know i always say i hate all guys in general and its still true but there are some really good ones out there. i have huge trust issues, everyone that walks into my life eventually walks out. im conceited and i have an extremely high self esteem. i obviously love to sing, ive been in choir for about 5 years and I can sing both alto & soprano and i love doing landscape photography im hoping to become a professional photographer. but if that doesnt work out i always have a fallback option of being a chef, yes i have taken culinary for 2 years and i do enjoy cooking. i love working with little kids; and i wouldnt mind being an elementary school teacher :) i have big dreams and i can never stick with just one option. im very open-minded and i dont rely on anyone else but me. i have no clue where i would be right now without the help and support of my friends and family! they mean the world to me. My favorite obsession is my car, im a speed racer lol, you can catch me driving 100mph or more on the road an i hate slow drivers. i usually always go clubbin daily. im mostly laid back an shit with the [i dont give a fuck attitude] i am bossy an can be a little stuck up at times so wut?! i love being a mean cold hearted vicious bitch 24/7. i hate gurls/guys that treat other people like shit, well dont be comming around me with all that cause i will knock the fuck outta you, im not the type of gurl to play around with! but i am generally nice if you treat me with respect! just cause i flirt doesnt mean im interested. you can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.. we have all done it at one point or another but i came to realize that its not worth it.
this is me take it or leave it && i've been to HELL & BACK i spill shit - trip - && embarass myself i cant just flutter my eyes & get that boy. my life is messed up, i've been lied to; cheated on & had my heart stolen. i've fucked people up; && been fucked up. but every hit was worth it because, i felt it. i knew it was real. life is real && im living it wrong everyday. im fucking up royally & doing everything opposite// but do i regret one thing? NEVER! because at one point what i did was what i wanted & i got my fucking satisfaction; my life is mine & no stupid bitches or immature boys can fuck it up for me anymore. im the REAL DEAL & i'd love to see you TRY AND FUCKING BREAK ME!
this is what im ALL ABOUT i'm the girl they told you who not to become in sunday school. everything i told myself i swore i'd never do, i've already end up doing. im real and i tell it how it is. i honestly don't give a fuck what you think. haha i probably see right through you. if you think that you can ruin me, don't waste your fucking time. keep looking my way, my head is held high if you wanna bring me down, i dare you to try. i like to live life to the absolute fullest. i think that life is too short to live underneath rules, so i like to do what i want when i want, no matter what the consequences. everyone that i have opened my heart to and everyone that i have trusted has let me down and i'm really tired of being let down. i am sick of everyones fucking bullshit. also, you can talk about me all you want but, if your not talked about, then your just not worth to be talked about so keep talking bitches, cause im obviously worth it. i'm not conceited, vain, cocky, nor full of myself; it's called self confidence hunny and it does feel really awesome. and before you feel the need to judge me, despite not knowing me, take a look at yourself and sort out your own life and insecurities.
4 all you bitches & assholes out there ;] I have plenty of things you don’t and I am a happy person. If you keep trying to take it away, guess what? You will get your ass beat. So come on and try it because all hell is breaking loose and Im its ruler, so bow before me you fucking asshole. Go on, try to ruin something of mine, go ahead. Your time is running out and Im getting closer….. Always watch your back fucker. Im right behind you like a shadow waiting for its turn to rise in the darkness. I can play dirty just like all of you, and if that is what it takes then so be it.....
TRUE FRIENDS ARE HARD TO FIND! ask your parents how many friends they still hang out with from highschool, no better yet, ask your parents how many people they still talk to from highschool, the number is going to be either 0 or 1. Friends are a dime a dozen and most of them prove that to you once you get to know them, everyone has a few close friends and then a best friend. To tell you the truth, once you have best friend, you wont have another one, thats just something that wont change, you might think you have found a new best friend but in the end you will realize thats not true. Im sick and tired of people pretending to be friends. Because in the end what is a friend? someone you get fucked up with? someone you go chase guys with? someone you fight people for? no, a friend is a person that will be there for you when shit gets tough, like when your car breaks down and you cant drive anywhere. Or when you have nowhere to go and you need somewhere to stay. How do you measure friendship? its simple. How far out of there way is one person willing to go for another person. Thats how you measure friendship. I thought i had alot of friends but in the end theres maybee one or two i can actually say have really been there and would go to great lengths to help me out. When you live about ten minutes from the majority of your friends and only two of them come see you when you cant make it out to them, you realize who your real friends are. You realize which of your friends are actually good people and dont care about just themselve's. those few people im talking about, know who they are. Dont waste time with people who wont matter or care down the road or you will be thinking the same thing i am right now. COURAGE THAT KEEPS ME GOING STRONG There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything that she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength an determination of a woman who follows her own path, who isn't thrown off by obstacles along the way. There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences; who knows she can fall, pick herself up, and move on. Words to live by .... promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best. forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you.
once you find it; TRUE LOVE! IS FOREVER Loves not something you develop over night. Loves not a toy to be played with. "I love you" are words that should not be thrown around. Loves not something you have to feel, but we all want to. We all want to know that there is that one person out there for us. That we are loved in a way that our family members can't love us. Love is something that should be shared with the person you are going to spend the rest of your life with. Love takes time, so sit back, and be patient. IM ON TOP :) no matter what happens i'm going to make it , if i'm not happy I'm going to fake it i've been through the backstabs , scum bags and lies i have a book of people i despise if you got my trust dont lose it , if you got my love , don't abuse it , but the worst thing you can ever do is doubt me there is no existing to me with out loyalty. Anyone can give up it's the easiest thing in the world to do but to hold it together when everyone else is expecting you to fall a p a r t that's * true strength* -TRUE LIFE- I've made mistakes in my life, I've let people take advantage of me. & I've accepted way less then I deserve; but I've learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back & some people who will never be sorry, I'll know better next time and won't settle for anything less then I deserve. every story has an end but in life every end is a new beginning!! there comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama & the people who create it & surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good! after all life is too short to be anything but happy. I don't know why we all hang onto something we know we're better off letting go. It's like we're scared to lose what we really don't even have. Some of us say we'd rather have something than nothing at all, but the truth is... to have something halfway is harder than not having it at all.
-BITCHOLOGY- When I stand up for Myself and my beliefs, They call me a Bitch. When I stand up for Those I love, They call me a Bitch. When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts Or do things my own way, they call me a Bitch. Being a bitch Means I won't Compromise what's In my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me. When I refuse to Tolerate injustice and Speak against it, I am Defined as a Bitch. The same thing happens when I take time for Myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish. It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I 'should' be. I am outspoken, opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that! So try to stomp on me, just try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't succeed... And if that makes me a bitch ,so be it. I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.