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CRYSTALBLUEICE

The Murdering Of the Innocent Has Started Again,

About Me





"I wrote your name on a piece of paper, but by accident I threw it away I wrote your name on my hand, but it washed away. I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves whispered it away. I wrote your name in my heart, and forever it will stay."
I WROTE THESE WORDS , TO SOMEONE I REALLY TRULY LOVED,, I STILL FIND THESE WORDS TO BE TRUE
You truly do not know what you got , till its gone, , these are my words to him.........
When something is taken from you, even a feeling, that is when you will miss it the most, , that is when you will know if it mattered to you, , and if you want it back.
The only thing that can kill Love is that which holds that love... If it is missed, , you will know it in your heart.. no matter what..because , it will become beyond your control, your rules will no longer matter, , just your feelings will and that emptiness you feel in your heart and soul. You and only you , , will know just how much it meant to you, , and IF you want it back.
Life can be soooo sooo easy, , , but somehow , we always make it so hard, , over stupid reasons...

"Cherish who really matters to you in this life,, cherish who you really really love,,,,,,,,, and never ever put them on hold..... because when you come back,,,,, they may never be there anymore"
COCO..... THE LOVE OF MY LIFE........
FOR SOME REASON,, COCO IS NOW WITH MARIESA,, I DIDN'T THINK MY HEART COULD BREAK MORE THEN IT DID WHEN MARIESA LEFT THIS WORLD, NOW,, WITH COCO GONE TOO....WELL, MY HEART HAS BEEN RIPPED , TORN , AND PULLED OUT OF MY CHEST, WHY? WHY IS THIS ALL HAPPENING, I LOVE YOU MARIESA,, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH COCO,, I AM TRULY DEVISTATED THAT YOU BOTH HAVE LEFT THIS PLACE WE CALL EARTH, THAT HAS NOW TURNED INTO HELL. COCO, I MADE YOU A PROMISE, THAT I INTEND TO KEEP,,I NEVER EVER MAKE PROMISES I DON'T OR CAN'T KEEP.. I MISS HOLDING YOU AND YOUR LITTLE LICKS AND KISSES.... I DON'T KNOW WHY GINA AND I WERE PUT IN THIS HELL,, BUT REMEMBER MY PROMISE TO YOU AS YOU DIED IN MY ARMS,,, YOU WILL BE WITH ME,,I MISS YOU MY LITTLE TINY ANGEL, I WILL FIND YOU BOTH........SOON.. I PROMISE XOXOX
"Seek those who find your road agreeable, your personality and mind stimulating, your philosophy acceptable, and your experience helpful. Let those who do not, seek their own kind" Jean Henry Fabre


THERE HAS GOT TO BE A BETTER PLACE..... A BETTER WORLD,, SOMEWHERE
PLEASE HELP SAVE THEM NOW........ PLEASSSSSSSSSSSSSSE

My Interests



This video is a gift,, from a very caring friend, who I am sure put tons of time into making it. He posted it as a bulletin,, I was told about it, and viewed it,, I feel after all his caring , thoughtful work,, it belongs on this page. Thank you Michael,, this touched me deeply. ************************************************ i have gotten so many messenges about my video i have made for my sweet & careing friend that i made this for !

We always have a great time talking then we are on the phone ! She is a good friend of mine ... and she will always be my friend and no one can take that from me !

this is my friend
"CRYSTALBLUEICE "

THIS IS THE VIDEO I HAVE MADE FOR HER AND HER TWO GIRL'S

SOME OF YOU SEEN IT ALREADY

I WANTED TO KEEP IT IN OUR HEART'S





IN MEMORY

I have fallen, Gone so low. You pushed me over the edge, I started falling towards hell; I could feel the heat of the flames On my bare flesh. My screams were drowned out By the scorching flames. There was a bright light, A cool wind from the flapping of wings. My Guardian Angels had heard my cries, Felt my pain. They took me in their arms are carried Me away, out of Hell


PERFECT PLACE TO LIVE

♥ CANADIAN ROCKIES

♥ GRIZZLY BEARS

♥ WOLVES

♥ OWLS

♥ NEEDLEPOINT

♥ MUSIC



For the animal shall not be measured by man. In a world older and more complete than ours, they move finished and complete, gifted with the extension of the senses we have lost or never attained, living by voices we shall never hear. They are not brethren, they are not underlings: they are caught with ourselves in the net of life and time, fellow prisoners of the splendour of this earth. The soul is the same in all living creatures although the body of each is different.

These Photos are of Grizzly Bear Territory,, They Are Pictures of where I lived, and learned of Grizzly Bears,, In these mountains, I lived in a tent, from May thru Sept, each year,,, I learned a lot,, Loved the mountains, the wilderness, and learned lessons of survival I will never forget,,,, I also will never forget how for an extended time,, I learned to live in the wilderness, love it , and its inhabitants,, and walked thru clouds,, This is Grizzly Territory,, It is also a place, if you are fortunate enough to ever visit, you will never ever forget. Welcome,, to Bear Country,,,,,,,,, The Canadian Rockies,,,Heaven on Earth...

I'd like to meet:










The Pure Evil/Horror Vampire: You are completely
consumed by darkness! There is no saving you!
Compeletly overtaken with madness, you are
obsessed with murder, and you take pleasure
watching others squirm and squeel for mercy!
You are ruthless and you stop at nothing! Your
heart is completely black and rock hard, there
is nothing anyone can do to help you. You are
eternally lost, and your soul is no longer
crying for help....it's gone! Thousands of
years of darkness and murder have corroded your
innerself, without a conscience you can--and
will--do anything of the most horrid nature.

I hurt myself today to see if I still feel ........ I focus on the pain the only thing that's real ....... what have I become? my sweetest friend everyone I know goes away in the end.....


CURRENT MOON moon phase




IN LOVING MEMORY OF ENSHALA .. A TERRIBLE LOSS..

If all the beasts were gone, men would die from a great loneliness of spirit, for whatever happens to the beasts also happens to the man. All things are connected. Whatever befalls the Earth befalls the sons of the Earth.

TO MARIESA , BONO WAS GOD, SHE ADORED HIM, THIS WAS ONE OF HER FAVORITE SONGS, SHE BELIEVED IN THE WORDS TO THIS SONG AS DO I, FOR THAT REASON THIS VIDEO WILL ALWAYS REMAIN ON THIS PAGE.... MARIESA WAS A GREAT BELIEVER IN PEACE, AND WOULD SMILE AND MAKE THE PEACE SIGN ALL THE TIME, SHE WAS AN ANGEL OF EXTRODANARY INTELLIGENCE TAKEN AWAY WAY TOO SOON,,, MARIESA,, THIS IS FOR YOU,, ALWAYS WILL BE.. I LOVE AND MISS YOU,, BONO'S POSTERS ARE STILL ON YOUR DOOR. U2 - One

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HAVE RESPECT FOR ALL LIVING CREATURES, ALL CREATURES THAT HAVE BEEN GIVEN A LIFE, HAVE THE RIGHT TO LIVE.



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This song below is one that I now believe in , and the passion, and words in it, the torment of once believing , without question, truly express my feelings and a question I ask every day I breath. This video too, will always remain here as a reminder to me of a terrible lie, and a question of why.

Music:



♥ Michael Hutchence

♥ Original INXS

♥ Trent Reznor NIN

♥ Nickelback

♥ Staind

♥ Coldplay

♥ Russell Crowe

♥ Verve

♥ Tim Mc Graw

♥ Pink Floyd

♥ The Devlins

♥ Rob Thomas

♥ Robbie Robertson

GREAT SONGS

♥ FLESH AND BLOOD ... INXS...MICHAEL HUTCHENCE

♥ NEVER TEAR US APART.. MICHAEL HUTCHENCE

♥ BY MY SIDE

♥ GOODBYE HORSES

♥ SUICIDE BLONDE

♥ SOMETHING I CAN NEVER HAVE
♥ EVERYDAY IS EXACTLY THE SAME
♥ WAY BEYOND EMPTY..Zakk Wylde

♥ TAINTED LOVE

♥ TERRIBLE LIE

♥ LONELY NO MORE

♥ THIS IS HOW HEART BREAKS

♥ LIVE LIKE YOU WERE DYIN

♥ ONE.......U2

♥ PUT YOUR PICTURE AWAY
♥ BABY THINK TWICE ,,,, Celine

♥ EXCESS BAGGAGE

♥ TAKE A LOOK AT ME NOW... Collins

♥ THE BAD TOUCH

♥ POWER OF LOVE

♥ NOTHING COMPARES TO YOU

♥ I CROSS MY HEART

♥ SOMETHING I CAN NEVER HAVE ... NIN

♥ LOSING MY RELIGION

♥ COMFORTABLY NUMB





The Perfect Place to live,,, somewhere in the foothills......

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My Personal Copy ,, given to me to learn what I needed to know about handling grizzly cubs.

Baby Orphaned Grizzly Bear

Poachers Campsite..... Compound Bear, Killed ,, Skinned.



"How will you commit suicide?! (PICS!!!)"

Cutting
You will cut yourself to bits and pieces and bleed to death, and I doubt that it will be the first time cutting. Your so alone, so sad. Stay away from knifes.

"What is your Paranormal gift?"

Control of Ice
Brrr.. Crytokinesis is your thing. Winter is your favorite season, most likely and you love to be outside in it. You probably freeze any melted snow and slide around on it in your free time.
How You Are In Love
You fall in love quickly. And not very often.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back.
What Female Celebrity Are You? Angelina Jolie
You are kind and have a very large heart, you tend to think about others before you self and want to help everyone in the world. Getting involved is you thing, you love the feeling of helping others and getting involved with others and not just sitting around. Althought you have a sweet side you also have a very dark side, my it be with partying and getting drunk, to haveing sex with you closest male or female friends in a cheap motel. But over all people want to be around you because of you positive attitude towards life and others.

My Blog

IN LOVING MEMORY OF MICHAEL HUTCHENCE , THIS DATE TOO, WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN

  THIS DATE TOO,, AS WELL AS THE DATE OF MY DAUGHTERS LEAVING THIS WORLD WILL ALSO NEVER BE FORGOTTEN. MY SINCERE THANKS TO DANA,, MY FRIEND FOR SENDING ME THE ARTICLE BELOW FROM THE AUSTRIALIAN...
Posted by CRYSTALBLUEICE on Thu, 22 Nov 2007 01:40:00 PST

YOU KNOW,, IT JUST KILLS ME,, HOW PEOPLE ARE

YOU KNOW IT JUST KILLS ME,, HOW PEOPLE ARE.  I HAVE A VERY COMPLEX LIST OF PEOPLE AS FRIENDS ON THIS SITE CALLED MYSPACE... SOME ARE ARTISTS,, SOME WRITE BOOKS,, SOME ARE SINGERS,, SOME ARE PROMO...
Posted by CRYSTALBLUEICE on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 05:03:00 PST

The Day Cannot Go Unmentioned , Nor Forgotten, She NEVER will be forgotten or Unloved

The day cannot go unmentioned, nor is it ever forgotten,, Oct 28, 2006 , is the last day I spoke to my beloved daughter Mariesa,,, I can still see it in my mind when I think back to it, I can still se...
Posted by CRYSTALBLUEICE on Tue, 30 Oct 2007 01:03:00 PST

I knew who i was once, I don’t know who I am anymore

I knew who i was once, i do not know who i am anymore, i truly do not know my self anymore. This is not a plea for sympathy,,nor pity,  this is more an explanition and apology to my friends...
Posted by CRYSTALBLUEICE on Fri, 07 Sep 2007 02:26:00 PST

LIVID !!! SICK!!! STEALING FROM A GRAVE STEALING FROM SOMEONE NO LONGER HERE

I just have to tell what happened this week to get it out of my system,, fat chance of that happening.   On Saturday afternoon, i went to the cemetery , taking with me new flowers and other ...
Posted by CRYSTALBLUEICE on Fri, 08 Jun 2007 08:56:00 PST

A Message..... Truth?? Maybe...Probably,, His Opinion of me A Wolf

You no what Crystal i have  always really thought you are like a wolfas you are as cute as one   but always shying away when a person gets to close, if they keep comming forward you bea...
Posted by CRYSTALBLUEICE on Tue, 22 May 2007 03:24:00 PST

Yeah, You Bet Your Ass It's Dam Hard + Heartbreaking

Yeah,,, you bet your ass its dam hard to deal with this day,, a bit more than any other day,, why,, because on this day,, You remember more,, its brought to your attention in a different way,,,, You ...
Posted by CRYSTALBLUEICE on Sun, 13 May 2007 11:04:00 PST

A Single, Long Stem Red Rose At My Front Door

  I am totally amazed..... I was in the back,, the back outside yard , I mean,,, and  I heard the dogs barking like mad,, which is not that unusual in and of itself,, as sometimes they bark...
Posted by CRYSTALBLUEICE on Sun, 13 May 2007 05:20:00 PST

Had A Very Intence Dream

Had a very intence and long involved dream about Neil Diamond when last I slept, which is weird,,, because i rarely remember dreams so intencely afterwards, but this one stuck with me,,, so ,, i went...
Posted by CRYSTALBLUEICE on Sun, 18 Mar 2007 02:43:00 PST

If you want to know "pain" read my daughters blogs

  http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewpro file&friendid=53032949&MyToken=192500f7-80a5-44c0-b8 ae-516f39bf5697 Feel Free to comment to her blogs,,,,,, they are open,, ...
Posted by CRYSTALBLUEICE on Sat, 17 Mar 2007 06:22:00 PST