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Ayumi ♥'s Tanya & Clinton

you know that feeling when you just want to scream becuz everything in your life isn't what you want

About Me

i love dogs.. so if you ever need a trustworthy person that can take good care of doggies, let me know! i'll do it for free too.. =D

"you're unhappy becuz you think about the things you don't have and you don't appreciate the things you do have..."
"sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection.. you find that without overcoming those obstacles, you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart."
hi i'm vy, and i'm not an alcoholic anymore. i'm over it..
i've been through a lot of painful shit in the past..i just want to have fun again and make the best of what i've got. BUT this time it's all for ME cuz fuck you and you and you! MUAHAHAHAHA
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hahaaaaa =]
i trust NOBODY..and to get trust from me, you must earn it. but once you mess it up, you've lost it FOREVER.
oh yes, i'm the silliest wabbit of all silly wabbits. =]
family always comes first in my book. i love ALL of them before anything else. my family is the shit.
even though i live on the westside now, jersey will always be where my heart's at.. i do have plans of moving back to jersey in the near future though.. depends if that's where my heart will take me.. or wherever is for the best and MOST SAFE! ahah.
i don't know if it's fate..but i do know that ever since he came, i stopped regretting my past becuz you know that quote, "there is a reason for everything that happens..in time you will know why.." or something like that.. well, i think i've found those reasons, and i believe everything that had happened in my past was to lead me to him and him to me. so no regrets! he makes me happier than i am and he makes me happy when i'm sad, and you know how great it feels to wake up every morning knowing there is someone else thinking of you, missing you, and feeling the same way you feel or more..someone who you can look forward to at the end of a good or bad day... now i have another reason to try even harder..just so i can be with him. i hope he will be the one i get to spend my whole life with one day... i
i think, over analyze, care, and worry way too much...i've been through constant stress from minor to MAJOR stress over the years and never was there a time when i was stressfree after the age of 16. i'm 23 years old now and i still stress over ever little thing. that hasn't changed about me..i just can't help it! i seriously think this might be the cause of my death one day.
just shut up about who hates who and if someone hates you and if you hate someone for NO REASON other than thinking you're that special. why do people think they are the shit when they get hated on? and why do they hate people who think they're the shit? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE!!!! just SHUT UP!
i can tell you what happened 6 years ago, but i can't tell you what happened yesterday becuz my short term memory SUCKS.
and a few more things...I HATE WEED! and i hate the number 28..cuz i'm sorry. but i love november 28th..hehe.. oh and i hate cheese! ewww.. but mozarella cheese are bomb..i love string cheese. all the other cheeses suck. i think people should show love and respect more often than they show hatred, envy, and bitterness just becuz they feel threatened that someone might be better than them. you're not perfect..nobody is perfect unless you're nobody. =] i love love LOVE animals!! i find microbiology to be the most interesting subject of all..it intrigues me! i love outerspace stuff and i enjoy learning about it. i HATE chemistry..it's the most evil subject of all time. fast and dangerous things can't scare me even if it can kill me.. the only things i'm afraid of are the dark, spiders and insects, scary movies with a lot of suspense even though i enjoy the thrill, being heart broken, and being unsuccessful..not in my career, but in life. and i'm extremely allergic to cocky people.
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"people are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; forgive them anyway.
if you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; be kind anyway.
if you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; succeed anyway.
if you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; be honest and frank anyway.
what you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; build anyway.
if you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; be happy anyway.
the good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; do good anyway.
give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; give the world the best you've got anyway.
you see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; it was never between you and them anyway."
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"If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. Never let a man define who you are. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. I know...I've been through it many times before. This is not a broken heart talking, but a heart healed. :-)Find what truly makes you happy and treasure it. You only have yourself in this world."
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be yourself. it's not that serious.


"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new end."

My Interests

following my heart..and not only making a dream come true, but this time making it last forever. =]

feed toby the strawberry! =D

adopt your own virtual pet!

I'd like to meet:

i've met him already...For the boy who calls me beautiful instead of hot, who calls me back when I hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch me sleep. Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show me off to the world when I am in my sweats, who holds my hand in front of his friends. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding me of how much he cares about me and how lucky he is to have me. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, ".....that's her."

Music:

r&b, hiphop, reggae, rock, alternative, pop, techno, freestyle, yiruma, classicals, japanese melodies cuz they're the shit..i listen to a lil bit of everything..i don't discriminate. =D but i don't really listen to country......... xD

Movies:

final fantasy 7 advent children, the pursuit of happiness, kung fu hustle, chuck & larry, shaolin soccer, finding nemo, mr. and mrs. smith, a walk to remember, the breakup, the holiday, freedom writers, deja vu, van wilder, waiting, guess who, wedding crashers, just married .. movies like those, and i'm always down to watch horror flicks that can make me cover my eyes and scream.. but i hate gory movies..

Television:

animal planet, discovery channel, history channel, the national geographic channel, food channel, sci fi channel, and dave chappelle show. he is the shit!

Books:

my microbiology textbook! =D and tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom..i love this book.

Heroes:

first and foremost, my mommy! she's put up with all my crap, been there through thick and thin.. and helped me recognize real. she's so strong and so amazin'.. =] she's my bestest friend.

everyone who's been there..who's REALLY been there for me and has helped me get through the hard times. their love and friendship have helped me grow into the person i am now..the people i love and care about the most are also my heroes.

bestest.

jayvieann.

my lesbo, tanya.

my lil brothers jeffrey, kenny, and ti.

and my sweet little cousin kiet! but i call him pumpkin becuz he's always wearing orange.

My Blog

we belong together.. just shut up and watch. =]

Once you say i love you to a person, you automatically give that person the right to hurt you.The test of love is not when we are together. It comes when we are not together and realize that despite t...
Posted by Ayumi ♥'s Tanya & Clinton on Wed, 11 Jul 2007 03:21:00 PST

missing you..

"I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss y...
Posted by Ayumi ♥'s Tanya & Clinton on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 04:43:00 PST

for those who are...

SINGLELove is like a butterfly. the more you chase it, the more it eludes you, but if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. love can make you happy, but often it hurts. lo...
Posted by Ayumi ♥'s Tanya & Clinton on Sun, 08 Jul 2007 08:45:00 PST

30 Things Guys Should Know About Girls

30 Things Guys Should Know About GirlsWritten by a guy after years of experience.1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house... they run around in their underwear just like we do.2. DON'T CH...
Posted by Ayumi ♥'s Tanya & Clinton on Sun, 08 Jul 2007 08:39:00 PST

my collection of quotes [updated 7/7/07]

"You need trust to love, but first you need love in order to trust.""Until this moment, I never understood how hard it was to lose something you never had.""It's better to love someone you can't have ...
Posted by Ayumi ♥'s Tanya & Clinton on Sun, 08 Jul 2007 07:00:00 PST

love is compromise.

Loving someone is a risk. We make ourselves believe in something and invest all of what we are into it, sometimes it works out, but sometimes it turns out to be a mistake or a total failure. We'll nev...
Posted by Ayumi ♥'s Tanya & Clinton on Fri, 06 Jul 2007 08:11:00 PST

stop acting so trifling.

it's either i'm a homie or i'm not. pick one and fucking stick with it. why would you let jealousy ruin a friendship...GROW UP.
Posted by Ayumi ♥'s Tanya & Clinton on Fri, 06 Jul 2007 07:17:00 PST

i'll be back..

yehh..just got back from the east side. i'm not gonna cry! i miss you all..at least i got to spend most of my time with the most wonderful people in my life which are my bestfriends and my family.. an...
Posted by Ayumi ♥'s Tanya & Clinton on Sun, 01 Jul 2007 08:59:00 PST

it's either i don't care or

i really really don't give a shit.
Posted by Ayumi ♥'s Tanya & Clinton on Tue, 05 Jun 2007 07:34:00 PST

love doesn't suck.

I borrowed this from my girl Aivy. She inspires me so much!People seem to be forever looking for love. Consciously or unconsciously, we crave for someone who can be our partner in every way. Someone w...
Posted by Ayumi ♥'s Tanya & Clinton on Wed, 18 Apr 2007 01:09:00 PST