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Beksie

This is every shade of wrong.

About Me


Fishtart is:
tiny vessels.
the ginger formerly known as bekah aponte.
waiting on something that'll never come.
always growing changing.
all of the best intentions
and none of the results.
the sum of many parts.
all about the bottom line
and the moments leading up to it.
everything she'll never admit.
not different, just more than she used to be.
the spectrum a to z.
AIM- hello marschwar.

How to make a Feeshetart
Ingredients:
3 parts pride
3 parts self-sufficiency
1 part empathy
Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add wisdom to taste! Do not overindulge!
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My Interests


Phwoar Teeny Emos

Target.
Curtis.
Daphne.
Gertrude.
Irving.
Coffee .
Scrabble.
Life.

I'd like to meet:

enlightenment.
someone who shops at target and doesn't destroy it on there way through the store. if you exists, you are the only one i'd like to meet.
plus the winner of my quiz.

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Music:

Wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking as we moved together in the dark.
And all the friends that I was telling and all the playful misspellings and every bite I gave you left a mark.
Tiny vessels oozed into your neck and formed the bruises that you said you didn't want to fade.
But they did and so did I that day.
All I see are dark grey clouds in the distance moving closer with every hour.
So when you ask "Was something wrong?" that I think "You're damn right there is but we can't talk about it now.
No, we can't talk about it now."
So one last touch and then you'll go.
And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more.
But it was vile, and it was cheap.
And you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me.


^---The story of my life.
People that make me sing/dance/laugh/live:
Alphabetically, of course:
30 Seconds to Mars.
A Perfect Circle.
AC/DC.
The Academy Is...
Alanis Morissette.
Alex Ubago.
All-American Rejects.
Ashlee Simpson.
Audioslave.
Bare Naked Ladies.
Beck.
Benjamin Gibbard.
Black Eyed Peas.
Blindside.
Blood Brothers.
Blue October.
Bowling for Soup.
Brand New.
Breaking Benjamin.
Chevelle.
Cobra Starship.
Cold War Kids.
Coldplay.
Counting Crows.
Cute is What We Aim For.
Damien Rice.
Dashboard Confessional.
Death Cab for Cutie.
Evanescence.
The Flaming Lips.
Flyleaf.
Finch.
Foo Fighters.
The Format.
Franz Ferdinand.
The Fray.
From Autumn to Ashes.
Goo Goo Dolls.
Gym Class Heroes.
Gorillaz.
Green Day.
Guster.
Head Automatica.
hellogoodbye.
Hidden in Plain View.
Holly Miranda.
Hot Hot Heat.
The Hush Sound.
Idiot Pilot.
Imogen Heap.
Incubus.
Jack Johnson.
James Blunt.
Jason Mraz.
Jet.
Jewel.
Johnny Cash.
Josh Groban.
Juanes.
Kaiser Chiefs.
Kill Hannah.
The Killers.
Lamb.
Lindsay Lohan.
Lost Prophets.
Louis the VIX.
Marilyn Manson.
Maroon Five.
Matchbox Twenty.
Metallica.
Modest Mouse.
Motion City Soundtrack.
Muse.
Nightmare of You.
Nine Inch Nails.
Nirvana.
No Doubt.
Oasis.
OK Go.
Phantom Planet.
Placebo.
Pretty Girls Makes Graves.
The Postal Service.
Queen.
Queens of the Stone Age.
The Red Hot Chili Peppers.
Rent.
Rise Against.
Rufus Wainwright.
Saliva.
Saosin.
Seal.
Seeeeeeether.
Senses Fail.
Shakira.
The Shins.
Silversun Pickups.
Snow Patrol.
Sting.
Story of the Year.
Straylight Run.
The Strokes.
Sugarcult.
Sum 41.
System of a Down.
Taking Back Sunday.
Tears for Fears.
Theory of a Deadman.
Third Eye Blind.
This Providence.
Three Days Grace.
Thrice.
Thursday.
Tonic.
Train.
Trapt.
Underoath.
The Used.
Vanessa Carlton.
The Verve.
The Violent Femmes.
Weezer.
The White Stripes.
The Wreckers.
The Yeah Yeah Yeahs.

Movies:


A Walk to Remember.
Ace Ventura.
All I Want.
Batman.
Bend It Like Beckham.
Blow.
Big Fish.
Boondock Saints.
Bruce Almighty.
The Butterfly Effect.
Cayla Christine's Home Movies.
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
Le Château de Ma Mère.
Collateral.
Cruel Intentions.
Crybaby.
Donnie Darko.
The Dreamers.
Drop Dead Fred.
Finding Neverland.
Edward Scissorhands.
The Emperor's New Groove.
Empire Records.
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.
Everything is Illuminated.
Fight Club.
Finding Nemo.
Garden State.
La Gloire de Mon Père.
The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly.
Girl with a Pearl Earing.
Harry Potter.
The Hole.
Ice Age.
Igby Goes Down.
The Importance of Being Earnest.
Interview with the Vampire.
The Jacket.
Just Like Heaven.
The Last Kiss.
Liar Liar.
The Libertine.
Lord of the Rings.
Man in the Iron Mask.
Meet Joe Black.
Milo and Otis.
The Motorcycle Diaries.
The Moulin Rouge.
Mrs. Doubtfire.
My Best Friend's Wedding.
Ned Kelly.
Nicholas Nickelby.
The Notebook.
Ocean's Eleven.
Once Upon a Time in Mexico.
The Others.
Over the Hedge.
Peter Pan.
Pirates of the Caribbean.
The Prestige.
Pulp Fiction.
Rent.
Requiem For a Dream.
The Rocky Horror Picture Show.
The Secret Garden.
Secret Window.
The Shining.
Spiderman.
Superman Returns.
Underworld.
Thank You For Smoking.
There's Something About Mary.
Thirteen.
Tristan and Isolde.
Troy.
Velvet Goldmine.
The Village.
Walk the Line.
Wimbledon.
The Wedding Singer.
Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory.
X Men.
Y Tu Mama Tambien.

Television:


Boy Meets World.
Charmed.
Friends.
Gilmore Girls.
Grey's Anatomy.
Grounded for Life.
Law and Order: SVU.
Law and Order: CI.
Lost.
Roswell.
Scrubs.
Whose Line is it Anyway?
Will and Grace.

Books:


Brave New World.
Harry Potter.
New Moon.
Twilight.

Heroes:

Jack
Jello.
Jenna.

My Blog

So that I may forget.

"What are you doing there?" he said to the tippler, whom he found settled down in silence before a collection of empty bottles and also a collection of full bottles. "I am drinking," replied the tipp...
Posted by Fishtart: This ship went down in sight of land. on Mon, 23 Apr 2007 06:51:00 PST

Learning, Jorge Burges.

After a while, you learn the subtle difference between sustaining a hand and chaining a soul. And you learn that love does not mean going to bed and a partner does not mean security, and you begin to ...
Posted by Fishtart: This ship went down in sight of land. on Fri, 23 Mar 2007 09:08:00 PST

So this is what the end feels like.

I'm done.Three strikesI'm out.I don't know anything anymore.I have never felt so stupid.So betrayed.So useless.So pathetically ignorant.To those of you who just couldn't take it:Thanks for trying.To t...
Posted by Fishtart: This ship went down in sight of land. on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 08:23:00 PST

This is getting harder.

So.The other day I thought about calling you. But then I realized:We have nothing to talk about, and I can't even remember what we talk about before.I guess none of it ever really mattered.Something ...
Posted by Fishtart: This ship went down in sight of land. on Wed, 07 Mar 2007 01:17:00 PST

The story of my life... and I just realized it now.

Wanted to believe in all the words that i was speaking As we moved together in the dark And all the friends that i was telling And all the playful misspellings And every bite i gave you left a mark T...
Posted by Fishtart: This ship went down in sight of land. on Sun, 04 Mar 2007 06:19:00 PST

Hmmm.

What You Really Think Of Your FriendsJenna is your soulmate.You truly love Brady.You consider The Sun your true friend.You know that Dan is always thinking of you.You'll remember Kristen for the rest ...
Posted by Fishtart: This ship went down in sight of land. on Sun, 25 Feb 2007 06:29:00 PST

How's it going to be when you don't know me?

I'm pretty sure that Dan is the only person in the world who knows what I'm feeling like these days.I guess that's a good thing for everyone else.It would be selfish of me to want it any other way.I'm...
Posted by Fishtart: This ship went down in sight of land. on Thu, 22 Feb 2007 03:38:00 PST

These people {aren't} your friends.

Have You Ever _______ With Your Top SIX?? ?Body: Don't change your myspace top 6!- Fill the people in below!- Answer the questions truthfully!1. Kristen2. Dano3. Jenna4. Michael5. Cayda6. Braday1. Hav...
Posted by Fishtart: This ship went down in sight of land. on Wed, 21 Feb 2007 01:53:00 PST

Hit the road.

You're not sure that you love meBut you're not sure enough to let me goBaby it ain't fair you knowTo just keep me hangin' 'roundYou say you don't wanna hurt meDon't wanna to see my tearsSo why are you...
Posted by Fishtart: This ship went down in sight of land. on Thu, 15 Feb 2007 01:15:00 PST

Parlez- vous...?

Bekah will be going to the U of M Twin Cities.She will be majoring in Spanish and Italian Studies and French and Portuguese Studies.She will work forty hours a week to pay for said school.She will try...
Posted by Fishtart: This ship went down in sight of land. on Thu, 08 Feb 2007 05:13:00 PST