Dreamer, seeker, full of hope, Believer, achiever, never going to quit even when they say I can't win. My life is a jumble of activities and thoughts that are constantly going and there is truly no end. There is a burden in my heart that I cannot suspend. I cannot live for just myself.
I refuse to do only good for myself when there is an entire race of mankind suffering. I am a fighter, until the end. I refuse to turn my cheek to social injustice and pretend it's not there. I refuse to act like my life is my only care. I see that person laughing in the dark and it breaks my heart. The thought of the pain they are in... some pretending it's all fun and "just" sin.
I know that place very well. I wore the same smile. I kicked it, I laughed, and inside I thought I was dying. Always wanting more with an insatiable appetite. Enough was never enough, there was always something more to acquire...as my life without meaning was slipping away.
I want to help the hungry, the poor and the oppressed. That is not only the homeless...but those with a spiritual deficit. There are too many of us walking around in all kinds of lifestyles, pretending everything is ok. Living a life that is meaningless.Hmmm.. the Great Pretenders... thats a strange thought.I began to wonder one day, why should I walk around in this pain by myself? Why should I pretend that I am never hurting just so I can have a friend? I thought the shit I have had to go through wasn't easy. But why should it be an end all? I thought, there must be a reason why I have had to experience all of this pain. I have realized it was all for gain. It hurt like hell going through it & it still hurts sometimes.
But I have come to realize, there is not much pain that I don't understand. There isn't much that suprises me when I hear it. Finally, out of my pain comes my greatest compassion for the misunderstood, beautiful and dying. I have come to understand.
I have resolved hurting people hurt people. To get beyond the pain of ones heart and to reach the area of trust is no easy obstacle, however, once there, tread softly.
I have come to believe what many of old believed, that mankind is generally good. The desire for each man and woman is really to do good. When they fall short of the social graces for coming up too short, that is when the issues set in. I don't care what people have done or where they come from...there is good in them somewhere. Now, for some we may have to look a little deeper than others, but each has potential. There just needs to be someone to help bring it out in them. Someone to encourage. I want to be that somebody. I want to relate, motivate, and translate the is another way to live. Always remembering that I can only help those that truly want help.
We are not limited to the social injustices that surround us for ourselves nor our fellow man. We cannot allow ourselves to be poverty minded by limiting ourselves to single mindedness. There has to be something that matters more than just yourself.I edited my profile at Freeweblayouts.net , check out these Myspace Layouts!
