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Melancholia

Gonna make your body scream my name.

About Me


I'm pretty fucking Amazing...
I don't want to start thinking again. Not like I have this last week. I can't think again. Not ever again. I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think.
I just want it all to stop spinning.

- The Perks Of Being a Wallflower
You don't need to know my name, only my face, cus it's the last thing you'll see on the spiral downhill. I'm a very analytical thinker, and I am forever the daydreamer. I don't expect to make a huge impact in this world, I'm okay with just existing. I like to stand on the outside, and look in. But all you really need to know is...
I'm 20 year old heart breaker and I'm dead inside.
I am the most hazey person you will ever meet...
And I'm Kinda tapped...
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My Personality

 
Neuroticism 55
Extraversion 35
Openness To Experience 46
Agreeableness 36
Conscientiousness 75
 
You are neither a subdued loner nor a jovial chatterbox. You enjoy time with others but also time alone. Stressful and frustrating situations can often be upsetting to you, but you are sometimes able to get over these feelings and cope with these situations. A desire for tradition does not prevent you from trying new things. Your thinking is neither simple nor complex. To others you appear to be a well-educated person but not an intellectual. You have some concern with others' needs, and are generally pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You set clear goals and pursue them with determination. People regard you as reliable and hard-working.
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My Interests

Drawing, Writing, Reading, Painting, Watching movies, Anime, Manga, Bondage jewelry, Photography, Playing videogames, People watching, Talking, Listening, Being random, Japanese culture, Gothic culture, Alice in Wonderland, Design, Advertising, Theorizing, Stopping to think, Modelling, and...

The greatest love of my life and nothing can replace her.
And of course, I WUV Felix the cat

I'd like to meet:

Johnny Depp, Lewis Caroll, Jhonen Vasquez, Jay Gordon of Orgy, Freddy Mercury, and Rob & Big

Music:

EVERYTHING pretty much

BUT...

I especially hart

-Finch
-MSI
-Beethoven
-Dragonforce
-Queen
Ps: I hate MOST christian music and I LOATHE gospel and MOST country.

Movies:

What Dreams May come, The Nightmare Before Christmas, Biodome, Bagger Vance, Empire Records, The Wedding Singer, Party Monster, Alice in Wonderland, The Breakfast Club, Pretty in Pink, Willie Wonka and the Chocolate factory, Labyrinth, Final Fantasy VII Advent Children, Memoirs of a Geisha...

Television:


Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results

Sociability |||||||||||||||||| 51%
Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||||| 56%
Assertiveness |||||||||||||||||| 51%
Activity Level |||||||||||||||||||||||| 77%
Excitement-Seeking |||||||||||||||||| 53%
Enthusiasm |||||| 16%
Extroversion ||||||||||||||| 50%
Trust |||||||||||| 40%
Morality |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Altruism ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Cooperation ||| 7%
Modesty ||||||||||||||| 46%
Sympathy |||||||||||||||||||||||| 77%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||||| 53%
Confidence |||||||||||| 39%
Neatness |||||||||||||||||| 52%
Dutifulness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 85%
Achievement |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78%
Self-Discipline ||||||||||||||||||||| 68%
Cautiousness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Orderliness ||||||||||||||||||||| 64%
Anxiety |||||||||||||||||||||||| 75%
Volatility |||||||||||||||||| 57%
Depression |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 88%
Self-Consciousness ||||||||| 28%
Impulsiveness ||||||||| 27%
Vulnerability ||||||||||||||||||||| 63%
Emotional Stability ||||||||||||||| 44%
Imagination |||||||||||||||||||||||| 79%
Artistic Interests |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Introspection ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 92%
Adventurousness ||||||||||||||| 50%
Intellect ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Liberalism |||||||||||||||||| 53%
Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 71% Take Free Advanced Big 30 Personality Test
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Books:

Party Monster, The Silver Kiss, Girl, The Virgin Suicides, The Perks of Being a Wallflower, Howl's Floating castle, Alice in Wonderland, Through the Looking Glass, The Secret Life of Bees

Heroes:

Mr Rogers - If an Ex-Marine can have his own kids show, why the hell can't I?!

Johnny Depp - He's very outward about how he thinks, and I respect the way he holds himself. I think its a phenomial person, and I wish more people were like him in general. Now, I'm not talking movie star, I'm talking as the person he is, the real Johnny Depp.
Lewis Carroll - Becuase I feel like we have/had a similar thought process. I feel like I can relate to him.

My Brother - Because he's over come a whole fucking lot, and hes still a great person, and he's still making it. Plus, he's someone you can always depend on, whos always there for you, and I love him for that.

My Uncle Weasel - Because of the person he was. He was happy in his life, or so I like to believe in my own little world. He never married, never had kids, but he was STILL always smiling, joking, happy. He was my other father, he was a big love in my life, and I want to be as good of a person as he was.

My Blog

Today’s Realization

I need new pictures. My hair is FAR longer then the ones that currently exist.Problem is, I'm not very photogenic.Photographer wanted I suppose, thats not me.
Posted by Melancholia on Wed, 03 Oct 2007 06:18:00 PST

MY new anthem

"Little Girls"I kill, kill, kill little girls.I kill, kill, kill little girls.It's such a thrill, thrill, thrill to the worldwhen I kill, kill, kill little girls.Don't you come near me.Don't you come ...
Posted by Melancholia on Mon, 01 Oct 2007 09:45:00 PST

Todays Horoscope...

Tuesday, September 25, 2007Scorpio (Oct 23 - Nov 21)Your magnetism is strong today, making this an ideal time to make any type of presentation. You have a dramatic flair that you can use effectively n...
Posted by Melancholia on Tue, 25 Sep 2007 08:59:00 PST

What would you do if I, sang out of tune...

Sudden URGE to listen to that song today.I was feeling very mellow.Now I feel very numb again. It's a blissful numb though.My wish came true, cus I had a VERY nice night.I suppose that I'll have to ac...
Posted by Melancholia on Tue, 25 Sep 2007 10:32:00 PST

Are you serious?

Last night, another guy called me Bro. Bro? Um, hi, I do own a vagina.This is as bad as the lady at the Singapore calling me my father's Son.Androgenous or something?I can't spell, and at this point, ...
Posted by Melancholia on Mon, 24 Sep 2007 09:26:00 PST

Something old and familar

DesperationWould you care?Would you care if I slid that blade down my armAnd the blood flowed down to my finger tipsand dripped onto those white roses.There would we a flush of red, a sign a love.Then...
Posted by Melancholia on Fri, 21 Sep 2007 09:35:00 PST

New goal in life

I want to become an underwear model.Do you think I could do it?
Posted by Melancholia on Thu, 20 Sep 2007 10:56:00 PST

Look at this shit.

Hilarious. Hilarious. I can image all the 6 years olds pissed because of me alone.PS: I want to go see Across the Universe with me?...
Posted by Melancholia on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 07:24:00 PST

It’s Raining men, Halluah!

So I had my first Club experience last night at the Dark Lady in Providence RI. IT was the most glorious day ever. Very EPIC night. And they served me, which means, I got shitfaced beyond belief. I en...
Posted by Melancholia on Sun, 16 Sep 2007 10:49:00 PST

Don’t they know?

I'm soo fucking ready to let myself fall, deep into that darkness.I don't care anymore...
Posted by Melancholia on Sat, 15 Sep 2007 08:45:00 PST