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What can I say about myself other than, I am still just a kid at heart! I still laugh at fart jokes (or giggle if I hear a real one), and I also Laugh when people fall down. Actually, I think that makes me mean, and not a kid, lol! I also still that that it is funny to be talking to my friends on the phone and trying to them on the computer too. What can I say? I'm odd!
I love my son to death. I wouldn't trade him for anything in the world, but I don't always get along with his father. Nathan has some health problems, but we deal, very well I might add. Chris and I try to make sure that Nathan has everything that he needs and we try to work together to make sure he is happy. He is a really happy kid considering his circumstances.
And my AIM is Nathansmom0802
Like me, or don't like me, I really don't care. My existence is not hinged on your opinion of me!

"Fairy tales do not tell children that dragons exist. Children already know they exist. Fairy tales tell children the dragons can be killed." ~ G.K. Chesterton
A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or are the others crazy? ~ Albert Einstein
(just something to think about...)

"If it is written down it's true!" ~ Craig Ferguson

Let a little SEUSS into your life!!!!
~"A person's a person, no matter how small."~
~"And the turtles, of course...all the turtles are free As turtles and, maybe, all creatures should be."~
~"UNLESS someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It's Not."~
~"Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting. So...get on your way!~
~"I meant what I said and said what I meant...An elephant's faithful one hundred percent"~
(parenting)
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Amanda Marie Spearman
Birthday: November 7, 1981
Birthplace: Portsmouth, VA
Current Location: Baltimore, MD
Eye Color: blue, and one eye is half brown
Hair Color: Blonde
Height: 5'8"
Right Handed or Left Handed: I'm a righty
Your Heritage: German and Polish
The Shoes You Wore Today: black and Tan flip flops
Your Weakness: a guy that can make me laugh
Your Fears: losing Nathan, and being hurt by another guy
Your Perfect Pizza: pepperoni
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Get my house finished
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol (yes, I know I over use it too)
Thoughts First Waking Up: SNOOZE BUTTON!!
Your Best Physical Feature: My left ear, just thinking about it turns me on, ooooohhhhh!
Your Bedtime: whenever I fall asleep, anywhere between 12 and 4...
Your Most Missed Memory: Grandma and Grandpa calling me Mindy
Pepsi or Coke: Diet Pepsi, but regular coke (I know, I'm odd)
MacDonalds or Burger King: Mickey D's
Single or Group Dates: gotta go with the classic single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton's cold brew baby
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: plain coffee girl here
Do you Smoke: Not anymore, quit March 4th 2006
Do you Swear: What the fuck is wrong with you? Shit, hell no I don't fucking cuss!
Do you Sing: I used to get paid quaters back in the day for singing (I was the jukebox while we drank!)
Do you Shower Daily: damn straight
Have you Been in Love: I think I have been in lust and infatuation
Do you want to go to College: yes I would
Do you want to get Married: I'm not sure anymore
Do you belive in yourself: on occasion
Do you get Motion Sickness: definatley when driving in the mountains
Do you think you are Attractive: It's not like I think I'm beautiful or anything, but I do think that I am damn cute!
Are you a Health Freak: it comes and go
Do you get along with your Parents: yes I do
Do you like Thunderstorms: not really, lighting scares me
Do you play an Instrument: nope, just sing
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: LMFAO!!! Yeah, a little too much!
In the past month have you Smoked: nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs: nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date: I'm not really sure if it was a date...
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: haven't even eaten one, let alone a whole box!
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yes, and it was some of the best I have ever had
In the past month have you been on Stage: not that I can remember...
In the past month have you been Dumped: I haven't even dated anyone in like 6 months
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Never done it
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: nope
Ever been Drunk: dude! don't you pay attention? I just said I drank to much this month just a few questions ago.
Ever been called a Tease: more than once
Ever been Beaten up: kinda, but I really don't want to talk about it.
Ever Shoplifted: yes, back in middle school
How do you want to Die: I don't want to think about his right now!!!
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A grown up, duh!
What country would you most like to Visit: Germany, I would love to go see my family
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: blue eyes get me everytime
Favourite Hair Color: don't have a favorite
Short or Long Hair: the older I get the more I like shorter hair
Height: 5'10" and taller
Weight: don't care
Best Clothing Style: depends, not everyone looks good in everything
Number of Drugs I have taken: I've smoked pot a total of 8 times in my life
Number of CDs I own: when I get the time I'll count them and let you know...hold your breath till I get it done ok
Number of Piercings: 8, four in each ear, and one in my tongue
Number of Tattoos: 2, one on my left hand, the other in below my neck on my back
Number of things in my Past I Regret: there are a lot of things, and most of them involve men!
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My Interests

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People that can make me laugh. .. ..

My Blog

To remember...

So imagine this. It is a nice day in April, you're just going around doing housework. Then you go into your son's room to give him lunch and you see the largest bunch of snot bubbles you have seen com...
Posted by on Mon, 07 Jul 2008 20:13:00 GMT

Another Memory

http://i61.photobucket.com/albums/h60/nathansmom0802/easter2 004.jpg Cute picture, isn't it? Well, this weeks post is about this outfit. It was Easter 2004. Chris was working that day so I was alone wi...
Posted by on Tue, 17 Jun 2008 19:24:00 GMT

To make you smile

Well, I missed last week so here is a kind of twofer for you. Nathan didn't learn to smile till just before we finally got to bring him home from the hospital in December 2003. It is a tie for which o...
Posted by on Mon, 09 Jun 2008 19:59:00 GMT

Something new...

I figured that I would go ahead and try something different. Someone told me that I should think of Nathan and smile. Well, I am going to do them, and you, one better. I am going to tell you all stor...
Posted by on Mon, 26 May 2008 10:05:00 GMT

Dont tell me

Don't tell me that I am a good mother...if I was my son would still be here. I have been beating myself up this past month. I've been wondering what it is that I could have done to save Nathan. Thinki...
Posted by on Fri, 07 Mar 2008 13:54:00 GMT

For Nathan

Where the Sidewalk Ends by Shel Silverstein   There is a place where the sidewalk ends And before the street begins, And there the grass grows soft and white, And there the sun burns crimson bri...
Posted by on Tue, 12 Feb 2008 19:56:00 GMT

In a few hours...

In a few hours Nathan will have been dead for two weeks. Two weeks. Just the sound of it surprises me. How can I have kept moving, kept breathing, just kept on doing for two weeks? I don't like sleep...
Posted by on Wed, 06 Feb 2008 00:38:00 GMT

Nathan’s Funeral arrangments

The viewing and funeral will be held at Flecks Funeral Home7601 Sandy Spring Rd.Laurel, MD 20707 The viewing is Tuesday Jan. 292-4 and 6-8 The funeral is Wensday Jan. 30viewing from 11-12service at 12...
Posted by on Thu, 24 Jan 2008 16:36:00 GMT

Nightmares

So, every time I close my eyes lately I keep seeing the same thing. I keep seeing Nathan lying in the NICU the night he had his 109.5 fever. I keep reliving that moment that I walked up to his bedside...
Posted by on Thu, 17 Jan 2008 16:11:00 GMT

That which does not kill us...

Really doesn't make us stronger after all. So I have been working on my house for like a year and a half now. I swear the more I get done the more there is to do. I have to make a final push to finish...
Posted by on Sun, 13 Jan 2008 20:55:00 GMT