my name is sage brown.
& i procrastinate.
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MY LIFE?
There are so many things I have yet to learn experience, enjoy, and despise. But I feel like ending it all right now at this very moment. Everyday I wake up and feel like I am just idle, waiting to die. There is nothing I want, and the things I do want, it is impossible to have [change]. I guess I am the one to blame, because the only one that can change who I am, is me, I take full responsibility of my actions and choices. “Nobody can give you the results you want; you need to do it yourself.†I find it very hard to do it myself on an account of lack of motivation and inspiration from others. I guess I’m too late. I was stuck being too analytical and over processed that I couldn’t find a simple answer to my problem: Believe in yourself. But is that enough? I mean belief can only get me so far, I am the type of person that strives for the acceptance of others, and it affects me on a daily basis.
It’s hard to function in a world that judges you constantly. Which is one of my main downfalls, I have let people judge me down to nothing, and I believed in it, and let it drag me down to a place that I cannot escape. This year I am going to attempt to believe in myself and try to get out of this dark place, and move on from my mistakes and ill-advised choices I have made in the past.
This year looks like it's going to be good.
