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Hey guys: For those who know me , I have changed my profile around. Listen, I am a man of GOD !!! I want to use this profile to express myself and find new Christians, and ppl that have struggled through addictions as I once have . I am raising my 5 yr old son by myself. I could not have gotten through all the battles of addictions I once had,nor could I have won the custody battle without the trust and Love that I have for God and his only son ,Jesus. I was not raised in church as a child, all tho I always knew a little of God and his word. So, I had a little understanding , but no strong faith nor love towards God. As I grew up ,I got into trouble. I started using drugs on into my 20's .I lost a marriage due to drugs and no faith nor understanding of God's word. In that marriage, I had a Beautiful son named Cody Darnell Adkins.You see, I didn't turn to God for his help with my hurt and sense of confusion that I had from the divorce. The only thing I seemed to know was that drugs healed my pain. Well, without God , I lost everthing !!! I lost contact with my son!! I had many failed relationships with women . I was wondering around this world doing the work of the ENEMY !! I met this woman in 1999. I thought WOW, God Loves me , this woman is great . She knew God so much more than I did. She helped me understand his word , his love , his forgiveness!! But the ENEMY would not let me go!! I hurt this woman by showing her the world I had lived in for so long...Drugs!!!! We had our up's and down's through a couple of years . Well, God gave us a child ,Julien Alexander Adkins. I was on cloud 10, God gave me a second chance at being a FATHER !!!! After about 6 months , that ENEMY of ours showed me just how strong it really was. Drug's !!!! They almost killed me!!! It was time for Julien's mother and I to seperate . No, we never got married, nevertheless the hurt and pain was back once again.Yes ,the ENEMY controlled me again ...DRUGS !! I went on for another year or so like this until finaly I was looking at 5 to 10 yrs in prison due to DRUGS !!As I was locked up all I could think about was my son , how i failed again .I asked GOD for his Forgiveness, his Love , His Strength through this hard time . What a wonderful GOD we have !!!!!!!! I got out of jail,went through all the court dates and finaly ended up with no prison time, just 5 yrs probation , with some curfew.Wow ,GOD Loves me !!!!!! I took advantage of this and cleaned my act up! 29 mths(10/6/06) and counting, I have been DRUG FREE !!! God Loves me !!! Now , I have custody of my 5yr old son.I have a great job with Caterpillar !!! I Love God !!!!! Through him I can do anything!!!! Yes, the enemy has tried to use me again , in someways he got me.But not with the DRUGS .Through the small things I have learned to walk with Christ !!!! I will raise my son in church , to show him the GOOD thing's in life !!!! Now I'm not a man that will push God on you , I will tell you GOD Loves you and he will help you , you must believe !!!I have been on myspace for a cpl of years now ,it seams.I have met some really great ppl on here . I want to use myspace to help ppl with understanding GOD's Love and his Forgiveness. God has given me a second chance at life,at love and the most important thing, at being a FATHER again! I will not fail in being a father or in living life again !!!! Thank you God for your Love,your Forgiveness, and for my son, Julien !!!!!!