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Violent Pumpkin.

we have been fighting for so long, to hide the way we are.... everyone's the same.

About Me


..
I'm a cute little fluffy ball of confusion.
I know what i want out of life. I'm just having hell getting there
I know where I'll be in 2016 but not tomorrow.
I remember being 3 months old but not what I wore yesterday.
I've made too many mistakes.
I'm fixing my life.
Pushing a lot of people out
Bringing a few I find worth it in.
Hoping that there is a God he stops laughing at me and lets me enjoy my life.

In death, a disillusioned fantasy and reality are the same...

My Interests


Horses
Music
Dancing (especially in the rain)
Starbucks!!!
Make up
Make up on boys.
Biting!
Scratching
Piercings!!
Tattoos
Drawing tattoo designs
Spazzing
Blood
Vampires
Scars with stories
Black lights
Strobes
Fishnets
The color red
Passion
Wolves
Snakes
Night
Laying in the moonlight.
Random texts
Growling :P
Spontaneity
Cuddling
Lightning
Playing on swing sets
Acting like a little kid
Being around people who dont care
Having those people play with me
..Walks on the beach..
The beach at night with a full moon
Inside jokes
Randomness
Dying my hair
Changing my hair in general
Shiny things
Cats
Muscle cars
Heels, platforms, hell SHOES!
Sex hair
Pre-screenings of my favorite movies
Corny pick up lines
Immature jokes
Monster
Romance
Being in control
Being totally out of control
My insomnia
Swing dance and everything associated with it
Pirates
Ninjas
Pain
Taking risks especially stupid ones
Train tracks
Random little surprises
..Surprises in general..

I'd like to meet:

..Someone who is going to challenge me.
Push me to always be better than I am.
Not let me slack off on my goals
lways believe in me and support me
I'm crazy and impulsive.
Get over it or get out of my way.

Music:

industrial, ebm, synth-pop, old techno, drum and bass, goth...

Movies:

anything that makes me think a little.
things that dont make me think.

Television:

eh.

Books:

everything. i love to read.

Heroes:

none. i dont believe in idolizing people to that extent. people always let you down.

Torn between whats real...

Heart: I wanna believe that I can love again.
Home: Somewhere I haven't found yet.
Beliefs: Everyone's the same.
Building: and making a beautiful thing that will never be made again.
Wondering: who really ever tells the truth.
Spawn: NEVER!
Passion: What I live for.

My Blog

everything you wanted to be.

ok. I'm buckling down. finally. i'm going to ace ths course. i'm going to take three or four in the fall. i'm going to get my property. i'm going to run my barn. i'm going to get my degrees. i'm going...
Posted by all that's left is love and ashes... on Thu, 31 May 2007 03:53:00 PST

my god have mercy on our dirty little hearts....

Lots has changed. I'm at home again. Not sure how much I'm liking it. Yes I get to see my mom and cat but... I only get to see him once or so a week. I'm learning to dispise rules more and more each d...
Posted by all that's left is love and ashes... on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 04:32:00 PST

she says, you're perfect...

blah...scared about tomorrow. it's just data entry but... it's a steady full time job. only going to last until i make damn sure i got wachovia but... in the meantime... it's not too shabby. coming ou...
Posted by all that's left is love and ashes... on Tue, 27 Mar 2007 05:30:00 PST

<3

i am honestly the happiest girl in the world right now. a year with the most amazing man i've ever met.i hope this never ends. i love you korey.always.
Posted by all that's left is love and ashes... on Sun, 11 Feb 2007 06:27:00 PST

taken me all this time to find out what i need and i'm doing fine now

new year. i'm liking it so far. terrified of actually saying that but i'm going to anyway. riding my pony. working lots. making money. getting a new car. not fighting with mom. smiling. waking up besi...
Posted by all that's left is love and ashes... on Sat, 06 Jan 2007 10:23:00 PST

I can't explain you would not understand. this is not how i am. i have become, comfortably numb

so yeah. christmas. i just figured out what i want. XDpink floyd stuff. :P these in particular...Guitar pickCool thing that would make me actually bring my books to class :Pface posterlighted sign thi...
Posted by all that's left is love and ashes... on Mon, 04 Dec 2006 09:59:00 PST

so i run, hide, tear myself up and start again with a brand new name.

so yeah... off to work again. first day back. my buddy is gone and some spaz (bad spazziness) is there to take his place. woo. :.. cameron seemed in a pissy mood when i called. i can't get him the job...
Posted by all that's left is love and ashes... on Mon, 20 Nov 2006 10:18:00 PST

we seek solutions but no cure, questions to our answers, dream the highest dream of you

so yeah... i need advise. i'm looking into getting a new car. what i' dlike to do is get it "now" obviously not today but soon. so my car is still running and i can do any work a need/want to the new ...
Posted by all that's left is love and ashes... on Thu, 02 Nov 2006 10:11:00 PST

I"m dying inside and theres nothing i can do but what does it matter.

this is fucking crazy. they made comments about my back being too straight because the muscles were pulling th curve out and now they have me in a brace that hurts like hell. is going to rub blisters ...
Posted by all that's left is love and ashes... on Mon, 30 Oct 2006 02:26:00 PST

the funeral of hearts and a plea for mercy. when love is a gun seperating me from you.

lots of thinking tonight. can't really say on what. i just know what i want now. fully know. for the first time in my life i actually have a plan. somehow i'm going to make it happen. somehow i have t...
Posted by all that's left is love and ashes... on Thu, 19 Oct 2006 09:41:00 PST