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&lt;BeNiTa&gt; AppLeBuM

*i don't know, this could break my heart or save me. Nothing's real, until you let go completely*

About Me

Let's See...

I'm FUNNY. CRAZY (or so my friends say) .INTELLIGENT. THICK. hehe. SHY , yet TALKATIVE .A LOVELY INDIVIDUAL.A LAID BACK TYPE OF LADY. INDEPENDENT DEPENDENT [on them school loans! lol].EAGLES FAN!. ECCENTRIC. ONE OF THE NICEST PEOPLE YOU WILL EVER MEET . SARCASTIC . "I'm the type of girl who will burst out laughing in dead silence at something that happened yesterday..."buying MOVIES, BOOKS, and EARRINGSis my ADDICTION. A BIG KID ...but not immature...it's just that I'm not one of those people who say "I'm a grown a** woman, 'cuz the truth is, I'm 21. I'm just becoming a woman (now if this is still up here when I"m 25, then it's a problem).SO...


I CAN'T WAIT TO GROW UP!!!

I'm 21!!!! There are a few things that I'm looking forward in this 21st year of my life. Voting for the first time is number 1. Then there's of course getting into clubs and drinking a lil bit (lol). But the most important thing I'm looking forward to is not being the same person I was when I was 20. I can start over, get on my grown woman status in a serious way. So I'm making a serious effort to start changing now. I know where I wanna be in most facets of my life and I'm not automatically gonna get there just because I've turned 21, so I have to make some conscious decisions starting now. And I am. No matter what I want, where I am, where I'm going, IT ALL COMES DOWN TO ME.
i'M CHANGING, GROWING, SPREADING MY WINGS AND FLYING, LAUGHING (at all the stupidity and ignorance), HURTING, HEALING, SMILING, SLEEPING, EATING, THINKING (about who I am and where I'm trying to go and how i'm gonna get there),THANKING (GOD for all of HIS many blessings), AND MOST IMPORTANTLY... LOVING (myself, my family, my friends, my GOD, and this life with all that I have)... CAUSE LIFE IS TOO SHORT AND PAINFUL AND EXCITING AND JUST TOO WONDERFUL TO LIVE IT ANY OTHER WAY...


*MAYBE AT THE END OF THIS ROAD I MIGHT CATCH A GLIMPSE OF ME* ~Kelly Clarkson

My Interests



<[changing>]
"I Choose"

Because you never know where life is gonna take you
and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose.
[Verse 1:]
Here am I now looking at [21]
and I got so much to say.
I gotta get this off of my chest,
I gotta let it go today.
I was always too concerned about what everybody would think.
But I can't live for everybody,
I gotta live my life for me.(Yeah)
I’ve reached a fork in the road of my life
Ain't nothing gonna happen unless I decide.
[Chorus:]
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose. (Yeah)
[Verse 2:]
I done been through some painful things I thought that
I would never make it through.
Filled up with shame from the top of my head to the soles of my shoes.
I put myself in so many chaotic circumstances,
but by the grace of God I've been given so many second chances.
But today I decided to let it all go.
I'm dropping these bags, I'm making room for my joy.
[Chorus:]
[Bridge:]
Because you never know where life is gonna take you
and you can't change where you've been.
But today, I have the opportunity to choose. (Hey ey)
Release the guilt about why things happen the way they did
cuz life is gone do what it do.
And every day, I have the opportunity to choose.
[Verse 3:]
From this day forward I'm going to be exactly who I am.
I don't need to change the way that I live
just to get a man. (NO!)
I even had a talk with my mama and I told her the day I'm grown,
from this day forward, every decision I make will be my own. And hey!
[Chorus:]
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be courageous in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am. I choose.
(And I choose) to be the best that I can be.
(I choose) to be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am.
I choose.
[Bridge:]

MY SCHOOL: VCU!

CHUCKS ALL DAY!

SOMETHING I'VE BEEN GETTING MORE AND MORE INTERESTED IN: PHOTOGRAPHY

I LOVE TO READ A GOOD BOOK [took this pic from my collection]

MUSIC

EAGLES!!!

HEAR NO EVIL, *SPEAK NO EVIL*, SEE NO EVIL... AIDS AWARENESS

I'd like to meet:

 whateverlife was here bulletin

Music:

~Jill Scott
~India.Arie
~Avril Lavigne
~Kelly Clarkson
~Pink
~Ludacris
~Musiq Soulchild
~Christina Aguilera
~Chris Brown
~Destiny's Child (Beyonce, Michelle, & Kelly together or apart)

Movies:

Too Many To Really Name but my faves are:
~Dreamgirls
~Love & Basketball
~Ever After
~X-Men (All)
~Why Did I Get Married (the play)
~Where The Heart Is
~The Notebook
~Pride And Prejudice

Television:

~Grey's Anatomy
~UGLY BETTY
~Brothers&Sisters
~Desperate Housewives
~America's Next Top Model
~The Game
~The Hills
~OCTOBER ROAD
~A Baby Story
~Real World
~Different World (it's been off the air for over 10 years & it's still the best)
~Sex & The City (yup still bangin' even though it's off the air)

Books:

AUTHORS: Zane, Eric Jerome Dickey, Dara Joy, Carl Weber, LaJill Hunt, William Shakespere, V.C. Andrews, Sheila Copeland
TITLES: The Holy Bible, Resurrecting Mingus, The Rapture Of Canaan, Pride And Prejudice, Satin Doll, Satin Nights, Like Water For Chocolate, Single Mom, A Day Late And A Dollar Short, The Ties That Bind: Timeless Values For Afrian American Families, & Where The Heart Is

Heroes:

MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST...WHO ELSE HAS SAVED ME?!

My Blog

The "Hood" is SOOOO overrated...

Lmao!I mean that it's weird that the "hood" is even "rated" anything. I think it's weird that being from the hood is a good thing. I'm just not undersatnding that concept fully. It doesn't seem to wor...
Posted by [[BeNiTa]] AppLeBuM on Sat, 13 Sep 2008 05:31:00 PST

Its Really Time...

All I want to see RIGHT NOW, TODAY, AND FOREVER IS.... [CHANGE] Here are some videos that I had on my page and I thought were really good, they just took up too much space... http://www.youtube.com/wa...
Posted by [[BeNiTa]] AppLeBuM on Thu, 08 May 2008 09:14:00 PST

*More To Think About*

Sooo& if u haven't noticed, lately I've been a little bit more politically conscious, well concerning African-Americans. I guess I'm growing and being around different types of people has made me more...
Posted by [[BeNiTa]] AppLeBuM on Fri, 04 Apr 2008 05:19:00 PST

{THE PROBLEM WITH BLACK FOLKS}

I’m sitting here @ home thinking about the problem with black folk no a days... lol I know it sounds funny, but i don’t know why but I’ve really been wondering where and when we went...
Posted by [[BeNiTa]] AppLeBuM on Thu, 13 Mar 2008 08:49:00 PST

WHY US?!

I'm sitting here reading my African History book and as I read this book I begin to think about my hair and a comment one of my African friends made. She asked if I had something else in me. I told he...
Posted by [[BeNiTa]] AppLeBuM on Thu, 21 Feb 2008 07:52:00 PST

[[BORED!!!]]

Right now I'm sitting in my room thinking about the world today... I feel the need to write more than this, but there is way to much going on that I think that that simple statement is enough. Are we ...
Posted by [[BeNiTa]] AppLeBuM on Sat, 12 Jan 2008 01:10:00 PST