I just wrote this off the top of my head, NO i'm not in love, NO im not missing anyone, it's call expressive writing..........I Miss You.I know I lost you and it took me some time to see, but now I know I can't live without you.I feel so empty inside and I see the world differently when I'm not with you.I'm a man and I can admit when I'm wrong, I make mistakes and letting you walk out of my life was the biggest one I could ever make.And now getting you back is all that matters to me now.Before I close my eyes every night I pray that the lord some way some how puts you back in my life.I miss you so much, in your arms is where I belong. I've tried to stop loving you but I can't get you out of my heart.What is it that I have to do, what do I have to say?To get you back in my life. I can't sleep and this is killing me inside no matter how hard I try to hide it.Just show me the way back to her heart lord.Nothing makes sense to me when your not around, I need you near.I'll do what it takes as a man to have you back, I don't want t be alone anymore your everything I want and will ever need, but by chance if you decide that I'm not what you want right now, I won't stress it, you'll be back, there's no need to pray for something that is already written.I Miss You.B.O ----------------------------------------------------------- SURPRISENovember 17th,11:30 pm My flight leaves and I start to think of you and what you mean to me.Yea thiings could be a little better but what can you do but look to the future.More rainy days than sunny, with many more downs than up's I push strong.Have I ever cheated?The thought never crossed my mind.How do I know I still Love you?I haven't seen you in months and your all I think of, there isn't an ocean big enough to set or keep apart my heart from yours.Most things happen without the act or process of explaning, or maybe I was blind,Love can cause you to accept as true or valid what is false or invalid..But I know you don't hear me. But I push strong.Man this 15 hours flight is almost over just a few stops to make and I'll be home to you baby,323 roses for every day I missed with you, I know you didn't think i was listening but, I heard you when you mentioned that new whip you wanted it will be delivered in the morning I have the keys right here.Nah mister I already know what I want that Luxury Fit 5.54 ct pear shaped diamond size 6 please, Oh yea were getting serious now.There isn't another fish in the sea I would rather chase than you.as i get get closer home I called your cell phone but you didn't answer, you didn't pick up the house line either, that's great she'll come to the house and the suprise will be even better.I pull up to the house, roses in hand keys in my pocket. I turn the key and finally i'm home, I missed my bed.I enter the kitchen when I hear a noise, " Damn girl still hasn't learned to turn the tv off when she leaves I see" Just then I look at the table and I see your purse.I call your cell it's ringing so i know your here. I make my way up the stairs and I start to hear squeaking, now moaning, My heart has fallen, And I can no longer swollow. " Do I want to get closer?" " She better be watching a porn", I get closer to the door and I hear his voice.I slowly turn the knob and open the door as he insist that you call him daddy.Occupied neither of you never noticed the door was open and I was standing there I yellSURPRISE! ----------------------------------------------------------- My Love.Have you ever been tied to something with so much emotion that when it was over you felt lost?You know that kinda hard to swollow feeling, that sudden case of the dry mouth and throat.It's funny only because at that moment you have a million reasons why it can't come to and end.For months you linger dazed and confused refusing to accept the truth, it's over. desprate and looking for reasonyou start to think of the times that weren't so great, and you start to blame yourself.Maybe I could have, maybe i should have, was it me?Didn't I give you my all? were we not good together?What did they have that I didn't? Does he hold you better?I don't have to worry cause i know I'm better at putting it between the legs.I guess i can understand, all great thing must come to and end good or bad.But when you love something letting go is the last thing you want to do. will be the hardest thing you'll ever do.guess we do have the momeries, the late night I could hardly sleep, nervous cause the next day i knew i would be with you.Many many night the loud screaming of my name when i'm doing what I do well. what an addictive sound.lol hitting that thang againg the hardwood floors, thoses were the good times.But I guess the good thing about all these memories is that I will have you forever.My Love : BASKETBALL.....B.O