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pillowpants

scream me soft lullabies! suffocating. chocking on regrets. wake up, wake up. its not me you see. di

About Me

I love music..like you wouldnt belive it..fuck, i mean if you know me..you know that i practically live it..and if i could, i would play it...but no..im not cool like all those people..but i dont care...uh i like video games i play them on my psp all the time..i also spend most of my time listening to my ipod and drawing/writing or reading..(not much reading..cuz theyres not that many great books out there) but yeah..uh i guess thats all for now..oh and i like going to concerts...like at the chain reaction..yeah..best place ever

My Interests

I ♥Love♥Joey Jordison
but this about sums it all up
music, poetry,photography. art. death, bloody things.cemeterys, masoleums, thunderstorms. sorrow, despair and morbid subjects...eerie fascination with serial killers. vampires. some anime. reading. writing. music=my life i like metal, screamo, goth, punk, hardcore, rock and some emo.
i like charles manson heres a poem...that explains how i am..

Goth

Goth is not a question of fashion,
It will not come and go through time;
It is a state of mind, body and soul,
A way of living between darkness and light;
Different from others,
Standing out, for the oddity of our ways;
Condemning our style of living, beliefs,
Remaining a mystery to many;
Goths do not worship Satan, nor are we vile beings,
Black is our way, but not always our color;
Extraordinary on our views of life,
We shall forever stand out in brilliance!

Copyright © 2006 Deathwish

I'd like to meet:

someone that likes what i like..other than that no one!...
or maybe, just maybe...you
while am at it, check out my web page, i made it all by myself click here to see it
i fixed my page with Darkest Point

Music:


This is most of them...but i now im missing alot..because i love music so im always listening to new things

FROM FIRST TO LAST .Aiden.As Cities Burn.A Walk With Anastasia.A Static Lullaby.Atreyu. August Burns Red. Brand New. Come Back Kid. Coheed and Cambria. Emery. Eigthteen Visions. A Funeral For A Friend. Green Day. Hawthorne Heights. Haste the Day. LessThan Jake. Matchbook Romance.old My Chemical Romance.Marilyn Manson.Murderdolls.Escape the Faith.Unearth.Nodes of Ranvier.On the Last Day.Scars of Tomorow.Strung Out.Vanna.Paramore.Dead to Fall.MXPX.NIN.Nirvana.RosesAreRed. Otep.Senses Fail.Slipknot.Silverstein.System of A Down.Story of the Year.Spitalfield.Taking Back Sunday.The Casualties.The Black Maria.Underoath.The Offspring.Finch.Yellowcard.No FX.Sum 41.Jamison Parker.Mega Deth.Gold Finger.Garbage.KoRn.StoneSour.The.Static X.Disturbed.Fenix TX.Nerfherder.Thursday.Thrice.Ramstein.Seether.Weezer.Pearl Jam.Flogging Molly.Boys Night Out.Rotting Christ.New Found Glory.Evergreen Terrace.Bush.Stroke 9.Bad Religion.Saves the Day.Our Lady Peace.The Used.Face to Face.Social Distortion.Unwritten Law.Drowning Pool.Hoobastank.Dimmu Borgir.Bleeding Through.Unworthy Eyes.Blindside.AFI.Orgy.Bayside.Kittie.The Hurt Process.Circle Takes the Square.Showbreed.Norma Jean.Broadway.Craddle of Filth.Soulfly.Children of Bodom.Stretch Arm Armstong.Maxwell Demon.The Blank Theory.Still Remains.The Black Dahlia Murder.In Flames.Decide.Lamb of God.Stalins WAR.From Autumn to Ashes.Take the Crown.Far From Heroes.Within Temptation.the Birthday Massacre.Tsunami Bomb.Flyleaf.Last Saturday.ByeHerSmile.A Bittersweet Catastrophe.I Am Ghost.Rise Against.The Killing Tree.A Bullet For My Valentine.Alkaline Trio.Between Home And Serenity.A Change of Pace.Dredg.Lacuna Coil.Scary Kids Scaring Kids.Fear Before the March of Flames.Jack Off Jill.Slick Shoes.The Starting Line.Die Queen Die.Letters to Cleo.Save Ferris.Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.Hellogoodbye.Inked in Blood.Against All Authority.Lit.Lydia.Mae.Boysetsfire.Alexisonfire.Millencolin .Amber Pacific.the Ataris.Armor for Sleep.Murder by Death.Third Try.Slayer.Blink 182.Smashing Pumpkins.Third Eye Blind.Anti-Flag.Black Flag.At the Drive-In.the Clash.Ramones.Anything But Joey.Agent 51.Off by One.Between the Buried and Me.the Bled.Descendants.Flee the Seen.Greeley Estates.Blood Has Been Shed.Scarling.All that Remains.Muster Plug.the Agony Scene.

Movies:

Donnie Darko.Butterfly Effect.Fight Club.Underworld.Resident Evil.Harold And Kumar go to White Castle.Face Off.Old School.Nightmare Before Christmas.MALL RATS.Bio Dome.Super Troopers.Jack Ass 1+2.Clerks 1+2.Dogma.Jay and silent Bob strike Back.Billy Madison.Happy Gilmore.Grandmas Boy.Eurotrip.Road Trip.Van Wilder.Beerfest. Heathers.

Television:

Family Guy.The Simpsons.South Park.That 70's show.American Dad.My name is Earl. anything funny

Books:

the Vampire Game + Vampire Kisses
Dazzle, Helter Skelter
i like books with: vampires,blood, death, murder, mystery, fantasy, horror..
im starting to like some gothic manga..

Heroes:

FAVORITE LYRICS I Liked You Better Before You Were Naked On The Internet
It's amazing what you'll find when you just open your eyes
Sometimes love can leave you blind
But still you try to cover all the lies
And ignore all the signs
Sometimes love can leave you blind
What I thought was a certainty
Has left me
Spinning in circles again
Comparing to the last time that we had spoke
It seems to me that you're not happy
Like you used to be
To you I'm like a flavor that wouldn't last
You took one bite than spat me out real fast
And now this mark remains and will never ever go away
And now this mark remains and will never ever go away
And now this mark remains and will never ever go away
Between Home and Serenity
Words Unspoken
Don 't let me fall asleep tonight,
cause I'm not sure that I'll wake up
I can barely hear you,
breath those words tonight,
that break my heart.
So just go
and let me believe in everything you say,
for tonight I'll stay here
just call me when you get back.
And if not you know I'll do it anyway
come twelve fifteen,
I can't sleep
till I hear you your voice too, tonight.
So just go
and let me believe in everything you say,
for tonight I'll stay here
just call me when you get back.
So I go and take this chance again,
and I know it's what I want but can't have,
doing it over and over again.
And He And I know I'll be so happy.
So I go again, Try this one more time.
So just go
and let me believe in everything you say,
for tonight I'll stay here
just call me when you get back..
(don't let me fall asleep
tonight is everything I have)
I know that in time it will be fine,
you know that I was,
I was right tonight.
HURT
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep me

My Blog

The Longest Survery ever (if you wana know a little about me)

I AM: squishyI WANT: to get my own placeI HAVE: lots of cdsI WISH: i could meet joeyI HATE: everyone and no one at the same time I MISS: my cuz.....I FEAR: dont know....standing next to tall poles???I...
Posted by pillowpants on Tue, 12 Dec 2006 11:00:00 PST

tag..im it? uh ill finish the rest later

The first player of this game starts with the "7 weird things/habits about your-self" People who get tagged need to write a blog of their 7 weird things/ habits, as well as state these rules clearly f...
Posted by pillowpants on Fri, 03 Nov 2006 11:05:00 PST

Picturesque Ending

the autumn leaves have fallenthe skies have turned to blackI stand all aloneNo one by my side The grey desolate skies bleed dark with despairbeautiful musicof violins and pianosplay their soft lullabi...
Posted by pillowpants on Thu, 12 Oct 2006 10:22:00 PST

unknown

Reminising through vague and forgotten memoriesOh, woeful day!As our requiems play their mournful tuneThe veils of darkness plague us with their curseA town in wakeA queen on her death bedAll chaos a...
Posted by pillowpants on Tue, 10 Oct 2006 12:27:00 PST

and still the rain falls

and still the rain fallsas the veils of darkness shroud the already blackened treesunseen violence contorting n forcing them to shed their already dead leavesstrong windstwisting the boughsforcing the...
Posted by pillowpants on Mon, 04 Sep 2006 12:25:00 PST

the process to our ending

one perfect momentas time stands stilllife slowly playingas my dream becomes realitythe bitter fragance of carnations surrounds the roomas the music slowly beginssweet and tenderas violins play there...
Posted by pillowpants on Sat, 20 May 2006 06:09:00 PST

..,..

Dreary Lifeslowly fadingromantic lullabies playingas i take you by the handall hope lostas my tragic dream breaksWe kiss under the killing treethe cold rain falls upon usas we stand face to facetrue ...
Posted by pillowpants on Tue, 02 May 2006 04:07:00 PST

bitter endings

my black broken heart bleeds as i watch you die all hell set loseas angels burn to ashes tattered wings and bleeding eyes as they cry for your bitter ending your black wedding dresstainted in bloodas ...
Posted by pillowpants on Sat, 08 Apr 2006 02:56:00 PST

a soliloquy of untold truths

i had a story to tellbut you weren't listeningmy tragic talean epic eulogy for my deathmy requiem playsas they mourn for my demiseoh desolate dayas i remember the endmy heart in your handsmy life on t...
Posted by pillowpants on Tue, 28 Mar 2006 10:44:00 PST

pieces mended

finger on triggergun pointed at headknife at throatas i am forced to take your lifebullets flyingshots heard across townas the city goes up in flamesbeneath the ashes i'll layawaiting the end of your ...
Posted by pillowpants on Thu, 16 Mar 2006 07:26:00 PST