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esther

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About Me

In the wreckage I find my strength. Bold in faith and foul in mouth, she deceives her encounters with the suns and the moons. Where is her innocence? Slain by her birth. I now forsake all that I am and all that I aimlessly seek to become, and allow myself to just be. Just be. Just be. Just be the child who patiently sits and waits to listen. To One whose glory is my own to claim in faith, trust and Love. The Love that is, was and forever will be.. just be. Jesus to You I commit my soul, my life, and my mind. Mold my mind and water my heart, let me be Your servant until death is a memory and through this Life I will eternally live. Yes I will live because You died. I Love because You first were Love and You first loved me. Amen. Amen was where I once finished and where I once began. Let it be I said..let it be. And here I find myself, taken aback by life. Oh darkness where you wished I'd fall, you clung to the dagger...falsely hoped I'd release myself from the grip of Love. In times like these I know His truth like a woman knows her husband, so deep and true, so pure and righteous. I am in the great I AM. I cannot be moved, I cannot be rendered helpless. I am strong in the Lord and in the power of His might, for the joy of the Lord is my strength. And in the depths of His mercy I reside so I that I may live in the chaotic depths of freedom. It is for freedom that Christ has set me free. Freedom I breathe and in freedom I shall live. Peace fills my heart like the rushing waters of the deepest oceans.. and in these waves I will flow, overtaken by the God of the oceans, the God of the heavens, the God of the earth, the God of my heart. Selah.

My Interests

Music. Being the music, feeling the music, living the music. Going to the beach at 1 am wit my ladies on a lonely winter night. Wheremyladies? Watchin Counterproductive jam out. Helping people. Sunshine. The color green. Every single shade of it. Trees. In every tree you can see God's face. Looking out at the crowd swayin at a show. Cuddling with my favorite cuddlebear, Nornor. Being FREE. Watchin the Cosby show. Tea, iced or steamin hot! Tha's wassup! Sleeping in...my bed just feels so good with all those blankets. Kickin back with the Tulsa homies watchin movies and enjoying life. Loving with my whole heart. SINGING! Thank you God for MUSIC!! Driving up highway 9 at the perfect time at sunset when the sun rays spill through the tall trees... i always feel like I'm in Disneyland. Experiencing divine revelation of life, love and true freedom, true joy with the lover of my heart, Jojo. Choreographing routines off the top of my head and doing interperative dances to entertain the masses. Writing. Sitting in the forrest and just being. Cloudy rainy days. Singing to my Lord, Yahwe You are every breath I take.
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I'd like to meet:

My maker, Jesus... you my dog. THE MAN: Jimi Hendrix. I meet amazing people everyday... what else could I ask for?

Music:

Music that moves me, music that makes me want to make music. Trinity (formerly known as Timmy). Counter Prodctive. Audioslave. Jimi Hendrix.Aretha Franklin. The Innocence Mission. Pink Floyd. Led Zeplin. Lauryn Hill. Bob Marley. Eric Clapton. Del the Funky Homosapien. Metallica. The Beatles. Queen. Tom Petty. Rage Against the Machine. Elton John. Ella Fitzgerald. G N' E. Cream. Sage Francis. The Eagles. Madelyn Peryoux. Lynard Skynard. Stevie Ray Vaughn. Creedence Clearwater. Santana. Temptations. Sublime. Tool. Etta James. DC Talk. The Fugees. Murrs. Joe Cocker. Common. The Rolling Stones. Coldplay. The Doors. Mamas and the Papas. Red Hot Chili Peppers. Foghat. Talib Kweli. Mac Dre. Living Legends. Kanye West. Much more...

Movies:

Braveheart. The Sound of Music. Dazed and Confused. The Lord of the Rings Triology. All the Star Wars. Gladiator. Both Ace Venturas. Tommy Boy. Billy Madison. The Mask. A Christmas Story. Fern Gully. Police Academy 1 and 2. It's starting to get really annoying listing all this.

Television:

My brother once said to me, "Can you feel your brain rotting?"

Books:

The Word. word. Captivating by Stasi and John Elderige. Wild at Heart by John Elderidge.

Heroes:

Jesus Cristo...the air I breathe, the music I make, the being I be, I wish to love you more and more through this eternity we call life...with you wishes are true. My mother... your life is so inspiring, one day I hope I can love like you. My baby sister Gracey... thank you for taking care of me throughout our lives, you are the woman I want to become. My brother Noah... your words are so wise, I am honored that they befall me. My cuz with the buz Abel... you make me feel like I am worth the world and like I can, thank you. The friends of my heart, I love you. Jojo, what would I do without your being, without the truth that is you. I can fly in your presence, and even in your absence..more still. My daddy... you are my wisdom when I am weak, you are the roots I learn and grow from, thank you for becoming the father I have always wanted you to be, thank you for making me feel whole. I love you daddy.

My Blog

this is my life

can i be honest? i have so much to say... and no poetic inspiration flowing to my fingertips. i'm a leaf in the air, driven by a purposeful Wind, engulfed by a joyful Sun. can you grasp the sense of i...
Posted by esther on Mon, 05 May 2008 09:50:00 PST

waking life

In every moment that i am alive, i know that Jesus is my salvation. As the sun passes on i understand more and more the breath that i take. it is tied to Him as a child is tied to her mother at birth....
Posted by esther on Tue, 31 Jul 2007 01:02:00 PST

Just be.

Que sira, sira. In how much truth do we submerge ourselves day by day? What will be, will be. Will you be today? Ours minds are savagely distorted and conformed by the haziness, the darkness surroundi...
Posted by esther on Fri, 22 Jun 2007 04:40:00 PST

JOY!

JOY! Did I ever really know what joy felt like?! I can't say I did... cause I've got something bubbling up inside of me...like a brook, but I can't really explain, at least not justly. Oh it's ssssooo...
Posted by esther on Thu, 21 Dec 2006 09:18:00 PST

Nancy I love you and I miss you.

Sometimes... Black pearls fall into the sky.
Posted by esther on Tue, 24 Jan 2006 11:21:00 PST

chill

Right now I just am. I can't tell if I like it or not. I feel like I always wanna be... I'm always tryin to get somewhere... But right now I'm just here... and I'm happy, but i feel like I should need...
Posted by esther on Thu, 13 Oct 2005 05:51:00 PST