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About Me


hometown: izmit
birth date: 1988
real name: saba arat
city that i live: istanbul
occupation: psychology
*secondary: music
bands: the pigskins
special addictions: ibanez,smoke,fritz,replay
duty: livin on "earth",emberrasing brain fucker beliefs
doings: sleeping,writing,eating,talking much,playing guitar
personality: oblivious,tactless,ruthless,pigheaded,non-believer
free time doings: music,eating bugs(human ones)
shits that i hate: bigots,poseres that interested in me
things that i love: calmness
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I wish I could pull this off me, the weight is dragging me down and it's getting exhausting.
Frozen in time but the clock keeps ticking.
I fear to look at my life and see that there is something I'm missing.
Each day, I lay awake.
Empty Inside looking for the next break.
I am seeing and I am breathing but I am looking for a goddamn reason.
As my jaw proceeds to separate off of my skull, I wonder how to dig myself out of this hole.
I try so hard, but I just can't win.
But here we go again.
The weeks pile up and I'm ascending downward, always looking for a plan for the next few hours.
I lock it all in and I shut myself up.
This is not normal, This is not me.
Isolated and alienated, my foundation has been decimated.
Forlon and fucking war torn.
Problems of the world leave my face with a bitter scorn.
Please return my carnium.
And no has one fucking word to say to elaborate on how everything is going to be OK.
Grief, despair, anger, animosity.
I feel hollow, but filled up with sorrow, but I keep my head up for a better tomorrow.
Grinding my teeth down flat.
Morning comes along and my incisors are gone.
Lift the curse off of my face.
Relieve me of my burden, so I can know my own name.
Take a deep breath and blow away the storming rain.
I want to reassume my body.
I want you to recognize my face.
If I could turn back time to a better day, then maybe I would stop grinding my teeth.

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My Blog

Gör, bu düün bir devrin sonudur...

Devirlerin sonlar1 cand1r, canand1r. Y1kana seyran, y1k1lana hüsrand1r. Bizim devrin sonu çok ac1mas1z olacak...Devrin sonuna devrimle gidiyoruz. Devrim alfabe dei_tirmekten daha zor, sokaklar1 kanla...
Posted by on Fri, 30 Jan 2009 09:35:00 GMT

A jaded prophecy by a death oracle

^ekersiz çay tad1nda el? Yüzünü görmek istemeyeceim kadar memenetsiz... Önce kokusu, sonra kendisi gelir belan1n! Siz burnunuzu koku kesilene kadar yakla_t11n1z anda bile kullanam1yorsunuz.  ...
Posted by on Fri, 22 Aug 2008 04:24:00 GMT

Siz tan1_mad1n1z m1?

Kap1m1 çalan her_ey olabilirdiAma sen deildin...Sen deildin, anlad1m. Zorunda kald1m. ^imdi sorunum _u ki, o kap1 her çald11nda seni umud etmeye devam edecekmiyim? Bu ne kadar sürer? Çok uzun olm...
Posted by on Wed, 25 Jun 2008 03:24:00 GMT

Yamur bir tek ellerime dü_mez

    Ba_lad11m her _eyin bir amac1 oluyormu_ gibi olamaz m1? Bir çizgi üstünde yürüyen birinin çizgisini herkes görebiliyor ama kendisi göremiyor olamaz m1? Ya da yürüyen, her görülen _eyin bile do...
Posted by on Mon, 16 Jun 2008 05:27:00 GMT

Wishlist!

Saat 18.30, kaldirimda bekliyorum. Pazar genclerinin tum laflarina ragmen! Nerdesiniz? Saat 18.37, lanet olsun çok zor oldu. Biri arabay1 kullan1yor, birinin elinde telefonlar.. Ben yine her zamanki ...
Posted by on Sat, 24 May 2008 05:32:00 GMT

Telegrafi Seviyesinde Diyaloglar

Saturday, March 22, 2008 ..TR> Dans Eden Yildizlarim.. En sonunda! Tesekkur ederim Fritz, olmasaydin hala nefes alamiyor olacaktim.Cektigim her sancinin bir armagani olacagini bana ogrettigin ic...
Posted by on Mon, 24 Mar 2008 11:24:00 GMT

Odunleme bir cesit yalnizlik midir?

Odunleme bir cesit yalnizlik midir? Kelime anlamina bakarsak, hayir degildir! Hic bir alakasi da yoktur. Odunleme ve yalnizligin cizgileri daimi olarak paralel gider ama asla kesismez. En azindan bu ...
Posted by on Tue, 29 Jan 2008 15:51:00 GMT

" Zuhal Berna F. "

ufak birsey yapsaydin, kendin icin... beni gec, ben er ya da gec ayakta kalirim. bugune kadar kalmadim mi? kalmak icin aglamadim mi? bir damla gozyasini harcasaydin, kendin icin. dogru olmadigina in...
Posted by on Fri, 18 Jan 2008 17:31:00 GMT

Rest In Peace

Rest In Peace Ben.. REST IN PEACE !!!! :(
Posted by on Wed, 02 Jan 2008 16:15:00 GMT