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.Dily August Iola|fifteen|Single|Lewes.
When i look into the mirror every morning when I wake up I don’t see anyone special, I’m just the same as every other person on the planet. I’m not Alpha or Omega, I’m not perfect, not even close.
Honesty is my speciality, but people take it for granted. Every bit of powerful hate that runs through my veins demolishes every segment of a lie.
I’m different from most people, I don’t lie, I don’t take things for granted but more importantly I stick to what I know. I ran through the toughest years of my life when I entered teenage digits, I lost special people to death, I lost my motivation but most of all I didn’t feel like everything around me was real.
Now hitting right back to reality everything seems harder than the start. People you meet treat you like your nothing but shit on the bottom of their worn down shoes. People don’t look at you for your individualism; they look at you because they see in a stereotypical group.
The honest truth, I hate a lot of things around me. I want to make a new start, i want to bring back the dead, i want a job i will like, i want to be older and i want people to start acting themselves. None of this will happen, perhaps some but only in time.
People can wish.
I may be one of the people you can talk to for hours on end, or I can be one of the people you’ll never get on with no matter how hard you or I will try.
It’s your choice to find out.
It has got to the point in our friendship when you have become more of a sister than a best friend. I can’t live a day without you. It’s painful when you have to go away from me for more than an hour.
I hate the fact I can’t see you every day at school now because I’m growing up to quickly. I breathe every gasp of air for you my darling, you’re my world.
You mean everything to me, without you, there will be nothing. I won’t have anyone to share my emotions with, so share my deepest dark secrets with, to be best friends with. Life without you would be horrible. I don’t even want to imagine what it’ll be like.
The fact of the matter is,
You’re everything to me and I love you more than anything.
I realise that when you commit to a relationship you invite a whole new world in, world of trust and a world of faithfulness and perhaps grief and despair. Honestly, I couldn’t have thought of anything better. It’s like a game, but a game when you’re with the most amazing person, someone who completes you, and the best part of this game is there is and shouldn’t be anyone to compete with. Everyone wins.
I have an idea of what I want, a relationship that is light as a cloud instead of as heavy as a rain drop. Not filled with disappointments and controlling situations, just filled with all the good points, Love, lust and romance. I’m not shallow, looks are at the bottom of my list, a personality made of gold in my eyes is something to fall fast for.
Most of the mistakes I have made are by being with the complete wrong match. I guess I should stop looking; someone who’s right will come for me perhaps. Having someone who is just mine knowing by when I have their hand in mine making our hearts beat at a pace it shouldn’t.
I just want someone who will treat me how I’d treat them; right.