Don't you think it's funny that when you go to town with your mates you shout abuse at the people wearing black drainpipes, converse and a band tee but smile and the cute guys and chicks that walk about as if they laugh?
i dont
don't you think that it's really funny that you will change your taste in music to impress the guy of your dreams but when you see that girl sitting in the corner who has her own individual style and her own music you start to pick her apart at the seams?
i really dont
Then theres the people who think it's really funny to give loads of fucking shit to the emo girl sitting in the corner in silence whos never done anything but be as nice as pie to the class slut?
do you find that funny? a laugh?
oh yeah and it's soo funny how u and your big group of popular friends can make one girls life a missery that she no longer wants to live without stopping to think what provate battels in life she might be fighting.
yeah im laughing my head of... really i am... not
yeah theres more funny stuff you do isnt there how about letting your friends go out binge drinking every weekend even doing it yourself and then you yell and patranise the kid sitting in the corner listening to there emo music telling them how pathetic it is and how there only attention seeking and how there the biggest outcast in the school?
no im not laughing really im not
How can you laugh at calling emos, goths etc retards everyday, every hour every second you see them but still no have a inch of gilt settling on your heart!
i know you laugh it off! u find it funny!
well have you ever stopped to think if they find it funny?
well whats ur deffinition of someone whos brave someones whos really hard?
getting drunk everynight?
is brave doing a speech in front of your class
is courage dumping your boyfriend?
maybe?
well this is what brave and courage and hard really is!
going into school everyday to face all those comments and bitches and wankers who have made your life hell since the day you stepped foot in the place...
... It's being yourself no matter who tells you not to.. listening to your own music wearing what u want to wear...
... It's knowing that it's all going to happen again 2mo but not caring and carrying on with life as if it's not happenening
... it's about knowing people are talking about u behind your back knowing your friends are talking about you behind your back bitching but still calling them your friends because you know it's not going to get better if you don't...
...it's knowing it's never going to stop but not giving up on life...
...it's not going into the bathroom and emptying the cabnet of pills and being found 3 hours later curled up in a ball on the bathroom floor.
it's blocking out the thoughts that we get everyday... or maybe it's just me blocking out the plan of how i would do it.. how i would kill myself?
are you still laughing now?
are you still laughing at me?
then have you got any suggestions on how i can do it?
