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the thinnest of the thin

dear loved one, please listen.

About Me


People change,
things go wrong,
things will happen,
but life goes on..

the most important thing to know is:

i am: obsessed with piercings, a braceface, addicted to caffeine, annoying, gnomey, open, welcoming, hugging everyone, talking to strangers, alice in wonderland, making them kiss my boo-boos, shocking the public, late to almost every class, the teachers pet, losing my gradepoint average, hoping for a scholarship, an army brat, a hater of sports, a lover of dance, a poet, a musisian, in love with the seventies, finding myself incredibly amusing, ownder of a tattoo, a public annoyance, a haver of spontaneous personal authenicity, a terrible speller, crying so hard i laugh, a friend of everyone, a collecter of pointless things, talking on the phone for hours, thursdays child, emotional, lover of rain, a sharpie owner, hater of bugs, afraid of alot of things, usually broke, hoping i get to live in newyork someday, annoyed by dumb songs stuck in my head, regretting this summer, craving relief, amused by fun underwear, longing to be loved, listening to mae, hiding in the dryer, driving into cemetarys, singing all the time, really loud, off key, a horrible dancer, a writer, breathing underwater, a player of life, etching my way into nothingness, missing alot of people, searching for my unfinished geometery homework, learning not to settle, basically insane, anorexic, laughing so hard i cry, a giver, cold all the time, waiting for tomorrow, wanting to be home, waiting for you to fill in my blank, sorry that i can't help the fact that only four out of five dentists reccomend trident, trying to wake you up, a child of God, a mother of many, staying up all night, hungover, telling you to smile, hoping someday i'll be one, wanting to float away, going to get out of here, free, the thinnest of the thin, dying that i can't help, drowning, hurt, a lesbanen, sick to death, tired of being tired, a lovebox of doom, complete with my own themesong, feeding on starvation, living with poison in my vines, on my cellphone, counting stars, the owner of countless scars, sure, creatively constructing my own private hell, asking you if you know how hard i tried, trying to believe that i'll be alright, daddies little girl, an ex-mommies little angel, homeless, said to be a fighter, fucks drone, heavey with a sense of resentment, not innocent, wishing i was, the protecter, a pincushion, sunshine, engaged, said to be beautiful, going to walk to australia with a bunch of weirdo llamas, unable to rid this evil inside, shocked to find that she's stolen my body and taken it home, in love with phandom of the opeara, liz, a star, considering myself father-less, a freak but what's it to you bitch?, confident, in love with having inside jokes, a trashcan dweller, a sexai bum, waiting for morning, wracking my brain for memories, visited by vivid nightmares, the ho, safe, alive, running away from everything, afraid that it's too late, tired of living in the dark, so far away from the sun that shines, and i am yours.
oh right, and i love you.
SO WHAT. my spoken words are not as cool as yours; my written words are not as inspiring, i don't have as many pairs of Converse as you do, and yours are older and more beaten, my glasses are not as thick as yours; my clothes are not as vintage, my hair isn't even black: and if it was black, it wouldn't be as black as yours, or as straight as yours. your photography is more creative than mine; and your blacks are blacker and your whites are whiter. my eyeliner is not as black as yours, not as thick as yours, and not as smudged as yours. i don't watch as many foreign films as you do; my favorite bands are not as obscure as yours, and i even watch bands with videos on MTV. i use proper grammer and spelling and do not believe that "ii" and "y" are interchangeable. i am not a ninga, or a pirate, or a dinosaur. i do not feel that it is necessary to point out that guns do, indeed, go "bang bang". i am neither "electrickk" nor am i "the sex." and i will never be as emo, punk, hardcore, straightedge, or indie as you are. i'm not even scene enough to pretend that i'm not scene. while your scene points are out the window. the truth is, that in this life where music and individuality have taken the backseat to "the scene" YOU WIN AND I LOSE. so go away and be "cooler" than someone that cares. - maggie.

My Interests

yeah, we're just small town kids with dreams so big they could kills us. No one can stop us but ourselves and we're well on our way to getting hurt if we aren't careful. we're invincable. WE'RE YOUNG AND IN LOVE. we're vulnerable. there's no such thing as yesterday and tomorrow's much too far away. this night could last forever, so don't think - just breathe; and we can save ourselves. we might save ourselves. i need to save myself. BUT I'M SO INTRESTED IN YOU.

I'd like to meet:

the every day hero. how about that? you know the type, i'm sure. i want to meet the student. the piolet. the mom. the inventor. the rookie. the passerby. the good sameritian. the neighbor. the new kid. the gamer. the pimp. the shopkeeper. the artist. the teacher. the politician. the visitors. the surfer. the asshole. the rocker. the goth. the Christian. the wounded. the savior. the dying. the living. everyone i've never met but that i've known my entire life. my best friend, your best friend. someones son or daughter. people from every walk of life, race, religion, country, school, area, family, socialstanding. this is for you, but you are manypeople. you are the people close to me now. you are the people i want to be close with. you are people i will meet, people i have met. you are the part of me that i'm still trying to understand. you're all these and more. youknowhat every other person you meet on the street is the failed consort of one muse or another. one meets them everywhere. the would-be guitarist who just couldn't find time to practice. the would-be novelist who developed an allergy to solitude. the would-be actress who was too weak to withstand the domestic and maternalistic urges. the would-be poet who found it easier to get drunk on booze than on language. the would-be filmmaker who for lack of pluck ended up in advertising. the singer, the potter, the dancer who for want of that extra volt of verver, that extra enzyme of dedication, that extra candlepower of courgae were doomed to paper the walls of their lives with frustrated fantisies and secret dissatisfactions. that's you. and that's me.

Music:

30 seconds to mars, A change of pace, A perfect circle, Aiden, Air supply, Alanis morissette, Ani difranco, Anna nalick, Avalon, Avril lavigne, Barlow girl, Bayside, the Beatles, Ben folds (five), Ben jelen, Better than ezra, Bleed the dream, Blondie, Blue october, Bowling for soup, Box car racers, Bright eyes, Brightwood, Cartel, Casting crowns, Chicago, Ciara, Coheed & cambria, Colin hay, Counting crows, the Cranberries, Creed, the Cure, Daniel powter, Dashboard confessional, Dave matthews band, Death cab for cutie, Deftones, Del amitri, Dogwood, the Donnas, Dream theater, the Dreadson dolls, Dropkick murphy, Eisley, Enya, Evanescence, Eve 6, Everclear, Fall out boy, Fergie, Finch, Five for fighting, the Flaming lips, Flogging molly, Flyleaf, Foo fighteres, the Format, Fountains of wayne, the Fray, Gary jules, Gretchen wilson, Hanson, Hedley, Hinder, Hoobastank, Imogen heap, Ingrem, Iron and wine, Jacks mannequin, Jack off jill, Jacob miller, Janes addiction, Jewel, Jimmy eat world, Jive jones, John rzeznik, Jonah33, Journey, Joy williams, Jude, the Killers, Kutless, Lady sovereign, Letters to cleo, Lil jon, Mae, Marilyn manson, Martina mcbride, Matchbox 20, Me first and the gimmie gimmies, Meg and dia. Metallica, Michelle tumes, Motion city soundtrack, My bloody valentine, My chemical romance, Natalie imbruglia, New edition, Nickleback, Nirvana, No use for a name, Oasis, the Offspring, Papa roach, Pat benatar, Pavement, the Pillows, Plain white t’s, Plumb, the Postal service, the Pretenders, Puddle of mud, Queen, the Rapture, Ray charles, the Red jumpsuit apparatus, Relient k, Rilo kiley, Rocket summer, Savage garden, Scott stapp, Senses fail, the Shins, Silverstein, Simon and garfunkel, Smile empty soul, the Smiths, Snow patrol, Soundgarden, Spice girls, the Spill canvas, Spin doctors, Stained, Stray light run, Subway, Superchick, Switchfoot, System of a down, Tal bachman, Tamia, Tanya tucker, Tatu, Thousand foot krutch, Thrice, Tilly and the wall, Tori amos, Tracy chapman, Trapt, Underoath, Valeria, Vertical horizon, Violent femmes, Waking ashland, Weezer, the White stripes, the Wreckers, the Yeah yeah yeahs, Yellow card, Yesterdays rising.

Movies:

the Banger sisters, But i'm a cheerleader, Brothers grim, Corpse bride, Edward sisorhands, How the grinch stold christmas, Girl interrupted, In her shoes, Little miss sunshine, Miss congineality, the Nightmare before christmas, Pay it forward, Phantom of the opera, Pieces of april, Rent, Saw (I, II, III), She's the man, Speak, Thirteen.

Television:

Americas next top model, CSI, Extreme makeover: home addition, Family guy, Friends, Gilmore Girls, Invador zim.

Books:

An egg on two sticks, Crank, Diary, Don't get too comfortable, Fargo rock city, Fish bowl, the Historian, Talking in the dark, Impulse, the Lovely bones, Running with sisors, Sex drugs and coco puffs, Skin game, Skinny legs and all, Sleevless, Sophies world, Survivor, Tweleve, You remind me of you.

Heroes:

you wouldn't know them, anyway.

My Blog

i’m going to throw up.

we don't know yet, not gonna happen. goddamnit. i wish that i could make you see; how do i make you see?without it all, you're so lovely. i'm listening to what they say, feeling less and less okay. ...
Posted by the thinnest of the thin on Mon, 18 Feb 2008 02:59:00 PST

i’ve committed social suicide.

as always, i was sitting alone in gym. nobody ever talks to me. out of nowhere, a girl comes up and asks"so didn't you and tami used to go together?"where did that come from?is this a trick ...
Posted by the thinnest of the thin on Sat, 26 Jan 2008 09:18:00 PST

im a prima donnaaaaahhh.

RESOLUTIONS? find courage, strength, peace and patience. learn to breathe.graduateee!let things go. keep up my yoga. train and fix my body.make sure i look presentable.kill enemys with kindness.learn ...
Posted by the thinnest of the thin on Wed, 02 Jan 2008 02:57:00 PST

you are my sweetest downfall.

i've been exhaustedstressedconfusedmistakenworkingrehearsingcryingcold sleeplessfailingand generally just loving. i'm tired of school,and i'm ready for it to be over and done with.even though i'm terri...
Posted by the thinnest of the thin on Sun, 28 Oct 2007 08:52:00 PST

dangerous to be so intimate.

flawed, exhausted and sunburnt. sounds good to me, hm? so many things are different, better, wonderful.i can't say what's going through my mind, all night, all the time, where have you been all my lif...
Posted by the thinnest of the thin on Wed, 18 Jul 2007 04:45:00 PST

mistakes we knew we were making.

  :) you know it -...
Posted by the thinnest of the thin on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 01:33:00 PST

the pathetic fallacy.

(it has been awhile)          ; that's because xanga is better;          ; and will always rule over mys...
Posted by the thinnest of the thin on Thu, 28 Dec 2006 06:47:00 PST

DRRRAMA.

go look at my new video. you know you want to. besides, it will make you laugh. i guarentee it. i mean really, it's utterly embarassing on my behalf. (well, and kara, randy, raybuck, jasmine and other...
Posted by the thinnest of the thin on Tue, 14 Nov 2006 05:07:00 PST

sleeping all day, staying up all night.

S1Alg II H.French III.(q1) Dr Ed/Fam Lf.(q2) Pe/Fit/Con I.(q1) Health.(q2) Freshman Success. S2 Adv Chorus.Chem H.W Geo.English 10 A....
Posted by the thinnest of the thin on Sun, 27 Aug 2006 12:00:00 PST

LOOK HERE.

i have all new pictures. but if you want to see more.go well. i was going to hyperlink it. but it's being dumb. so go to. www.xanga.com/littlexxshadowand THISSS.is for sarah :)she made it. and wanted ...
Posted by the thinnest of the thin on Wed, 09 Aug 2006 08:08:00 PST