BIRDMAN!

.. Music, skateboarding, movies, and other stuff.

"This is the last time of all the last times, this is the last time of all the last times. My dear no more. My dear no more. My dear no more. No more. Where’s the comfort where's the end? This is the last time, this is the last goodbye. You say that you're not sure, but I think you feel the same. Over and over, we try to work this out. All this time, all I wanted was you. All I want is you.

"When you laugh you'll feel my breath there filling up your lungs, and when you cry those aren't your tears but I'm there falling down your cheek, and when you say you love him taste me and my poison on your tongue, and when you're tired and you're quiet hear me singing you to sleep."

"Now this time the words will be straight from the heart. You can’t fake the life that was never there. And this is reason, enough to stand up and make this life be more to you."

"Burn it down and walk away."

"Love... a hoax to live for."

"I will not be a martyr for your crusades. This war will never be for you.

"Friends... idols... ashes.

"All I know is that I don't know; all I know is that I don't know nothing."

"Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness Cleanliness is Godliness, and God is empty just like me."

"If I told you this was killing me would you stop?"

"Chances thrown. Nothing's free. Longing for what used to be. Still it's hard. Hard to see fragile lives, shattered dreams."

"How long...how long must we sing this song?"

"I can see them but they don't touch me. Touch me, please someone teach me how to swim, please don't let me drown."

"Alone is all we are even when we feel this close, it's just a lie we believe... these are the words that escape from our lungs, rupture the walls I've built around my heart. I've been shaking. You can't save me, I'm turing off."

"They say, after time, all this will heal, we will rebuild and these broken hearts will mend."

"They burn on and on like an oil field or a memory of what it felt like to burn on and on and not just fade away."

"We're to lost to lose hope."

"Since I replaced the i in 'live' with an o I can't remember who you are, but tomorrow..."

" Can't you see that I want to be there with open arms. It's empty tonight and I'm all alone. Get me through this one."

" All I know now is regret. It follows like a siloutte on the cobblestone behind me."

"Hey waitress, make your peace."

" It's nothing and everything at the same time."

" Life, kisses, and other wasted efforts."

" What is love without trust?"

"If we live on in the hearts we leave behind then we will never die."

"You're drowning in ankle deep water."

"Well, it's yours. You can have it if it means the much to you. Don't let me stop you. Don't let me stop you now."

"The world is a stage... walk off stage."

"I know now that glory has not a place near my hands or any man."

"Do you feel as empty as the lungs of those waiting to come into this world where being beautiful means being used?"

"There's wrong, then there's wrong, then there's this."

"I will love you even when you won't let me. And you will kill me by doing nothing. But I know it's not you, my dear, I know it's not you... I can't save you but I will love you."

"Regret."

"Some seek forgivness. Others seek escape."

"Shame is the anchor tied around my ankle. Shame keeps me low and close to the bottom where I am the least. At the bottom"

"This is what I am. This is what I've become. What is love without sacrifice. My tears hold no wieght if my commitment is only failure each day I am born again to be a child in the eyes of love. Repeating yesterday. Drain me of my very essence to form again what lasts."

"How could I ever go back... back to the life where I lived amongst the dead? Those who have forgotten how to feel and become slaves to memory and wishful thinking, but your love has set me free. As you've awaken every star that has been sleeping in the constellation of my soul. How could I go back to live amongst the dead; those who imprisoned beauty? I never want to leave your arms so I wait for your embrace; illusions of what I thought was love... now I have clear sight to see I've left nothing behind."

"I felt you slip away. Far away from me. Further from me. You seem to drift far away. I find myself wishing you back, as I fight to catch you. Anger wells inside me. I see me, frowning, in your eyes. I see the fear in you where none should ever be. I find myself striving to catch you from... this will hurt less and less everytime until I feel nothing. I see my reflection and there's pain scripted across my face, set in stone. Anger wells inside me. I see me, frowning, in your eyes. Far away from me. Further from me. You seem to drift, far away. I caught myself wishing you back as I strive for you. She said "It's not that I don't love you anymore, but it would be so much more accurate to say I never loved you in the first place", never in the first place. I put the fear in you where none should ever be. Nothing to me. Everything to you. Nothing to me. Everything to you."

"Will there ever be time enough? Or are we just to naive? I haven't just given up. Oh God I still believe. Is patience still waiting? Will I wait on my knees too? Are you laughing at us today? And is this just one big game? Now cash me in while you can. We never were the same. Come on. Will you ever have all you want? And are we just next in line? Don't throw out your one good chance. You only have this time."

"Walk backwards and say goodbye to what is right. Understanding what makes this, what makes it,what makes us right. God save this gunslinging generation. "Tell God I will return in the morning." This Christ you preach I know, but who are you? Your hands are tied to blind men, whose hands are tied to blind men. Figure Eights." This pistol is my ministry."

"This horseless carriage leads me home. My hands remain folded. My life remains a Sunday. Brick by brick I built this staircase. Brick by brick I walk on. Situated just below the ground and just above your head. Throw your roses, throw your tears down. If we don't meet (again) this side of heaven, make sure you're right. Stutter."

"A bullet to the sun. Erase everything we have done. Please, like a thief, won't you come? Put an end to all of this fun. I will see you in a Broadway year, a New York second, a Wall Street minute, A Hollywood moment. This is it. Why does not, this world just stop?"

"Well, I've got a will but I want yours. I've got a growing heap of crosses and burdens. I've simply lost heart to shoulder. Simply no strength to lift. I've always been a man in need 'cause I keep stepping in and out of the shadow. Caught by the drift and pitch of whatever it is that keeps me coming back. I want out 'cause I'm getting sick. Sick from all this swerving driver, sick from turning on you. Someone show me a hole in this cycle. Show me the way away and I'm coming back the way I came. No! I've seen this place before. Surely this is no place for the light of this world. Oh how sweet the sound. I know it saved but is it changing a wretch like me. Oh my God how sweet is the sound. I once was blind but now I just look away. My bride, I don't want to know what I'd be without forgiveness brushing these adulterous lips."

"Dead man, where you ever alive? Or was I just a seed you buried deep inside some woman you wed right before you crawled out of her bed and crept down the hall? Did you think of me? Did you even for a second hesitate in the doorway? It's just something that I'd like to know though I'd still love you if told me you just walked away. My God, what a world you love. Where men bury their sons and without thought just walk away. And my mother's heart breaks like the water inside of her. Dead man, is it being high that makes you alive? It makes you leave behind three boys and a wife in '89. As the track marks inched their way up your arm My mother taught my brothers and I not to call you daddy. But to call you father. But I believe there is something here to be learnt of grace, 'cause I can't help but love you even with a heart that breaks like the promises that you made."

"It's so nice sitting very still, in a room where no one else can feel the pain that breaks my heart each day, I'm not ok. Sunlight shining through my window, let's me know that I'm still alive. Why did I ever let you inside my heart? I'm such a fool. Paint my face in shades of blood and grey and take a seat right next to me. But I should have known that you were a killer. But now I'm dead. A gaping hole, shot through my heart. A lost connection from your poison dart. Shot from your tounge to end my life. You're blowing at the fire to light your strife. You'll never know. The hardest thing about dying is, knowing you'll never see the light of day. A gaping hole...(shot through my heart). A lost connection from your poison dart. My head now spins and my ears bleed gold. I try so f*****g hard, but I can't fit your mold. The hardest thing about dying is knowing you'll never see the light of day..."

"To kill the whitest looking dove, to hate everything you love and I'm trying to pretend oh in wanting life to end that I am not another stupid little teenage f*****g whore. And now I know, and we will see. To take this handgun to my eyes and watch my cells start to rise the flesh now starts to break as the bullet enters like a snake through one side of my head and out the other side. And now I know and we will see. And I'm scared to live tonight and I'm bare to shed this plight. And I'm scared to live tonight and I'm bare to shed this plight. Please tell me I'm not wanted. Watch the bones rip through my flesh a catharsis of my own distress. Please tell me I'm not wanted. And now I know and we will see."

"This is everything you know, goodbye. Take my hand. Here it is. I will go. I'll be with you. I will go. I'll stay with you. See these scars? They're for remembering. Priceless mistakes will steal everything. Who will be your voice? Who will hear your cries? Looking back I now know what makes us break. Fear of all things you don't understand. Remind me, this numbing has made me see. Remind me, this numbing has let me sleep. Remind me now. Looking back I can see I don't know anything. I just feel numb. I just feel numb."

"Busted scars cut wide open. Bleeding hearts drip to the floor. Waiting tender touches to heal unseen wounds. The brightest eyes can see right through me. Only her eyes are the remedy. Exit anger through affetion. Exit through my finger tips. Exit anger through addiction. Exiting to your finger tips. Trying hard to reach out and touch what's too far away. Distance will be the death for me. Replacement comes in the form of dreams."

"Looking back, no regrets, just lies. Only pain in descriptions of despite. This will never be, you will never listen. Emotions break like glass when memories brush back. This will never be, breaking from this cycle, falls from the outside. I can't sleep with your dreams. I can sleep with my dreams. Looking back, no regrets, just lies. Only pain in descriptions of despite. While you're awake with nightmares of haunting. Did you forget something? You forgot to say "goodbye". This will never be, you will never listen. Emotions break like glass when memories brush back. This will never be, breaking from this cycle, falls from the outside."

"Enjoy the silence. Words like violence break the silence. Come crashing in, into my little world. Painful to me. Pierced right through me. Can't you understand? Oh my little girl. All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms. All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms. Vows are spoken to be broken. Feelings are intense. Words are trivial. Pleasures remain. So does the pain. Words are meaningless and unforgettable. All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms. All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms. Words are very unnecessary. They can only do harm. Words like violence break the silence. Come crashing in,into my little world. Painful to me. Pierced right through me. Can't you understand? Oh my little girl. All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms. All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms. All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms. Vows are spoken to be broken. Feelings are intense. Words are trivial. Pleasures remain. So does the pain. Words are meaningless and forgettable. All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms. All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms. All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms. Words are very unnecessary they can only do harm. Can only do harm."

"Betrayed by a love. Sweet nothings gone forever. Please let me go. You dont know what this has done to me. I cry for you. Your words hold true though the stainglass windows of my broken soul. I will stand up strong, reach the end of this quest, one more time. Hold me up again one more time. Praise. Hold me up again."

"I want to see your eyes. The light, the tunnel. I need to feel your love. This fight, my struggle. Which hand should I cut off? My life in shambles. I'll lose my life right here. But what for, I'm coming home. And I will meet you there. I'm heading nowhere fast. I need your hands. Which breath will be my last? It's gone, my past. Love with a broken heart. I'm here alone. I'm getting taken away. I hope you're coming soon. And I will meet you there. Grab my hand and take me home. Will you be there to grab my hand and take me away? I want to see your eyes. I need to feel your love. Which hand should I cut off? I'll lose my life right here."

"These four walls have seen the worst of me. They're bleeding confession, but they'll never speak. These four walls have seen the life I truly lead. They're crying depression. They're weak in the knees. Right on the floor. Please walls, stay quiet. Reputation is on the line. Please God, stay quiet. Don't let them know you're watching me die. Falling down. The waves are crashing in on me again. Falling down. The walls are closing in on me again. Falling down. The waves are crashing in on me again. Falling down. I feel the weight, I feel the weight again. And If you open up your heart you'll see I'm only human. Let me be me. And if you could open up your heart you'll seeThis wasn't my intent. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Right on the floor. Please walls, stay quiet Reputation is on the line. Please God, stay quiet. Don't let them know you're watching me die. Falling down. The waves are crashing over me again. Falling down. The walls are closing in on me again. Falling down. The waves are crashing in on me again. Falling down. I feel the weight, I feel the weight again. Right on the floor."

"I don't want to come back here, to this place. It's a cold that only comes from blaming yourself for two decades wasted. And I don't want to come back here, to this place. When it all just repeats in my head again, and I cannot stop it. And the glass in the trees, and all you left here, Reflects everything that I missed. And the pavement is still warm from the tires. I can still feel the fright that the night brings. Every song that you'd sing. And I won't ever come back here to this place. All I ever do is picture you smiling, and then picture you leaving. And the glass in the trees, and all you left here, reflects everything that I missed. Slow down. I'll try and make it up to you. They've cut down the trees to try to forget you. But I took a vow to never forget you. If you're still here, then we're waiting. We'll wait for you to come back home to the broken little foes. Until the guilt grows and grows. When the time that's wasted comes back to haunt me. And I'll deserve every bit, because I'm not spiritual yet. I'm just reading the lines they gave me from the pulpit. And it's not fading off, we remember the years. As we sift through the laughter to find all the tears. And I'm not worthy of grievance, I did nothing to prevent this. And standing at your grave, I could have caused this."

"I see your eyes x-ray my insides. You’re screaming death to me, waiting for me to die. I see your eyes x-ray my insides. The rockstar autopsy. You need what used to be. I see your eyes x-ray my insides. A stubborn glance, a chance to watch me all unwind. I see your eyes x-ray my insides. I wish you’d grab my hand ‘cause we’re falling fast. You and me – looks like the last time we hold hands. I want you back. I need you back. I see your eyes x-ray my insides. This pedestal for me is getting way too high. I see your eyes x-ray my insides. So either watch me fall or watch me die. I see your eyes x-ray my insides. A stubborn glance, a chance to watch me all unwind. I see your eyes x-ray my insides. I wish I had your hand, ‘cause we’re falling fast. You and me – looks like the last time we hold hands. I want you back. I need you back. X-ray my inside. ‘Cause we’re falling fast. Looks like the last time we hold hands. Looks like the last time we hold hands. Looks like the last time. Looks like the last time."

"I'll leave the lights down low so she knows I mean business. And maybe we could talk this over. Cause I could be your best bet. Let alone your worst ex. And let alone your worst... I wanna hate you so bad, but I can't (but I can't) stop this anymore than you can. So honestly, how could you say those things when you know they don't mean anything. And you know very well that I can't keep my hands to myself, hands to myself. I wanna hate you so bad, but I can't (but I can't) stop this anymore than you can. This is all wrong and it shows. There's certain things I promised not to let you know, (I've got a silly way of keepin me up on the edge of my seat, I've got a silly way of keepin me up on the...) not to let you know. I never, never... You've got this silly way of keeping me on the edge of my seat, but you're only counting the clock against the train and I'm miserable, oh. (I've got a silly way of keepin me up on the edge of my seat, I've got a silly way of keepin me up on the...) And you're just getting started. I'm miserable, oh. You've got me right where you want me. (Let's never talk) Let's never talk, let's never, let's never talk about this again because... I didn't want it to mean that much to me. I didn't want it to mean that much to me. I didn't want it to mean that much to me. I didn't want it to mean that much to me. Anyway... yeah."