I'd like to meet:
I did some soul searching here in the last few months…a whole lot of soul searching…and I concluded that I am tired. I am fed up, and I deserve better. I've lived and learned a lot from this game called life…that we are all playing. I found out that I was desperate. Desperate? Me? Desperate? Yes, Im desperate, and I am not afraid to admit it. I am desperate to be happy, desperate to feel comfortable…Desperate to be in love. But not desperate to where Im willing to settle. I'll never settle.
Now I would never have thought that I would actually hear myself saying that, but its true. I've been running away from it for so long, but I can only run so far from the inevitable. I want to be in love. I honestly feel like I "need" to be in love. I know that I could better my situation if I had love behind me. Everything is so much easier when you have love supporting you…and Im talking about the kind of love that your family and friends cannot give you. There's no love like that kind of love, and that's exactly what I've been longing for.
People see me, read my stories, and browse my "flashy" profile, and assume that Im some player, pimp, or whatever…and assume that I have women throwing themselves at me. This might be true in some sense, but it doesn't really mean anything. I tell people all the time…"I don't have a problem getting women, I have a problem getting the woman that I want".
I've played the games, cheated, and been cheated on. Im not perfect and don't strive to be. I am realistic, and I have reached a point in my life where I feel like I want something REAL. I want someone that I can love and come home to on a daily basis. Someone that I can tell all my secrets to and have her accept me for the imperfect man that I am. I want someone that will cook for me, and will allow me to cook for her, and will love it when I come up from behind her and kiss on her while she's doing her thing in the kitchen.
Holidays come and go, and I find myself wishing I had someone to do for. Valentine's day especially…Im so full of ideas, and want someone there for me so that I can show off my originality and make her feel special. I don't have that woman, but I want that woman…I need that woman. I want to be able to do little things to remind her that I love her, like write lil I love you notes and hide them in places where I know she'll come across when cleaning or looking in the glove compartment for something...you know..just lil things like that. (Some of yall are ready to slap ya man right now huh? Lmao) Let me stop giving all my ideas away.
I just want someone that I can do these type of things for. Hell, I've even turned toward the stars trying to find that special someone. I know yall know that Im still trippin off the way Halle Berry left me and had a baby with that white dude, but I promise I wont let that baggage come into my new relationship lol…let me stop. Im an Aquarius and I found out I was most compatible with Gemini, Libra, Aires, and Sagittarius..in addition, Im safe with Leo and other Aquarians. That opens up for a wide range of women. But fucc the stars…I just need that one…no matter what sign they are. I need love and I'll take it any way I can get it. I just wanna be happy.