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Hay. This is my page and, I've been asked too say a little about my self. I don't like too talk about my self not in this really ambiguous way, if some one asks my opinion or where I'v come from thats another story I'm not shie or anything I just don't like talking in generalizations about my self to anonymous friends, not that I'm untrusting just that I don't know where to start, call it modesty and you'd probably be wrong, not that I'm not modest I might be but thats something for other people to judge and judge inaccurately, because how could they know anyway; they don't see me when I pray at night, they don't see me when I brag to my self, they don't know how I suffer from delusion's of granger, and even if they did could they know for shore if that was pride or the recognition of my own laziness. Any way if I did tell you about my self i'd probably be lying or making my self look better than I am, or maybe I'd suddenly feel self conscious and want to down play my strengths so that I wouldn't look arrogant. So I think it would be better to use this section to talk about some other people that I know. the person thats closest to me is probably my brother Rolland but some times I don't know if I actually know him all that well. Nothing seems to bother him but he dusent get excited too easy ether, he's probably one of the most generous people I know and some times I wonder if that might in part be because he had to get used to not having his way with a strong willed older bother like me. He is really a king among men that is if me and my friends where really men its hard to say at this age 20-25 every one is so inchaerch all the time it gets confusing and if we lived in the feudal area we'd probably get charged for witchcraft for using these computers. So nun of us would be kings we'd all just be dead instead of not being born yet. some times I feel bad for always getting my way as a kid so I try to do good things for people and than I find out that Im not vary good at it so I just sit around or read a book. Then I get lonely and decide to call some one. And we have allot of fun doing almost nothing together and I think to my self now were both happy maybe this is the best I can do. And I have a renewed sense of purpose and I think, this is the way kids find fulfillment, but Im wrung as kids we all just wonted to be big and do stupid jobs like mow the lawn or be a police officer and every time we'd get a glimpse of that world for real we'd feel more hungry for something really real something beyond imagination that was fulfilling for its own sake. do you remember how those feeling were so much scarier back then.  I edited my profile with Thomas Myspace Editor V4.4 (www.strikefile.com/myspace)