...Miss Char ♥

Charlotte.
i absolutely cannot wait for leeds fest :]
... this summer is going to be the best i can make it; friends, fun, music, sunshine and hopefully making new memories that blanket the tainted old ones.
i'm ridiculously insecure in who i am but one day, someone helped me to see that there is an oppertunity for me to be happy with who i am. i miss him. i hope he knows that. i hope he misses me. i miss how much he made me smile.
i would love to find just one person who could help me change the way i see myself. someone who just wants to be with me because of me, not because of who they want me to be. someone who wants to make memories with me. someone who makes me fall achingly in love with them everytime they look into my eyes. someone who is passionate and sexy and able to see past the times that might be hard. someone who gets the same feeling i do everytime i think about them. someone who gives me butterflies and makes me smile. someone who i miss when we aren't together and who makes me never want to be alone.
...there is no chance of this happening though.
i don't think i could ever change because someone demanded it of me, but i wish i could change for myself sometimes.
i like the thought of moving forward, but actually doing it terrifies me.
i have a good heart, but it is often misplaced by people who don't know what to do with it and don't take the time out to care enough about it.
i love a good hot chocolate and trash tv sesh.
going to uni was the best decision i ever made. i've met some amazing people who have not only been there for the special moments, but helped through the not so special moments as well. dancing like a twat with cheeky vimtos in boom, trebles in basement, boy chat in wagamamas, giggles in the flat, forbidden londis trips... i love them all
coming home, i feel quite lonely.
one tree hill always makes me cry.
annoyingly, i tend to rush things and can be impatient. i seem to think that if i don't grab onto it, it might disappear.
just one deep conversation from someone completely unexpected can be worth a million empty ones from others.
i want to meet a nice boy with fit hair and interesting words.
i think i deserve more than what people believe me to be, but i seem to be drawn towards manipulative personalities.
meaningful lyrics make music what it is for me.
there is lots more i could say... talk if you want to know :]
♥