im at a point in my life where i know what i want to do but its just the task of getting there...
Movies:
The NOTEBOOK AND DIRTY DANCING, SOUNDS OF MUSIC, ANY OLD MOVIES THERE THE BEST!!"Which Laguna Beach Character are You?"
LC
You are LC, very fashionable, rich, and GORGEOUS. You are bitchy but in a silent way. Who cares though with looks like that!?
Books:
"You don't realize what you had until it's gone". A quote recited over and over in the minds of those like mine. At this point in my life nothing makes sense in a desperate attempt to do the right thing I will more than likely come out being in the wrong. I had been young, and "in love," as some tend to look at it. I had dedicated two years of my life to someone who, at the time, was the only person I could picture myself with. Ending in the cliche, he broke my heart, ya dida, but there was Chis.Chris was the weird, obnoxious, goofy kid who lived a few houses down from me. He was never any kind of potential boyfriend material in my eyes. Sure, he could be somewhat funny. and cute, but he hung out with my younger brother, which equaled loss of major bonus points. I had never been one to mope, never one to get emotional, never one to dwell. So with the start of summer "06" there was no time for feeling sorry for me. It started a diffrent kind of life for me. A life including him; Chris. He was so diffrent from my type and that is what sparked so much intrest. "My type" obviously wasn't working, and I needed this, something new. In no time at all a day without him just didn't feel right and I felt myself falling into something I wasn't willing to admit to as love. I felt like I was living a televised life. Everything was so surreal and dramatic. I became a very major part of his life, and that brought along to me a huge responsibility, but I was ready and willing to bear anything for him. Together we were what I thought I had lost forever. We were cofortable and everything felt so broken in so fast. I fell back into what I had been avoiding and that was a very new and diffrent kind of love for me. We laughed at each others jokes that no on else would think were funny, and we played games no one else would understand. He was so much more than a boyfriend to me, and the reality of losing all of this, possibly forever, in a few months had not caught up to me. I was not registering how serious of a situation I had gotten myself into. We were completely fearless, and not knowing how to get a hold on how deeply we were becoming involved in one another. Every weekend he was with his recruiter planning his diparture and preparing for his new life, yet it still wasn't clear to me. When the summmer came to an end I tried to make us do the same. It had finally caught up and I realized what I had to do. I thought it would make things easier, finally caught up and I realized what I had to do. I thought it would make things easier, but he had fallen harder than I knew. He wanted to come home to me, come home a seal, someone who would have made his living training to do the unthinkable. He would be tested and drilled everyday, he would grow up dignified and respectable, and i would still be here Living a young high school girl's life. I wasn't ready for what he wanted from me; commitment. He knew what he wanted, I didn't. He had been my unexpected at the perfect time when I thought that there was no one left to make me happy as I used to or wanted to be. He made me happier. He was going to go places he never imagined he would or could and I couldn't explain to him there was more to his life than me.By: Mj
Heroes:
My MMMMMMMMMJ She has been there for me threw thick and thin! What can i say it seems to me we have the same problems at the same time. She needs help doing about everything and i love the fact that she still needs me to do her buns for her at all the shows, it makes me feel important. I love they way we laugh together about the most random things, it makes me feel complete. We are always down for whatever and that makes me feel at home. But most of all shes my hero, my joy, my life and i love her with all my heart!
