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Stephy Lu

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About Me


This is a shortened version of my autobiography, it might interest you or give you a better understanding of who I am. For the first time in my life, I’m happy where I am and with who I am. I’m not perfect and I don’t expect to ever be but thats exactly what i strive for everyday. I trip, fall, stutter, stumble but I get back up and laugh.
I’ve been thru hell and back. My life’s a never ending roller coaster with very few high points. I’ve dealt with disorders and addictions and I give credit to people who are dealing with their own demons. I don’t expect or want anyone to feel bad for me, just understand why I am the way I am. Even when the weight of the world is on my shoulders, I’ve learned how to keep smiling. I stand up for myself and anyone who i think needs it. I dont back down from a fight that i think if worth fighting.
I see the world in a different way. I see the world in mini snap-shots and i try to capture what i see in pictures almost everyday. My eyes are always open so I can take in as much as possible. I trust my gut more then anything, so if I don’t trust you from meeting you I never will.
Life isn’t always easy but at least you know it’s real. You can live your life being who people want you to be but you cant fake your way thru life. All my life, I’ve been beat down, pushed around and told what I couldn’t do. But somehow I've done it all.
I play dumb to watch people try and pull the sheet over me, to see what they are really all about. (Read, i see thru bullshiters and fakes to see what their real intentions are)
I love meeting new people. Every time I meet someone I learn something about the world or about myself. I judge everyone I meet only to prove myself wrong. I give everyone i meet a chance, even if i've only heard bad things because i want to know what happened to make them they way they are and to see if the rumors are true. I cant stand to see someone having a bad time or unhappy, even if I just met them. I’ll do what ever I can to make them smile at least once.
Money to me is over valued and under appreciated. I don’t base who I am on what I have. I would rather invest my money on experiences and memories then on material things. Also things don't impress me, people do
I live my life to make me happy. If at some point I didn’t fulfill someone’s expectations, at least I know I made myself happy. When i fuck up, im the first to say im sorry and give the best reason i can for what i did but it normaly comes out cold because im ashamed for my actions but i always mean it.
I would be lost without my friends and family. I have very few close friends and lots of acquaintances. Without my family’s love and support I would still be a lost little girl just trying to find a way to fit in to the world. My family, as messy and complicated as it is, is more functional then most. My friendships mean the world to me and with me they last a lifetime. But I will cut someone out of my life completely if they only bring me down. My life is pretty much drama free and i do my best to keep it that way.
I hold promises very high, I will do anything so I do not break a promise that I’ve made, even if it seems pointless to me. Trust is very important to me. I would rather cry over the truth then deal with the pain of a lie. I don’t ever expect anything from anyone, unless they have lead me to believe different. .
This might have come off rough but it’s the best way I can tell a little bit about who I am. I’m probably unlike anyone you have ever met and most of the positive things about me are unexplainable in statements and can only be understood once you’ve met me.
What i can tell you is, im a total goof ball who loves to have a good time, which isnt hard for me. I love to tell stories and 99.5% of the time, my stories are crazy. I live for the times when you look back and go "what were we thinking? God, I'm glad we did that". I dont do drugs and i drink very little but i can party with the best of them. i'm a lil bundle of surprises, you never know what: im goin to do, say or get into next. I cant do anything that my hearts not completly 100% into. Anything else, feel free to ask.
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I'd like to meet:

I love people who arent afraid of making an ass of themselves and can hold a good converstaion.

Music:


i pretty much can not function without music. My music is pretty mcuh all over the place, with the exception of country. I think the best music is something that has a message, weither its something that you can relate to or can change your thoughts on a topic, or simply change your mood.

Movies:

Just to name a few

Television:


Craig Ferguson

Greys

Criminal Minds

The Biggest Loser

anything that has to do with hauntings

Books:


I love to read and love learning about new things.

Some of my favorite books are;

child called "it"

The Cap

Books of Blood

Crank

The long hard road out of hell

Heroes:


My Mom. She is the strongest person i have ever known. She has given up so much to make sure, that if she didnt do anything else right, that she was a good mother. She's hard to get to know and even worse to try and understand but if she does let you in she's the best friend you could ask for. She has a weird sense of humor and sees things from all angles at once and thats one thing i'm still tryin to learn. She's taught me to be strong and prove everyone wrong. And if your hearts not in something then you wont ever learn to love it.
My Micky. She was my great aunt who i looked up to as another grandmother. For the short time i knew her, she taught me so much. She was the kind of person who when she walked into the room, the room lit up or the party began. She taught me to be kind even when other people arent kind to you and to forgive. I have yet to meet someone with the same presence she had and i try everyday to live up to being told i was the next micky. She was the kind of person, that when you first met her, she made you realize the good inside of you and was able to bring that out even in the worst situations. RIP
My grammie. She is the most indepent and smart woman i have ever met. She showed me at a very young age that you dont need anything but yourself to get things done. She's also taught me what real love and commitment is. She is very stuck in her ways but we have a lot to learn from our grandparents and i dont think we realize that. She was very stern and it came off as cold but i now see why.
My Uncle Jim. I have never admired someone like i did him. I know everyday we'll keep him alive in everything we do. He's taught me how to be myself and pick myself up from rock bottem. He's the best father i have ever seen and i've alwayz looked up to him as my father. He teachs people to go after what they want, even if your not great at it you can be, and to forget what people think because if they stick their noses up then its their lose. RIP
My Cousin's, James and Jared. They are the best kids. They're btoh smart and extremly good at anything they try which i envy. They're both very different but i could write a book on why they are heros to me.
Last but not least My Grampa. he passed away before any of us were born but from what i've heard he seemed like the best man that ever lived. If he was anything like my uncle and my mom are then i can only imagine what a joy he must have been. Even tho they lost him a young age and we didnt get to meet him, he's still in our thoughts everyday. Its weird to have never met someone but have them touch your life so much or to see the joy in pictures. RIP

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Posted by Stephy Lu on Sat, 25 Mar 2006 12:46:00 PST