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bye bye beautiful..

..dont bother to write.

About Me


www.xanga.com/isah.
I am healing. The closest i have become to content. Im not perfect, there are still days when medication doesnt seem to work and i feel, yet again, like crying my heart out. But nothing a cup of coffee and a stick of yosi wont cure. Yes, I have been trying to quit smoking for the past months although i can never seem to do it. I am taking a break from school, not because i was too pressured from studying, but because i was having too much fun. I am free spirited. I want things my way, but they seldom are. I am loud, some say eccentric. I tend to speak my mind, and most think that there is nothing more beneath, but on the contrary. No one really knows me. My thoughts, i cannot quite verbalize, that is why i write and i write trying to make something out of the jumbled ideas in my head. I find it hard to believe in things, except for peoples words. I guess i can never, ever be like anyone else because ive tried and ive failed. Caged up, maybe for my own good, maybe not. I hate how i am, yet i love it at the same time. I cannot begin to explain how ironic my existence is. Somehow im caught in between, but i find that better than being in safe ground. Id jump off a building just to see how it feels. Dare me, id do anything once. Or maybe twice. I am not afraid of what people think, and some mistake this for disrespect. I call it individuality, honesty. I do not want to conform. I am fighting a losing battle, i know, but i am fighting it anyway. Why? you ask? Because i can.
IS IT A PROBLEM IF I SOUL SEARCH EVERY NIGHT?
hopeless.

My Interests

Music. Life. Freedom. Chocolate. Philosophy. Cigs. Coffee. Love.

I'd like to meet:


People who dare to challenge the obvious.

BRUSKO BOB.

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Music:

Meaningful lyrics, powerful, heartfelt.

Movies:

Girl, interrupted. Big Fish. Grease. Nightmare Before Christmas. Grease. A Beautiful Life.

Television:

Mad tv. Southpark. House. CSI. Scrubs.

Books:

The Little Prince. Violin. Veronika Decides To Die.

Heroes:

No one, Everyone.

My Blog

Id hang myself over for you.

     Trust me, ill be okay. Eventually.
Posted by bye bye beautiful.. on Tue, 23 Aug 2005 01:49:00 PST

please.

answer this if your my friend. 1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. Do you have a crush on me? 5. Would you kiss me? 6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it...
Posted by bye bye beautiful.. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

of depression and suicide.~

of depression and suicide.~ a friend wrote this as a testimonial for me. Vin, Sunday, March 06, 2005: tsk... isah... a few understand you but most dont. we few stand out but its not somethin...
Posted by bye bye beautiful.. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

of a dream.

trapped in this vast, void darkness, i walk with arms bound and eyes wide open, although i do not see a thing. i do not stop. feeling and groping as i went, never pausing, not noticing there were even...
Posted by bye bye beautiful.. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

i hope YOU read this.

you think you know me? think again. then again, dont strain yourself. just stop thinking altogether. how can you assume so much? i find it amusing that you give me all this time and attention. i bet i...
Posted by bye bye beautiful.. on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST