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RAR=BW

Art for the artist is only suffering through which he releases himself for further suffering -Franz

About Me

i love to draw and to create music. i get along very easily with everyone just as long as you're not one of those self-absorbed or arrogant people. if there is anything specific you wanna know, leave a comment or drop a message.

My Interests

making music, drawing, painting, movies, hanging out, good conversation, silent films, reading BOOKS not gossip magazine crap, collaborating..etc..

I'd like to meet:

anyone interesting and who have the same interests as me. t.reznor, luis royo, boris vallejo, dave mckean, h.r. geiger, dorian cleavenger, joe sorren, bill leeb, nivek ogre, cEvin key, lewis black, peter griffin ;) and especially other artists and musicians.

Music:

Nine Inch Nails, Nitzer Ebb, Project Pitchfork, Marilyn Manson, Die Form, Smashing Pumpkins, Halo in Reverse, Mindless Faith, Skinny Puppy, Front 242, Front Line Assembly, Delerium, Noise Unit, [:SITD:], Tool, A Perfect Circle, Rob Zombie, KMFDM, MDFMK, Collide, Razed in Black, oHgr, Rammstein, Die Warzau, Verbrannte Engel, Third Realm, Skabdriver, Hocico, Pride and Fall, Monofader, Depeche Mode, The Cure, The Smiths, Rotersand, Clan of Xymox, Flesh Field, Icon of Coil, Hanzel und Gretyl, Rhea's Obsession, VNV Nation, Velvet Acid Christ, Neuroticfish, Bile, Pigface, 16 Volt, Billy Corgan, The Tear Garden, Enigma, Tweaker, Orgy, Godhead, Kidney Thieves, King Black Acid, Suckerface, Lords of Acid, Dream Disciples, Dummy Plug Conspiracy, Claire Voyant, L'ame Immortelle, Sonic Mayhem, Straylight, Hypofixx, Conjure One, Download, Attrition, Pro-Tech, Combichrist, Dieselboy, Foetus, Gary Numan. Basically anything industrial, techno, trance, trip-hop, electronica, drum 'n' bass, darkwave, downtempo or heavy metal.

Movies:

the Alien Quadrilogy, The Nightmare Before Christmas, Edward Scissorhands, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory(the original), Dracula(with Winona Ryder), GIA, Tommy Boy, Girl Interrupted, Black Sheep, Beverly Hills Ninja, American History X, Screwed, Vincent, Natural Born Killers, Sin City, The Crow, The Crow:City of Angels, Nosferatu, War of the Worlds, Kaena:The Prophecy, The Jacket, Versus, Aeon Flux (the animated series), 300, Grindhouse, Appleseed, The Shawshank Redemption

Television:

Family Guy, Futurama, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Cowboy Bebop, Trigun, Charmed, Robot Chicken, Everybody Loves Raymond, The Office, Monk, Three's Company, Mind of Mencia, Chapelle Show, Venture Brothers, Stroker and Hoop, Scrubs,30 Rock, Conan

Books:

Dracula (Bram Stoker), Darkness Descending, Obsidian Butterfly, Childhood's End, Of Mice and Men, The Catcher in the Rye, The Bridge, The Illustrated Man, The Book of Dragons, Ender's Shadow, The Canterbury Tells, Temeraire, The Horus Heresy:Horus Rising, The Horus Heresy:False Gods, The Horus Heresy:Galaxy in Flames, The Horus Heresy:Flight of the Eisenstein, The Horus Heresy:Fulgrim, Ravenor, Ravenor Returned, Ravenor Rogue, Eisenhorn, The Soul Drinkers Omnibus, The Metamorphosis, Siddhartha, The Communist Manifesto

Heroes:

Trent Reznor

My Blog

THE PHOENIX

The following short story was written about a week in a half ago. It started out as a poem but then grew into this. I wrote out the manuscript (yes I still write things down) and changed, added, and t...
Posted by RAR=BW on Sun, 12 Aug 2007 01:50:00 PST

ASTROS

well wednesday was the last game of the astros VS the cubs and i must say that those three games were pretty good =) the last though was the best! those of you who know me well, know that i'm not a sp...
Posted by RAR=BW on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 11:38:00 PST

nihilist

i'm sick in body and soulthis person i see is no goodfragments of an ideal humanno longer has meaningwill give me a reasonto be something i want to be?would you take away everythingthat should've matt...
Posted by RAR=BW on Tue, 08 May 2007 11:14:00 PST

new person (becoming)

grains of sand from the skyfall to the ground, through my eyesa glimpse into the mindof something that could've beenmy monster is kicking throughi hate this personalityi want to tear myself downi need...
Posted by RAR=BW on Tue, 08 May 2007 10:56:00 PST

will

close my eyes and i can still seetear out my throat and i can still speakshock my nerves and i can still feelshoot my brain and i can still thinkstop my heart and i will still love ~4-9-07~...
Posted by RAR=BW on Mon, 09 Apr 2007 01:39:00 PST

drill

drill me into the grounddrill me into your soulweld me upon your bodymold me into your formtake away my angergive away my peacesmash my creativityleave me without thoughtdrill me into the treesdrill m...
Posted by RAR=BW on Mon, 02 Apr 2007 12:42:00 PST

reincarnation

losing sleep over somethingfeels like there's someone therekeep racing, keep racingall this stress on my heart isn't fairlooking in the corners of my room of shadowsthumping noises from the wallsfeeli...
Posted by RAR=BW on Fri, 30 Mar 2007 01:31:00 PST

something new

it's been a while since i've let gothere's someone new, nowit's been a while since i've pushed away the cloudsi have someone to look forward to again you feel new to mewe think so much alikei've taken...
Posted by RAR=BW on Mon, 26 Mar 2007 08:03:00 PST

one in a million

my life is collapsing into a holea constant resonance in the back of my headdrowning in a river with a static flowi can't take back everything i said threatening myself to feel the truthpunishing my m...
Posted by RAR=BW on Thu, 19 Jan 2006 12:00:00 PST

cloves

my head hurts right nowthere's static in the backgroundlaughter on my left an empty seat on my right waiting to take her somewhereour addiction for cancerthe need to hold in the smokewaiting for the f...
Posted by RAR=BW on Fri, 02 Dec 2005 12:08:00 PST