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About Me

Sometimes I want to dissolve and just go the way I came...but I can't. Synthesized sugars, Styrofoam cups, bleach in my hair, nail polish, false fabrics, and colored contact lenses not for purpose but just for looks. Now I [think] am finally who I have always wanted to be. I wonder if people will see me from my past and be surprised at who I am now. Or perhaps people will see that everything is a distraction from which it is that lives within and tries to speak without breathing...Without thinking. I came as nothing more than a naked being so small so insignificant. And now I am so much older and so much wiser. My car, my shoes, my aesthetics are going to let people see that I am something. Why else would I dress how I do or say what I say? It is the same reason we all do what we do. We all have looked so near and far for a form of acceptance. Whether we intimidate people, please people, or react somewhere in between we all want people to talk about us and have respect for us. The funny thing behind coolness is the mysterious air that goes with it. Just wanting people to see, respect all that I am but getting to know me will truly destroy it. And the fact is that I am not that cool so I will shut up and act mysterious. That is death. We are bound with all these people that help make this world what it is. Whether we love to hate it, hate to love it, or we can live in peaceful contentedness, we must respect that. We will never be more than that same kid who came out. One day we will go back to the ground the way we came and we will never ever be able to take anything with us. I am sure you are a wonderful thoughtful individual, but quite frankly, I don't care. Admit it...everyone is too wrapped up in their own thing to really notice how much time you put into your outfit today. Instead...sit back with knowing eyes. Breathe. Have faith. Live... Show your true face to the ones who really matter.

My Interests

Art, Photography, Love, Music, Movies and friends. Boy do I miss this girl...

I'd like to meet:

People who have interesting personalities and are comfortable with who they are.

Music:

Nirvana, Ani Difranco, Nine Inch Nails, Tool, A Perfect Circle, Everclear, Goo Goo Dolls, Panic at the disco, Bush, Third Eye Blind, Toadies, The Cure, T Pain, Lil Wayne, DJ Unk, P Diddy, Ying Yang Twins, Pitbull, Akon, Eminem, P Diddy

Movies:

Edward Scissor Hands, Sleepy Hollow, Charlie and The Chocolate Factory (new), Blow, White Oleander, May, Tim Burton movies, Sin City, The Note Book.

Television:

One Tree Hill, CSI, Charmed, Family Guy, Aqua Teen, Simpsons

Books:

Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Virgin Suicides, Kurt Cobain Books

Heroes:

Ani Defranco

My Blog

The Rain

Sometimes in life the best things can't be explainedLike the butterflies I get when you touch meAnd the way my heart pattered faster when you said you wanted to stand in the rain with meHe knows I wan...
Posted by Sunshine on Thu, 18 May 2006 07:37:00 PST

This Disease

Whispering thoughts float through the air Shattered memories haunt me in my dreams Memories I cant forget All the times you stayed until 3 am All the times you said you loved me Every single wor...
Posted by Sunshine on Mon, 01 May 2006 03:54:00 PST

Whispers in the night

I woke with your hand on my hip and you leaning over me whispering my name My heart felt like it was going to beat right out of my chest You asked me if I was cold I whispered yes in hopes that you wo...
Posted by Sunshine on Mon, 01 May 2006 06:17:00 PST

Nothingness

Air smells false with the cheap bodies walking in it Zombie like, the words spill from their mouths Meaningless are the words spoken as they melt together Minds muted by the drugs consumed on a daily ...
Posted by Sunshine on Tue, 18 Apr 2006 06:13:00 PST

My blonde haired boy

The bar was filled with smoke when he walked in A glance and then a second glance Piercing blue eyes reach out to me from across the room I adjust trying not to stare knowing hes looking at me The man...
Posted by Sunshine on Tue, 18 Apr 2006 06:03:00 PST

Ashley Rose

In the ground is where shell lay Up in heaven far away She looks down upon us Thoughts of her and devastating sadness Be strong shell whisper As we think of her Keep us safe I say Laying in bed as I p...
Posted by Sunshine on Sat, 28 Jan 2006 04:16:00 PST

Trust

Trusting someone is difficultEspecially if you've experienced what I haveEven a little taste of those experiences would send most running in the opposite directionWhy?Why run when you can't escape lif...
Posted by Sunshine on Tue, 27 Dec 2005 07:09:00 PST

The Thoughts of a Suicide Bird

A wounded bird I was Lonely and hurting night after night Even with you there right next to me You were right... The longest road was the way down A downfall I'll never be capable of erasing I did f...
Posted by Sunshine on Tue, 06 Dec 2005 01:26:00 PST

I want to...

I want to look in the mirror and see someone beautiful To feel beautiful, to be whole I want you to see me as beautiful Remind me of it, let me know it I want to be known on a level that no ones ever ...
Posted by Sunshine on Tue, 06 Dec 2005 04:18:00 PST