im amber. i love my life & everyone in it. i have been throug alot, most people cant even imagine. but i cant say it wasnt worth it. sometimes i sit & think about what i could have done different. & i realize i wouldnt change a thing. i have learned to accept that shit happens. & trust me it wasnt easy. i tell myself that everything happens for a reason, but im not so sure if i believe that anymore im not so sure what i believe anymore. in the past year i have grown so much. its crazy when i look back & try to picture myself 8 months ago. i cant. i cant remember what my life was like when it was normal as much as i dont want to admit... i do miss him. things have been so hard to deal with. i cant even count how many times i have cried. but i dont cry anymore. i cant cry anymore.. im not the same little girl i used to be. unlike most people i learn from my mistakes. people think that they know me by looking at my myspace. they dont know shit. my life is too complicated to put into words. so you can talk all you want. it doesnt faze me anymore. you never know how strong you are until you get your heart broken. i never knew how independent i truly was i have been in LOVE once. & it was honestly the happiest i have ever been. but other than that, i dont get attached to guys. i usually wont even think twice about it. because the minute i let my guard down, i get hurt & theres only so much i can take. theres only so much heart break i can deal with. & for now i have had my share i do not need a guy to make me happy, i am perfectly content with where im at. my friends are my life support. without them... i would have gone crazy a long time ago. there are very few people i trust. by very few i mean 2. trust is a huge issue with me. i learned the hard way that trust is easily broken, even by the one person you trusted the most. i just ((cant)) let my guard down, even if i try. & the one time that i did let my feelings show. even though i knew in my heart i shouldnt. it completely backfired. in the worst way possible. so never again. my opinion is my own. my honesty can be harsh. strength is determined by how you use the honesty given to you. the weak let it affect them & the strong use it to become greater i am as strong as they come so watch me become greater i am a very complicated girl. most of the time i dont even make sense to myself. dont count on me to make a decision, cause youll be waitin all day. i usually dont get along with girls... & if i dont like you now... i probably never will. i have a tendency to hold grudges. karma's a bitch. i swear if you fuck with me i will fuck you over 10 x's harder!!! i act and think like a guy.... which is weird cause im not
halloween 06'
sarh rose. i would not be the person i am today if it werent for you. you put up with my worst moods, go along with my crazy ideas & still manage to find the best in me. you keep me sane.... you are the best friend i could have ever asked for & i thank god everyday that you are a part of my life. our friendship is like no other. nothing compares to me & you.
alyssa bobissa. i have never met anyone like you in my life. i swear, i wouldnt laugh half as much if it werent for you. i love our crazy driving pictures & i love how you can make me laugh for hours over the stupidest things. "look.... mormons!!!!" you keep me going everyday... i love you!!
alaina ~aka~ princess taliban. me + you = crazy fun & always trouble. you are my partner in crime. high school wouldnt be the same without you, u have taught me so much about myself that i would have never known without you. i love you to death girl!!! p.t. & c.w. 4 life!!!
& of course my philly willy. god phill we have been through so much together & grown up so fast.... its weird how things change. i am so proud of you. i remember 7th grade when you used to be "one of the girls" lol. & now your in the military. we all grew up so fast its surreal. im so greatful to have a friend like you. i love you so much hun stay safe & come home soon!
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