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Delilah

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About Me


i miss colorful hair...
i don't know how to draw.
i have over 500 dvds and over 150 different eye shadows, eight tattoos (i'm getting more soon), and i'm currently working towards a ph.d. in clinical psychology.
lately i find myself equally puzzled and horrified at the hypocrisy and ignorance of extremists of any kind, including those for causes that i may agree with.
i don't believe in a lot of things, but my new goal in life is to try and understand why other people do, before i decide they're utterly fucking stupid for doing so. because i jump to that conclusion frequently, with many of the people i know, because i stupidly assume that i'm smarter than they are, and in many situations concerning many subjects, that just isn't true...
I like these right now:
"You can be suicidal, and you'll still pick Cheer over Tide..."--Dr. Nigel Field, in Cog Affective Bases of Behavior II, on how mood has no effect on shopping brand preferences...
it's no good
after all.
it has been cut in half
drawn and
quartered and
hung out to dry.
it was hardly good
even when it was good.
the ego gets caught
in a web of desire
the ego creates that strange mirage,
love.
I need a new home for my ego.
who will she be
this time?
--charles bukowski, 'note for my wall' from "slouching towards nirvana"
the nights you firght best
are
when all the weapons are pointed
at you,
when all the voices
hurl their insults
while the dream is being
strangled.
the nights you fight best
are
when reason gets
kicked in the
gut,
when the chariots of
gloom
encircle
you.
the nights you fight best
are
when the laughter of fools
fills the
air,
when the kiss of death is
mistaken for
love.
the nights you fight best
are
when the game is
fixed,
when the crowd screams
for your
blood.
the nights you fight best
are
on a night like
this
as you chase a thousand
dark rats from
your brain,
as you rise up against the
impossible,
as you become a brother
to the tender sister
of joy and
move on
regardless.
--charles bukowski, 'regardless' from "slouching towards nirvana"
my mind is
a big hunk of irrevocable nothing which touch and taste and smell
and hearing and sight keep hitting and chipping with sharp fatal
tools
in an agony of sensual chisels i perform squirms of chrome and ex-
ecute strides of cobalt
nevertheless i
feel that i cleverly am being altered that i slightly am becoming
something a little different,in fact
myself
Hereupon helpless i utter lilac shreiks and scarlet bellowings.
--e.e. cummings, 'Portraits: XXV', from the 'Tulips' section of "Tulips & Chimneys"
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My Interests

poetry, writing, france
spain, italy, ireland
acculturation, religious identity, depression, cognitive behavioral therapy
strategic and structural interventions
existentialism and existential therapy
razor blades, scars, chomsky
bettie page, pin-ups, gil elvgren
twisted children's stories, gothic baby dolls, wigs
eye make-up, mixed drinks, debauchery
moments unexpected with friends
tattoos, fuck-ups, and dirty punk rock kids...


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I'd like to meet:

people with common sense and good grammar
which probably does not include most of the people i know.

people who spell out entire words correctly instead of phonetically, as if they are texting, rather than typing, thereby degrading all of civilization and signaling how utterly fucking stupid they are, college degrees not withstanding.

my family (my real family) on a regular basis.

joss whedon, since i'm completely buffy and angel obsessed at the moment (and always firefly obsessed)...

noël and i have decided to bring back the words of the week--so:

OFFICIAL WORDS OF THE WEEK LIST:
word!
street walker
sticky
spandex


this is quite fantastic, really:

What Kind of Geek are You?
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
Your IQ is frighteningly high
You are a word nerd
Your strength is you never need to sleep
Your weakness is eye shadow
You think normal people are strange
Normal people think that you are disturbed

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Music:

marilyn manson, system of a down, yellowcard, postal service, avenged sevenfold, interpool, taking back sunday, weird al, my chemical romance, poe, tori amos, the faint, the doors, nick drake, david grey, guns n roses, mazzy star, thursday, sparta, aimee mann, weezer, jimmy eat world, kittie, vnv nation, switchblade symphony, nirvana, tenacious d, fleetwood mac, the beatles, The Cure, hole, saves the day, dead poetic, mxpx, afi, murder city devils, dashboard confessional, atreyu, hot rod circuit, apoptygma bezerk, faith and the muse, james taylor, richard cheese,pretty girls make graves, red hot chili peppers, coheed & cambria, ladytron, songs about girls who kill themselves...

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Movies:

right now: random kurosawa and other foreign films from italy and mexico i've always wanted to see.
always:sweeney todd, newsies, the pillow book, priscilla queen of the desert, billy's hollywood screen kiss, hustle and flow, the last dragon, rebel without a cause, guys and dolls, the devil's rejects, hackers, galaxy quest, little voice, amelie, pride and prejudice (the five hour miniseries), trainspotting, the virgin suicides, jesus' son, todo sobre mi madre, hable con ella, malena, tea with mussolini, girl fight, the last emporer, indochine, grease, l.a. story, bowfinger, mixed nuts, the lord of the rings, star wars iv, v, & vi, yellow submarine, copycat, pirates of the carribean (1 & 2), the x-men movies, almost famous, saved, sorority boys, mallrats, what about bob, the departed, gangs of new york, bringing out the dead, thank you for smoking, superbad, transformers, disturbia, knocked up, the invisible, grindhouse, all the mighty duck movies (yeah, i said it), and the earlier muppet movies...plus whatever else is on the bookshelf or the floor or coffee table...

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Television:

six feet under, deadwood, the sopranos, the simpsons, family guy, futurama, king of the hill, 90210, saved by the bell, seinfeld, the golden girls, harvy birdman, absolutely fabulous, robot chicken, i love lucy, a different world, dawson's creek, 7th heaven, queer as folk, the oblongs, bleach, avatar, escaflowne, project runway, neon genesis, cowboy bebop, paranoia agent, 21 jumpstreet, freaks and geeks, buffy and angel, arrested development, big love, black adder, the tudors, bones, all the law and orders (except criminal intent)

Books:

currently reading: selected writings of immanuel kant; the structure of scientific revolutions by kuhn; the electric kool-aid acid test by tom wolf; the power tactics of jesus christ and other essays by j. haley, and the classic tale that became a legend: sweeney todd, the demon barber of fleet street.

always love: tolstoy, dostoyevsky, sinclair lewis; kerouac, agatha christie, gregory maguire; dickens, jane austen, thackeray; bukowski, e.e. cummings, langston hughes; maya angelou, amy tan, j.k. rowling; tolkien (and tolkien, and tolkien, and tolkien); david sedaris, jeffery eugenides, erma bombeck, palahniuk; oliver sacks, wharton, and more. plus vonnegut. who i forgot to put at first, to my eternal shame.

also romance novels (especially historical ones) for the comedy and various psychology journals...

Heroes:


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such controversy over the rbl...people are stupid

everyone lets you down eventually...

My Blog

uh, stupidity

fact: i don't believe in god currently. that may change, though it likely will not. but, being enchanted with empiricism, logic, and philosophy, i would never say that it is impossible that god exists...
Posted by Delilah on Wed, 28 May 2008 07:57:00 PST

just because it makes me laugh...

(something i wrote when i was 21, that was totally a joke but totally serious, and that's funny as hell...) "teen angst" it's sillyto sayi love youbecause ofbackwardswritingand picturesof raves;s...
Posted by Delilah on Fri, 18 Apr 2008 11:48:00 PST

six.

(came and wentwithout merealizingit.) everythingruns togetheruntilit’s just one        long     day      &nbs...
Posted by Delilah on Fri, 04 Apr 2008 12:26:00 PST

random bits of bullshit...

let’s see, let’s see... today i got a box full of dvds that i splurged on with some of my tax refund, including the entire series of dawson’s creek (side note: i could attempt to jus...
Posted by Delilah on Sat, 22 Mar 2008 06:07:00 PST

(favourite valentine poem of all time)

st. valentine(21 years old, 2/09/02, while watching "the labrynth"; numbers 109, 347, 59, 7) fuck youfuck you(fuck you)no really,fuck you--(because i love you)and ithurtsknowingthat youdon't(and won't...
Posted by Delilah on Sat, 09 Feb 2008 12:39:00 PST

a poem about nothing

i misslyingin the darknext to you(hands almosttouching)your breathalternatelycold and warmon my fingers(rhythmic,   seductive)mirror imagesin sleep. awakeeverythingwas different.eyes alwaysl...
Posted by Delilah on Tue, 22 Jan 2008 10:03:00 PST

friendship (original title obscured)

i never likedblueberry muffinsbeforewe werefriendsand i haven'tbeen ableto eat one sincei threwthat oneyou brought mein the streetin frontof my housethat day we hadour fight(the day the jigwas up)beca...
Posted by Delilah on Sun, 13 Jan 2008 04:14:00 PST

sweeney todd, disneyland, grades, and winter quarter

so, i had a poem i wrote at the tail end of last quarter that i wanted to post but cannot find in the chaotic paper mess of my apartment. it's funny (at least, i think it's funny, but as i have a well...
Posted by Delilah on Wed, 02 Jan 2008 06:29:00 PST

art

this artis compulsiveand poorlydonebut i cannotspeakin another way(my voiceis missing;my mindis wandering)the expressionis crudebut the meaningis the same--in the silence,  the absence of formthe...
Posted by Delilah on Thu, 01 Nov 2007 11:36:00 PST

bad news

it feelshelplessto sit in thecar next tosomeonei barely knowwhile shetries not to havea nervousebreakdownover herphone call.i wish i couldoffer wordsof comfortbut i've gotnothing--no hope, no lovejust...
Posted by Delilah on Thu, 01 Nov 2007 11:32:00 PST