AKRATEAREE OZETTE

Get your own countdown at BlingyBlob.com-one of these...might result....in one of these....then you'd hafta watch out fer this....**************************************************** ******************** ---THE GLASS IS 1/2 EMPTY, BUT AT LEAST I'VE GOT SOME MILK!!---FORKS, WASHINGTON WAS WHERE I WAS BORN. SMALL TOWN ON THE OLYMPIC PENINSULA. FUNK-N-BALLARD WAS THE FIRST STREET I LIVED ON. I GREW UP IN THE TINY TOWN OF CLALLAM BAY, WASHINGTON. IN THE CENTER OF OUR TOWN IS A STATUE OF A WOODEN FISH, WEARING BOXERS AND HE'S JOGGEN! WITH A MASCOT LIKE THAT HOW CAN YOU EXPECT ANY OF US TO BE SANE? I HAVE TWO BEAUTIFUL SISTER-CRISTA AND ASHLEY. THEM ARE MY MOM ARE MY BEST FRIENDS. THOSE THREE LADIES ARE ABSOLUTLEY AMAZING. IT IS AN HONOR TO BE RELATED TO THEM. MY DADDY IS A BIG, STRONG GUY THAT TAKES CARE OF US 4 LADIES. EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE I PULL A FAST ONE AND DAD GIVES ME THE LOOK AND SAYS "JESUS CHRIST HEATHER..." THATS WHEN I KNOW I'VE GONE TO FARRRRRRRRRRRRR. HE HASN'T SAID IT TO ME IN A WHILE. MAYBE IM GROWING UP. OR MAYBE I'M JUST BETTER AT NOT GETTING CAUGHT!!! THAT MUST BE IT :) SO AFTER OLD FUNK-N-BALLARD STREET MY PARENTS BOUGHT SOME LAND ON THE HILL OVERLOOKING CLALLAM BAY AND THATS WHERE MOM AND DAD ARE STILL LOCATED TODAY. I HAD A FAIRY-TALE CHILDHOOD, FILLED WITH SUMMER VACATIONS TO WONDERFUL PLACES, MAGICAL CHRISTMASES WITH TONS OF FAMILY AND PRESENTS FROM SANTA. ACTUALLY SANTA STILL COMES EVERY YEAR FOR ME, CRISTA AND ASHLEY. MOM AND DAD SAID IF WE EVER SAY THAT WE DON'T BELIEVE THEN SANTA WON'T COME. I DO BELIEVE IN SANTA AND....AND WE STILL LEAVE HIM COOKIES AND MILK,OH, AND CHEESE TO BE A LITTLE MORE HEALTHY. IN HIGH SCHOOL I WAS A CHEERLEADER. I HUNG OUT WITH HEATHER, JACKIE, HOLLY AND ANGELA MOSTLY. THEN, WHEN I WAS 16 I FELL,FELL, FELL MADLY, CRAZILY IN LOVE WITH A BEAUTIFUL BOY AND WE EVENTUALLY GOT ENGAGED. IN 11TH GRADE I STARTED ATTENDING COLLEGE THROUGH THE RUNNING START PROGRAM. SO I GRADUATED IN 96 FROM HIGH SCHOOL AND IN 97 I HAD MY ASSOCIATES DEGREE. MY BOYFRIEND MATT, MY BEST FRIEND HEATHER AND I MOVED TO BELLINGHAM, WASHINGTON AND ATTENDED WESTERN WASHINGTON UNIVERSITY. IT WAS IN BELLINGHAM THAT I TURNED 21. IT WAS IN BELLINGHAM WHERE I STARTED REALLY LEARNING ABOUT MY SELF. IT WAS THERE IN THAT PSYCHOLOGY CLASS TAUGHT BY RON AND MIKE THAT I REALLY BEGAN TO QUESTION WHAT I WAS DOING. IT WAS FROM RON THAT I'D LEARNED ABOUT THE PEACE CORPS. AND FINALLY I SNAPPED. I CALLED OFF THE WEDDING, I GRADUATED WITH A B.A. IN PSYCH, I SHAVED MY BEAUTIFUL BLONDE HAIR OFF AND WAS BALD (EXCEPT MY HOT-PINK BANGS), I JOINED THE PEACE CORPS AND I BEGAN TO PARTY AND PARTY AND PARTY AND THEN-----THEN I TOOK OFF TO KAZAKHSTAN (BORDERS RUSSIA). I RAN TO ESCAPE. I RAN AND RAN AND RAN. I DIDN'T PLAN ON EVER COMING BACK (I FOUND OUT LATER THAT MY PARENTS SUSPECTED THAT MY INTENT WAS TO NEVER RETURN). I WAS IN THE PEACE CORPS FOR ABOUT 6 MONTHS AND THEN I DECIDED TO FLY HOME AND SURPRISE MY SISTER, ASHLEY, FOR HER GRADUATION. AND SO I CAME HOME AND ASHLEY WAS SHOCKED TO SAY THE LEAST. ONE OF THOSE NIGHTS WHILE VISITING THE FAMILY A BUNCH OF US DECIDED TO PLAY COPS AND FUGITIVES. *DAD WARNED ME NOT TO DO WHAT I DID DO NEXT* ANGEL AND I HAND-CUFFED OURSELVES TOGETHER AND RIGHT PAST THE SPRING TAVERN THE COPS WERE ONTO US SO WE WENT RUNNING. AND....WE RAN RIGHT OFF A CLIFF IN THE DARK. I REMEMBER ANGEL SCREAMING "CLIFF GO BACK." THE NEXT THING I REMEMBER WAS HANGING OFF THE EDGE AND SLIDING BACKWARDS AND THEN I FELL AND FELL. WE LANDED ON A HUGE PILE OF ROCKS. ANGEL HIT HER HEAD AND WAS KNOCKED UNCONSCIOUS. I BROKE MY ANKLE. THE HEALING PROCESS TOOK SO LONG THAT I WOULD HAVE HAD TO REAPPLY IN PEACE CORPS. SHORTLY AFTER THAT 9-11 HAPPENED AND I WAS GLAD TO BE IN AMERICA. THEN ONE DAY IN THAT SUMMER OF 01 I WAS WALKING DOWN THE STAIRS AND I SAID IM MOVING TO BOISE, IDAHO. AND I DID IN OCTOBER OF 01. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT HERE. WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW I FEEL ABOUT MY FRIENDS THAT I HAVE MADE HERE. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, ALL OF YOU WITH ALL MY BEING. THE SCENE IS SO AMAZING. IVE BEEN HERE FIVE YEARS AND I DONT PLAN ON LEAVING ANYTIME SOON. SO IVE FOUND MY PLACE HERE IN BOISE. AND IVE REALLY BEEN LEARNING A LOT ABOUT MY SELF. SUMMER OF 05 I WENT TO ESTHETIC EVOLUTION-A MUSIC AND SELF- EXPRESSION FESTIVAL THAT'S HELD NEAR BOISE. IT WAS UP ON THAT HILL THAT I WAS DANCING AND RUNNING AMUCK WITH ALL MY BUDDIES...AND THEN I GOT A LITTLE HUNGRY FROM ALL THAT PLAYING...SO I HAD A HEALTHY LITTLE SNACK THAT CONSISTED OF SOME FRESH VEGE'S AND A NICE, COOL GLASS A VADA...SOME TIME LATER A WAVE OF MADNESS CREPT OVER ME... SOMETHING ABOUT GETTING WATER FROM THE WISHING-WELL...THE PURENESS OF REALITY DANCED BOLDLY AROUND ME...THE SOUND OF JAMIES LAUGHTER...SUDDENLY THE GROUND CAME UP AND KNOCKED ME RIGHT ON MY ASS...WE LAY THERE FOR...FOR...FOR I DONT KNOW BECAUSE TIME DIDN'T EXIST...I WAS TELLING JAMIE THAT I WAS REALLY GETTING ANNOYED WITH THE EARTH PUSHING MY LEGS OUT FROM UNDER ME...I COULDN'T STAND...THEN THERE WAS THAT HUGE MOTH ON THE TARP...AND ALL THESE BUGS FLYING AROUND...AND AMIDST IT ALL CAME A MEMORY OF HIM...I COULDN'T ESCAPE IT...TEARS RACKED MY BODY...THANKFULLY A GENTLE SOUL NAMED LISA STEPPED UP AND HELD ME AND GUIDED ME THROUGH THIS ALL-ENCOMPASSING PAIN...EVERY SINGLE CELL, EVERY PARTICLE OF MY SELF ON ALL LEVELS-PHYSICAL, MENTAL, SPIRITUAL, EMOTIONAL, ETC FELT THE GUT-WRENCHING PAIN...AND I CRIED AND CRIED...AND THEN I LAY THERE IN MISERY WAITING FOR THAT BIG BALL OF FIRE IN THE SKY TO REAR ITS HEAD SO I COULD GET THE HELL OUTTA THERE. IT WAS THAT NIGHT THAT I HAD REALIZED THAT I NEED HELP. I HAVEN'T HEALED OR EVEN BEGUN TO HEAL. MY HEART WAS NOT JUST BROKE, IT WAS COMPLETELY SHATTERED. I STOOD THERE LOOKING AT THAT FIREPROOF BOX AND I OPENED IT UP AND REMOVED THE COLD STEEL BOX FROM INSIDE. I UNLOCKED IT AND LIFTED THE LID AND MY GLAZAMEE STUDIED THE CONTENTS INSIDE. THERE IN THE BOTTOM OF THE VELVET-LINED BOX WAS MY BROKEN HEART. MY EYES WERE FIXATED ON THAT POOR, LITTLE PILE OF SHARDS THAT ONCE WAS MY HEART. SO A COUPLE DAYS AFTER I GOT HOME I MADE AN APPOINTMENT WITH MY HYPNOTHERAPIST. BEEN SEEING HIM EVER SINCE. ITS UP, ITS DOWN. I GO BACK AND FORTH. I GUESS IM JUST LEARNING TO ACCEPT THE PAIN AS PART OF MY SELF. ITS A CROSS I WILL ALWAYS BEAR. SO THATS THAT! I GOT MY OWN PLACE HERE IN BOISE. I LOVE TO LIVE ALONE. I DON'T THINK I WILL EVER LIVE WITH ANYONE AGAIN. BLAH BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I CANT THINK STRAIGHT GODDAMMIT, ILL FIGURE IT TOMORROW. MUST CALL ERIN........TOMORROW, TOMORROW, TOMORROW......FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!