Sheolsicle

I'm an artist who decided to get some of the much valued "life experience" after I got out of college. So I moved around a bit, living in Atlanta, NYC, Deadwood SD, Richmond VA, and Nashville TN (shudders), before I made up my mind and made the final move to Seattle where I decided to put down some roots. It's been a very hard slog, moving to a city you've never been to before, with no friends, and no prospects...but, at the time of this writing....I've met people, got a decent job, and got my loft in downtown! :) It's been very hard work, and there's still a long way to go before I can settle in to a relaxing routine.Generally speaking I'm a very laid back, low key person. I'm not very interested in being in the spotlight, and I'm not very keen on materialism for it's own sake....which puts me at odds right off the bat with most of society. I'm very open-minded and accepting about most things with the exception of people who are false...either with themselves, or with others. Hmm...I think that definition is sufficently broad enough to cover the spectrum of irritants that get to me. ;)I'm a voracious reader and some of my favorite topics are quantum physics, genetics, philosophy, psychology, and metaphysics. Yeah...just a little weird. I was one of those kids that would sit in the playground staring at an anthill for hours drawing all sorts of amazing parallels with human culture. Well...amazing for a 7 year old anyway. Even still at random moments I get struck by the complexity that we are all in....often I've looked at, say, a leaf....and tried to imagine the clouds of atoms that make it up....and that make up my hand holding it....and the air around them both....and in one gestalt almost wrap my brain around the oneness of everything. It's odd because it makes you feel both big and small all at the same time. I'm also one of those freaky people who will pull over on the side of the road, and sit gazing at the moon for an hour before finally driving on. heh.A bit of an unfortunate circumstance : most of my values I learned from my grandfather so I have a pretty old fashioned view of things. I always cringe that I was taught to judge people by their actions and not their words because not only do they seldom mesh...but more often than not they are COMPLETELY divergent. So I do have a bit of a negative cloud floating around me at most times with the extreme disappointment in humanity. The dig that gets me most of all is how surprised people are when you are as good as your word. They always say..."Hey! You actually came!" or "Wow! You actually did this!" and I stare and say "Well, I did tell you that I would, yes?"I'm usually contemplative by nature and my mind tends to be fairly simple and single tracked. I seem to get in a mode and it takes some determined jostling to shake me out of it. Most people see that as being distant...but really, I'm just in another place and need some help to reconnect. For instance, I can't be in "art mode" and just up and go to a party.....my mind is still grinding away at color combinations and composition...even as I sip a beer. And there aren't many people with the patience, or understanding to help nudge me out of that. So I tend to stay in my little hermitage of a loft and create disturbing things. ;)Well, that was a rather narative description....but it works for now. Maybe I'll sit down and think of a better one later.