I am a thinker. I sometimes lie in bed contemplating the many possibilities of infinity, zero, dimensions beyond the 4th, time, etc etc. I can't help but wonder if there is plane of existence beyond any that a human can comprehend. I know I exist on this earth and am given 5 senses with which to navigate my way through the dimensions I was meant to understand. But I want to know more, I have always wanted to know more. I study Aerospace Engineering as a college major and sadly I find it lacking in substance. I get tired of calculating velocities and accelerations and 3 dimensional vectors. I want to understand in a way that no human has understood before....Until then, I suppose I can survive with what exists in front of me. Patience is a virtue as the say. But there is more out of life that I hope to find one day. For instance, lately I have been trying to realize and understand the theories of energy and fields and matter that bind and contain all things in the universe. It is a beautiful thing to try and track the minute, quantum interactions of yourself and your surroundings, to try to understand what fundamental things connect you to the rest of the world. I don't suppose I will ever make any breakthroughs in trying to see the world through such senses, but it passes the time.
For a less esoteric depiction of myself, basically I am young, in my prime, and just trying to find out what there is to appreciate in life. People talk of love, and religion, and politics, and money, and morals, and I get bored and annoyed with most of those things. Don't get me wrong, I have my opinions and I see the world how I see it, but I have a hard time allocating portions of my life towards understanding such things anymore. I think I burnt out. Right now all I care about is living day to day and accepting what life throws at me. I try to take the good times with the bad and accept the elation and pain as a fundamental, coexisting paradox in life. That may sound a little depressing, or just wierd, but I assure you I am not depressed. The latter however, is debateable. I spend a lot of time trying to do stuff with my closest friends. By stuff I mean going on random adventures that involve hiking, punk rock shows, knives, the ocean, piracy, ninjaing, etc etc etc. I am tired of thinking about my future and planning every detail out and seeking security. I want chaos and adventure and am looking for a future which will provide that. One day, security and routine might be something I feel like going back to, but for now, I am looking to have fun, act stupid, and live life to the fullest while I'm still young and healthy enough to do it.
You can note my hobbies and interests under my hobbies and interest sessions but for now, this section is supposed to be where I discuss myself, and the above is kind of how I see myself these days.
Fight the power, rock on, kick ass, take names, don't feed the zombies....
--Brady C. Jackson....
