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About Me

i am whatever you say i am if i was'nt then why would i say i am?
I hate people that act like there gangster's
I hate people that act hard or think they are
i hate people that claim gang's it's retarded
i hate people steppin on my toe's
i hate people not minding there own business
i hate guy's that treat girl's like shit
I hate drug's
I hate people that want me to change
I hate being sad more than happy
I hate sitting around with nothing to do
I hate how i lost all my frind's
I hate how i let someone get so close to me
I hate how i stuck around and dealed with it
I hate how i let people stomp on me
I hate wene he got mad at me for nothing
I hate how he was always embaressed of me
I hate alot of stuff about him
I hate being alone
I hate how i gave my life to him
i hate how now i dont have much to build on
I hate setting my clock back because
i hate how it get;'s dark sooner
I hate how it is not sunny all the time
I hate whene people talk about me wene they dont know me
I hate how no one want's to get to know me
I hate being called a bitch
I hate ciggaret's
I hate hateing so much.
I hate how im fatt.
I hate how im not as strong as i use to be
I love tanning
I love my mom melissa and carter and my brother
I love singing in the shower.. to alison craus
I love softball
I love scrub's
I love a guy that can cook&&make me laugh
I love hanging out with a group of ten
I love flip flop's
I love tattoo's
I love ocean shores
I love being sober
I love driving and listening to my music
I love MUSIC ALL AROUND
I love writing poem's
I love to learn
I love encouraging people
I love hugg's&&kisse's
I love BIG TRUCK'S
I love sex
I love the snow and christmas
I love love the color's &&
I LOVE SWIMMING
I love jesus
I love Robby's family
I love teriyaki &&
I love barbeque's
I love being so happy that i could cry!!!!!
I love having things to look forward too
I love shopping
I love being taken out on date's
&&& i love MEN NOT BOY'S!
what can i say I work alot more than i want to..Im pretty much crazy down on myself at the moment i just bought a bad ass deck for my car and spent 660 dollar's on tanning lol I dont really have much of a social life anymore since im sober and all that good shit whene i got with my ex i dropped all my friend's and started kickin it with his to find out two year's down the road all people are in this little fucked up town are shit talker's and live on shit talking that';s how they survive;.Iam really forward if i dont like you you know and ican almost tell right wne ei meet you lol I like going out and doing fun stuff not sitting around a house getting fucked up lol the party's in t5acoma are nothing like the party's in auburn lol yadda mean?..I have alot of shit going on right now.In my family life and friend life i have one person that5 i would tell anything to and go above and beyond to make her happy because she is the best friend a girl can have she tell;'s you whats up instead of sugar coating it.. Melissa i love you like a sister no joke!!I have been sick lately and not sure what from but prolly just stress related ol BUT I AM BOUNCIN BACK i cant stay down for too long!! AS YOU CAN ALL SEE I DELETED ALLLLLLLOT OF SHIT ON MY PAGE eveytime i looked at it i seemed fake and perfect well this is the real me plain and simple nothing to great nothing to bad just an average twenty year old tryin to make it buy with what she's got..
I dont like my job that much but i do it because i get paid alot
I may have a focus but it's clownin on your car
going to college to be a counselor
Need to loose weight i have no moticvation but i'll try to work something out
I love my nefew to death he alway's call;'s me mommmy but pretty much i am the one hear for him more than anyone els he remind's me so much of me
I fucking miss travis that put a huge damper on my life and effect's alot of my choiuces i make to this day r.i.p
I always have my nail's done no matter whene you see me i cant remember the last time i did not have them done lol

I like playing softball and am lookin into starting a team this year co ed so if you are interested please let me know!!!It's for parkland.. well tacoma recreation it's fifty five for the wholae season including a jersey and over ten game's!! it's a good way to start to get in shape MySpace Contact Tables

My Interests

i am open to doing anything.i dont put out.i love sports playing watching just everything i like getting to know new people i like beiing sober and watchin everyone els get fucked up.Im to grown up for kid games so cut the crap.and be real

pInK IpOd LoVe
cry over cut's and stitches Not over slut's && bitches ♥

Starbucks black tea♥

I'd like to meet:

KiNd of likin someone alot...
someone real someone that will be the same a few years down the road.someone who hug's me from behind and buy's me little thing's hear and there someone who will care foor me JUST as much as i do for them and most important someone who does not play kid game's im a straight forward kind of girl and like it how it is evn if it hurt's i would rather find out sooner than later you know?
kinda feelin some 1.

I often find myself looking at other people's profile's and wondering man there life is so perfect..but this is my whole speel...Just cuz u have a bangin myspace everyone's got feelin's and no one is perfect i know i never could be but i'll tell you what i am and this is real not fake myspace talk

Im the most faithfull girlfriend a man could ask for I never walk out on your problem's even if you seem to walk out on mine my heart is the biggest heart i have ever come in counter with I am willing to make someone happy for the rest of there life be true trusting devoted and as nice as i can i know that no relationship can stay perfect but i can do my gosh darn best to make it great Im sick of dating immature people i have grown up threw out these past few year's I feel like im maturing faster than i should be it almost scares me..But im ready to not settle down but be a great best friend too a guy that want's just as love back as he give's i learned from my MISTAKE i will never bend over backward's for a guy again but i will promise to stand tall and stick up for what i feeel.Right now may be the toughest part of my life. but im a stronger person at heart and mind so any guy out there that is interested in meeting an ok women that is faithfull honest loving caring and fun Than im your girl. I PROMISE i wont let you down.

dont give someone your everything because whene there gone you got nothin

I wanna meet as many people as i can ....but you dont need a ton of fake friend's you only need a few real one's.

I wanna baby one day in my life but not soon i need to find myseelf first

Im not askin you too like me im not even askin for you to care im just askin for you to respect me all that's fair is fair.

Music:

???music is life.&&???
???life is rythm????

SiNg
DaNcE
RaP
R&b
RoCkIn oUt
CoUnTrY
jAzZzZzZ
BaSs
Stereo's,amp's,&&SuB's
ClUb'S
Anything u can boogie2

Movies:

i like going to the movies i like will pharell and all movies really but i dont reALLY LIKE scarey ones.
aqua teen
all will pharell movies!
the notebook
the sandlot
CRIMSOIN TIDE
HoT RoD
napoleon dinomite
over the hedge
how high
half baked
friday movies
my girl
home alone 1,2
blank check
bench warmers
lost in space

Television:

nickalodeon
Family Guy
Simpson's
that 70's show
e.r.
c.s.i
SCRUB'S
M.T.V.

Books:

alice sebold the lovely bones.
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Heroes:

Travis i miss you so much i wish you could be here with us all today and your the only rockstar in heaven i love you and always will!!! {{{R.I.P}}} 8//18//86---1//12//06
Brianna I love you so much this past year has been so hard who ever new that me and you would go from scraped knees dirt jump's with our bikes to hateing boy's to thinking boys are the best thing's in the world aka tristen p. or jake m god i was in a rutt haha than i moved to splitting up for so long but still finding the time to be best friend's threw out my life everyone has looked down on me and walked out and sad to say your the only one that never let me down your my ear's my mind and you fill my heart with happyness not a day goes by i think of what life would be without you no matter how far we ever are or if something bad happen's and we can talk or see or walk or all that crap ill be right by your side behind and in front of you you showed me how to trust whene i never thought it was worth it you showed me how to fight and never give up even though i have only knpown you since third grade i feel like i have know'n you forever you are my sister maby not by blood but by heart i love you serious and real shit and i dont think i would be alive today if it were not for you everytime i get upset and wanna do something stupid the first thing that pop's in my head is you.please dont ever let me go i count on you look up to you and depend on you it may seem like alot but you are my angel sent from god dont ever let me go your not my bestie anymore your family
Mellisa words cant ever explain how much mean to me you are my rock!!Funny it all started out over a stupid boy(no name's)And now we have matured and become the best friend's anyone could ask for or in myspace lingo "bestie's" Lol... I have only knowns you for a few year's but you where one of my first real true friend's wene i moved down here ya i had friend's but none that will listen or someone that has my back no matter what the situation is your my ride or die chick i have never hurd one bad thing out of your mouth about me i know we will be friend's forever because we have been threw alot now think of how it will be in 20 years im glad you found a guy that treat's you like a princess..im lacking in that department but you make me feel pretty and let me know there is someone out there for me im just to good for everyone els..lol i have gotten alot of spunk from you and not to mention confidence sometimes you say your not strong but your one of the strongest people i have ever met and no matter what you always always always have a place in my heart and i will never fail to be here im just a phone call or drive away i love you like a fat kid loves cake
alley cat-I knwo we have all not had the best life because i can remember whene i would see you everyday that was a blessing to me i miss you you dont cpome around much anymore but do you remember playing glow in the dark cup throwing and smokin your first ciggaretts with matt vankooten or maby sooner whene we sometimes hung out and you did not mind wene we were young and really good friend's going to park's and playing hide and go seek outside do you remember wene you and ryan buffer use to make video's with joey malen and how you wou;d get in the cage and they would poke you with a stick and that one time we egg'ed cameron actopy's house and brought hella shit with us that made no sence...like oatmeal?and put it in his yard lol...I will never forgette our memories even wene we get old and gray remember you will always have me if everyone seem's to fail you remember me i could not ask for a better brother our memories will stayed burried in my heart forever i love you brother alway's follow your dreams
Carter maxwell pain my ancor and the reason i wake every morning if it was not for this boy right here i would have no reason to wake up i effin love you!!!

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When I get where I'm going On the far side of the sky The first thing that I'm gonna do Is spread my wings and flyI'm gonna land beside a lion And run my fingers through his mane Or I might find out what it's like To ride a drop of rainYeah when I get where I'm going There'll be only happy tears I will shed the sins and struggles I have carried all these years And I'll leave my heart wide openI will love and have no fear Yeah when I get where I'm going Don't cry for me down hereI'm gonna walk with my grand daddy And he'll match me step for step And I'll tell him how I missed him Every minute since he left Then I'll hug his neckYeah when I get where I'm going There'll be only happy tears I will shed the sins and struggles I have carried all these years And I'll leave my heart wide open I will love and have no fear Yeah when I get where I'm going Don't cry for me down hereSo much pain and so much darkness In this world we stumble through All these questions I can't answer So much work to doBut when I get where I'm going And I see my maker's face I'll stand forever in the light Of his amazing grace Yeah when I get where I'm going There'll be only happy tears Hallelujah I will love and have no fear When I get where I'm going Yeah when I get where I'm going

My Blog

depressed

What do you do whene your life fall's apart. Day by day your forced to start, Whene the pain is so high, all you do is sit there and cry, Feeling worthless and empty , With no one to guid me, I never...
Posted by fuck it on Mon, 03 Sep 2007 09:19:00 PST

no were nothing

There is no one..nothing,, nothing to see, i have no one, no place to be, no were to go, all i can do is flow, my life goes as low as low, fake as it all may seem, my life isnt a dream,...
Posted by fuck it on Sun, 24 Sep 2006 03:51:00 PST

struggle

captured in the moment, time as you knwo it is spent, left an indent , a scratch in time, makes the record skip, that just makes me trip, its just the way you feel, i gotta keep it real, i know...
Posted by fuck it on Sun, 24 Sep 2006 03:50:00 PST

let um know

Im down for the count,no matter the amount,im in dought, theres no way out,i cant seem to cry,as my self pitty just walks bye,you hold me and tell me sweet things,but i know what all this brings,tragi...
Posted by fuck it on Sun, 24 Sep 2006 03:47:00 PST

angels cry

angels cry most would say sorrow is worn on the sleeve, but take this and you best bieleve, even the angels cry, saddness is a way to get bye, this angel walks in the dark, strives not to mak...
Posted by fuck it on Sun, 24 Sep 2006 03:43:00 PST

blood and tears

my mind is crowded with desperate thought, I feel this war isnt ready to be faught, emotions leaving that label me distraught, my wrists can tell you what this has brought, with only the ground to ca...
Posted by fuck it on Tue, 16 May 2006 04:13:00 PST

i could never tell..

i cant take this anymore it was sencless,now im left defensless, you were my best but turned out my worst,and i never new pain could hurt, i pulled out the gun, this baggage weighs a ton, this is all...
Posted by fuck it on Fri, 18 Nov 2005 10:33:00 PST

Been a fool to long(-'....poeM.....'-)

she had found a will, a sertain thrill,it kills so soft, and left her so dead,her heart is weak, she cant even speak,let life be fake cuz her memories are reall. it started out as a cool born friendsh...
Posted by fuck it on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

cute quotes

You¡¯re through messing with me Brunette`s are *_pretty_* Redheads are (-smart-) But it takes a **BLONDE** To steal your heart <3 &n...
Posted by fuck it on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

==Broken Cryes==

As my life hits desperations ending, this is the love im sending, i send to you love of hate, this is no mistake your just to late, from the father who was never there, to the mother, all she could d...
Posted by fuck it on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST