Honor, Courage & Commitment
let's keep it 100...
i'm about to embark on a new journey in my life. i'm ready to start a new chapter in my life, a new career, a new me. tuesday morning, april 22nd, will be on a plane to chicago, illinois, & i won't be returning until the end of the year . as of march 2008, i'm no longer known as julie or juelz but DEP recruit TRAN. yessir'. i enlisted in the navy as a Hospital Corpsman; just as i graduated from MARIC COLLEGE as a PCAT student. i'm CERTIFIED to work as a nurse but i don't think as if that's enough for me & i want to make and do more out of my life. life is too short to just sit around thinking what you could of, should of, would of done. before you know it, your life could be over. sometimes, you have to make sacrifices to in life to get where you want to be. i'm very ambitious & i am currently trying to make my ambitions a reality. i don't let haters get to me cause they're not living my life, i am. i have to live with the consequences of the choices i make not them so yall could keep your two cents to yourself. i'm only 21 years old but i've through more shit then most people twice my age. i've grown so much in the past 5 years. i don't want to live my life with regrets so i try to learn from my mistakes so i don't make them again. family and friends are my backbone. they keep me straight, when i start to fall off track, they're there to get me back on. they believe in me & give me their support even if they're against it because they want what's best for me, what i want to do. without them, i wouldn't be where i am now. love..it's hard, who said it wasn't. when i'm feeling down and feel like nothings going my way, i just keep my head up and think "God has better things planned for me. All these obstacles he throws in my way, is just to prepare me for what's to come." I LOVE to LOVE to be LOVED. i tend to put other well being before myself but that's just how i am. i joined the navy for more doors and opportunities to arise for me but also for my family, my present family and my future family. i just want to know if anything were to ever happen, they would be okay because i worked to make sure i can provide what i can for my family. relationship wise, although i may not come off as the type, i am insecure, i tend to trust easily and get heartbroken in the end. past relationships have scarred me badly and i'm to the point where i'm trying not to let past loves hurt my future with someone else. slowly, but surely, i'm learning to let my wounds heal and move on. i'm not really the type to get jealous, cause if a guy wants to be with someone else, by all means, you can keep it moving. i ain't down for all that shit. i don't tend to get an itsy bitsy jealous, but only when i start to catch feelings. trust is earned, not given nor received. love for me has been hard & ended in pain & scars but this time around, i want a guy who is willing to want to put me before himself. i don't him expect him to but i want him to want to do it without me telling him. i just want someone on my level, been where i've been, going where i'm heading & willing to love me for who i am flaws & all...
sometimes we put up walls -- not to keep people out -- but to see who really cares enough to knock them down . the truth is we hide so we can be found; we walk away to see who will follow; we cry to see who will wipe away our tears; & we let our hearts get broken to see who will come & fix them .
laugh when you can, apoligize when you should
& let go of what you can't change
kiss slowly, play hard, forgive quickly
take chances, give everything, & have NO regrets -- my words to live by.
