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It begins with a thought, an infesting vision that I can’t scrape from my brain. Days, weeks, sometimes even months go by with this idea seizing my mind. When I finally feel like I’ve got it figured out I surrender. To quote Francis Bacon (one of my favorite painters), “It’s not like a drug; it is a particular state when everything happens very quickly, a mixture of consciousness and unconsciousness, of fear and pleasure; it’s a little like making love, the physical act of love.†When I look back past the empty packs, I really couldn’t tell you how or why it happened, it just felt right. After two years of painting I still have a lot to learn from myself and others. The more I create the more satisfied I am. I constantly get asked the question, “Why do you paint such dark images?†I guess its because I find raw, fierce emotion beautiful. It’s the one time we stop pretending and just are. I like shocking people and giving them a slight sense of that pure, unscripted emotion. I like the idea that I can stun, upset, even offend the viewer by not saying anything at all. For a split second I want the viewer to feel the fright, pain, sickness, love that my subjects of my paintings are feeling.--camberley morawa
