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About Me

So my life has recently been put inside a small blender-like object and set ... In a week, it will be set on fuckin-crazy-ass-destroy-mode. But hey it's what change is all about. I'm currently in attempt to live on campus here in the lovely Columbus Ohio. I work full time at two jobs that don't pay me because of financial issues, and I'd love it if everyone stopped telling me to leave those places, because I can't. They are too nice of people for me to leave now. So bug off. I have a girlfriend who is pretty much the greatest part of my life right now, although I do tend to make things worse without even trying(the whole foot-in-mouth idea). I enjoy reading and writing, listening to music, chilling and shooting the shit with people who seem to have their heads on straight. I am sick of how dilapidated our world has become with media and government and self-righteous affairs everywhere. I believe in God but do no believe in organized religion, or at least the current state of organized Christianity, where everyone is hypocritical and judgmental. I dunno, I tend to be a pretty laid back guy. I am very opinionated, and hold my values true to myself and tend to come off as a dick for them. But I am open minded about stuff and tend to enjoy bouncing ideas of life off of other people. My favorite poet is Charles Bukowski, and my writing I guess reflects that. I dunno what else to say. I feel alone in the world a lot because nothing seems to work out well, except for my relationship with most people, including the girl of my life. And at times those don't even work out...but that is life at times. Just having to look at the bad things that happen and weigh out whether or not the bad is enough to get rid of the good. I dunno. Well enough rambling on here, I'll stop writing before I go on much longer...

My Interests

I read, I write, I watch movies, I work, I bike, I videogame. In that order. Then I sleep.

I'd like to meet:

People I'd like to meet...well, gotta say God first off, then Tyler Durden, Dean Moriarty, Henry Miller, Charles Bukowski, and Jack Kerouac. Then...I don't know...someone like, to steal a line from Tropic of Cancer, "She's got to make me believe that I need her, that I can't live without her...I wouldn't care then what happened to me: I wouldn't need a job or friends or books or anything. If she could only make me believe that there was something more important on earth than myself."

Music:

I listen to a lot of bands, and some I don't like cause they're fake, but still have good music. Rise Against, Mindless Self Indulgence, Coheed and Cambria, Static-X, Dope, Johnny Cash, The Offspring, Modest Mouse, Fallout Boy, GreenDay, Dresden Dolls, Gorillaz, Sick of it All, Mad Caddies, Bloodhound Gang, Rehab, The Blood Brothers, Billy Talent, Stroke 9, Don McLean, City and Colour, Taking Back Sunday, Spineshank, System of a Down, Linkin Park, Giant Drag, Good Charlotte, Aphex Twin, Disturbed, My Chemical Romance, Flogging Molly, Stiff Little Fingers, and several others...

Movies:

Fight Club, Seven, Spun, Donnie Darko, Monty Python, LOTR trilogy, Pulp Fiction, Reservoir Dogs, Dumb and Dumber, Harold and Kumar, Star Wars, Saving Silverman, Memento...

Television:

Don't really watch much, only when nothing else to do, and whatever is on.

Books:

Catcher in the Rye by Salinger, On the Road by Kerouac (I think its how its spelled), and Tropic of Cancer by Miller. OH YEA and Bukowski's poetry

Heroes:

I guess in the sense of writing, i admire jack kerouac, henry miller, and charles bukowski, regardless of the fact that they were not the best of people...

My Blog

Car Ride

"Hey man, I'm sad." He told me"Yea man, we all are." I replied with a sigh.We both looked out the windshield.The cars drove by as the light changed.Our car sat there and didn't move.They honked their ...
Posted by Gonce on Thu, 23 Aug 2007 10:53:00 PST

Summer, 2007

Insanity is working 70+hours a week and still not making a dime.Having bills to pay while understanding is duebut never given.Being exhausted yet still awake at 2 in the morning.Needing to rest to cur...
Posted by Gonce on Thu, 23 Aug 2007 10:37:00 PST

Dog

Puppy dog bites the leash,pulls it, tears at it,fights it even though he knows he won't win.Struggle, struggle, till he's gone mad.Trapped inside what is considered bliss.Howl alone at night about his...
Posted by Gonce on Thu, 23 Aug 2007 10:12:00 PST

Steak n Shake

The worst, or possibly bestfeeling in the world is totalabsolute understanding ofhow alone you are when surroundedby friends.It makes the times you are trulyalone feel a little less painful....
Posted by Gonce on Thu, 23 Aug 2007 10:02:00 PST

Lonely Sunshine

All alone nowin the shadows grinningsurrounded by peoplebut still empty with lonelinesscraving something other than thisyet screaming in the lightas it burns through your ownhypocrisygo back and grin ...
Posted by Gonce on Thu, 23 Aug 2007 10:01:00 PST

Skyscrapers and Beehives

I dispise the people who claim we're killing nature.Humans are mammals, animals, are we not?And like the bird with it's nest, or the ants with their hills,our buildings are just constructs of natural ...
Posted by Gonce on Tue, 21 Aug 2007 03:12:00 PST

Rebels

Rebels today say they want to fightbut do nothing but digress.I watch the makeup plastered socio-phobicsas they waltz around in modern societyscreaming they are different and they will burn!when in re...
Posted by Gonce on Tue, 21 Aug 2007 03:07:00 PST

Fine

If you really want to piss people off,tell them you want to take care of yourself.Nothing upsets someone more thanknowing you no longer need to relyon them to be happy,regardless of circumstancesor me...
Posted by Gonce on Sat, 11 Aug 2007 12:10:00 PST

Potheads

I hate watching these peopletake everything they feel,all their angst and grief,loneliness and contempt,sense of pride orneed of rebellion,all their emotions and wrappingthem up tight in their joints,...
Posted by Gonce on Sat, 11 Aug 2007 12:01:00 PST

A simple thought...will title later...

It's funny how just laying in bedwith someone you love makeseverything seem to go away.Nothing matters, no more worries,no debt can ruin the moment, actions left undone no matter.The future melts away...
Posted by Gonce on Sat, 11 Aug 2007 11:57:00 PST