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I really don't want my about me to sound like everyone elses cause I'm very very different from everyone. I'm a young girl (17) who was forced to grow up quickly. I started college when I was 14 and was kicked out of my house just 2 months ago. I'm working my ass off trying to be successful which really truely is a lot harder than it seems.
For the most part I like to hide. I can be quite antisocial at times, but I have my reasons. Other times I'm very loud and outgoing which is usually around my friends. I love my music. Taking Back Sunday, My Chemical Romance, Saosin, Linkin Park, Smashing Pumpkins... Sometimes if you're surrounded by an ugly world, the only beauty and truth you get is through music, if that makes any sense. When I'm at home I fool around on my guitar, but I thought myself most of the stuff I know so I kinda suck a lot [no lie, lol]. I've recently become vegetarian because I learned about how animals are being treated and it breaks my heart. I'm also big into love and peace because I think this world has suffered enough. I honestly don't understand why people feel the need to ruin other peoples lives. People often say I think too much. My reply to that is that people don't think enough. The truth is I'm an easy person to hate because I am so different. I guess you could say I like to be both a rebel and a total fucking bad-ass at the same time, but I do it so people don't know that I am... if that makes any sense.
So some other things about me. I like to paint my nails black and dye my hair crazy colors. I will wear a $15 band tee shirt with pride and personalize my messanger bag with pins supporting bands, organizations, causes, or tasteittv (which I love). I have no favorite color, but I hate orange. I love thunderstorms and getting soaked by rain. I perfer black to white and night to day not because I'm emo or goth or anything, but just because I do. I'll wear sweatshirts if it's cold cause I don't care how cool you look in your mini skirt, I'd rather be warm and not get frostbite thank you very much. I buy CD's, not itune shit because I like physically having the album and it's art and lyrics. I bought a cellphone because I was sick of being stranded at school or work and not being able to call for a ride, not because having a cellphone is cool. I don't text because it's too fucking expensive thank you very much. I go to concerts and sing my heart out, even though I hate those fukcing fangirls who think the leasdsinger is hot and want to fuck him. I realize that the members of the bands I love are people and most of them are very intelligent and beautiful people. I'll listen to and love a band even if they're not a major label and not popular if I think they have awesome talent. I love when people do crazy things like girls getting mohawks and boys wearing eye liner to be a unique individual. I hate when people can't embrace that person for who they are and in the end classify them as 'different'. Well what the fuck is normal? If everyone had a mowhawk except for one person, would they be normal? The truth is there is no normal. Terms like 'normal' or 'cool' or even 'different' are total fucking bullshit. Parents hating their kids caus ethey listen to screaming rock and wear shirts with skulls are idiots. Preppy kids who make the unpopular kids feel like shit are losers. But I don't think people should try to be different, I think they should just be who they are and who they really want to be. Many say this, but not many understand it.
Oh yeah and I curse a lot when I get excited... fuck, shit, piss, cunt, bitch, motherfucker, ass, whore, douchebag... :)
If you send me a message or comment I will reply, I love to talk. :)
