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Matsu

I don't like talking about what interests me. All the things I like are either immoral, illegal, or

About Me


Most people just call me "Pare"
I like it because it feels like I'm everyone's friend.
I'm a very happy person
and will often be smiling or laughing for no reason
people think I'm crazy or on drugs,
but no...
I get drunk off halo-halo
and high off eggrolls.
Asia is my obsession,
and I hope to travel there one day,
because when do you hear about people traveling Asia.
It's is definitely not all about Europe people.
Especially I'd enjoy the Philippines.
Even though I do visit, and I'm from there,
I'd like to explore all of the beautiful country.
I'm a Filipino.
Pinoy Pride
I will dance at random times in the day whereever I am
and I don't care who sees me, they're lucky.
True dance comes from the heart.
One of my awesome dance outlets is being a Karilagangsta =P
I love my Karilagan family so much, More than Life.
I dabbled in belly dancing,
Finally got hand stomach coordination.
I do pop, recently stopped teaching though every once in a while i'll pick up and teach a few steps to my friends.
Would like to try something like crump or step.
I'm a giving person.
I hate accepting gifts or asking for things
because I'd rather give.
I love making people happy.
I'm very affectionate towards everyone.
I will touch you or lean on you,
get used to it.
I like to give hugs.
I give great massages
and love to give them.
I will fall asleep if you let me lean on your shoulder, or lay in your lap.
Please, let me. =)
I fall for people easily
especially for people who are bad for me
so be careful with my heart
because tape and glue doesn't hold it together very well
and the scars are still visible.
For some reason, if I like you
I will lick your nose.
I'm open-minded.
Not a lot of things will bother me
except balut...
that stuff just looks kind of nasty.
While on the subject of food,
I LOVE it,
and more, I love to cook for people.
I do it all the time, and it's very relaxing.
Even better is cooking with other people.
I can learn new things and also have fun with my friends.
Meditation relaxes me.
People might look at me weird when I do it,
but i don't care.
Time to clear my mind and resolve some issues in my life.
That's what it is to me,
not a time to impress people.
And no I don't float.
I can forget things easily
sometimes even within a few seconds.
I am a night person
which really sucks because I really can't *do* anything right now,
being 16 and all.
I'm stubborn,
but only on the things I feel strongly about.
Also persistent,
and will put other people's needs before my own health.
I believe you can say facts about faith,
but you can't say faith is a fact,
so people that preach as if what they say is true
and everyone else is wrong...piss me off.
I think people should live in the now,
the past is done with,
and the future can worry about itself.
I wear a mask sometimes
even though I say I have no secrets.
I don't lie
I'm just waiting for a right time to tell the truth.
I'd like to be famous one day
but have no clue what I'd like to be famous for.
Contradictory because I hate being known for one detail
and I hate being labeled,
I am an individual
I am Mateo

My Interests


Writing, i love to write songs, poems, short stories, one day i'm going to try to get my stuff published along with my journal because that would just be so awesome. Basically I love anything artistic, I love painting, and drawing though i seriously suck. It's still fun though. I love going to art exhibits and museums and see all the amazing work of other artists.

I love dancing and just being on stage. It's a rush even if you're not the one performing and just behind curtain, and the feeling you get after a good show is the best in the world.

"The audience doesn't expect much, that's why I expect a lot. If we give them more than they expected, then they'll remember us."
-Aleth Mijares

I love to sing, though I can say it's nothing better than kareoke singing. Even that's still fun. Nothing's better than singing with your friends. The two best friends to sing with for me have to be the H2O crew, Nani and Tori. We just...harmonize.

Karilaganstas Tinikling

Really cool modern tinikling

More lovely quotes:
"If I don't have rice at least once a day, my life is incomplete"
-Susan Cortez

"Mourn because the losses are many, but smile because the victories are few."
-Deb Novotny

"Some rules need to be broken, the rest need to be shattered."
-Carlo Villania

"If you just grasp a handful of sand, it will only slip through your fingers. You need to sprinkle water on the sand to make mud, which can then become cement and be made into a building."
-Jeong Ji Hoon

"If you find yourself analyzing people's words down to checking 'the' for a positive connotation with respect to you, you have a problem."
-Anonymous

I'd like to meet:

I want someone who isn't a bad person for me. Only the lord knows how many I've gone through. I want someone who isn't so many years older than me that people stare but not anyone young or inexperienced enough that people wouldn't *just* stare. I want someone who will wake me up at 2am just to say goodnight because they forgot to 3 hours earlier. I want someone who I can take for a picnic on a beach, who remembers my birthday because I often forget, who would go to me when they want to, not just when boyfriends break hearts. I want someone who I can take photobooth pictures with, who will hold my hand in public, and who likes to give or recieve carnations. I want a person I can fall asleep with, who won't call me perfect, but rather love me for my flaws. I want more than a one night stand. I want a sweet, caring individual, who might go crazy once in a while, but will only go crazy with me.

Music:

My Playlist consists mainly of... *CUESHE*, 6cyclemind, Acceptance/now Search Rescue, Andain, Arctic Monkeys, Ari gold, ATB, Ayumi Hamasaki, Backstreet Boys, Bamboo, *Bi (Rain)*, Black Eyed Peas, BoA, Boys Like Girls, *Boyzone*, Burnside Project, Callalily, Cascada, Celine Dion, *Christian Bautista*, Clazziquai Project, Creed, Daft Punk, Disney, DJ Tiesto, Dragonette, Enrique Iglesias, Eraserheads, Evanescence, Expose, F4, Fall Out Boy, *Freestyle*, Gackt, Gary Valenciano, Goo Goo Dolls, Good Charlotte, Bad Luck, Nipple Twister, Groove Coverage, *Hale*, Hillary Duff, Imago, Imogen Heap, Itchyworms, J. Roman, *Jacob*, Jamie O'Neal, Jessica Simpson, Join the Club, Josh Santana, *Kamikazee*, *Kaskade*, Kelly Clarkson, Kung Fu Girls, Kylie Minogue, Kyo, Leanne Rhimes, Lindsay Lohan, Linkin Park, Low Fidelity All Stars, Lunatic Calm, Madonna, Mae, Mariah Carey, Maroon 5, Mika, Miyavi, Monrose, Morningwood, Motel, Muse, M.Y.M.P., natasha Bedingfield, Ne-yo, Orange and Lemons, Orange Range, Parokya ni Edgar, Paul Oakenfold, Phantom Planet, Pink, Piolo Pascual, Punk Ska Covers, P.C.D., QAF, *Reik*, Ringside, *Rivermaya*, Robin Thicke, Safri Duo, Sam Milby, Se7en, *September*, Sexbomb girls, Shakira, Shamrock, Sheryn Regis, Shiny Toy Guns, Sick Puppies, Simple Plan, *Skillet*, Snow Patrol, Soapdish, Sonic Youth, Sonique, Spice Girls, Spoken, *Spongecola*, SS501, Sugababes, Sugarcult, Sugarfree, Sylver, Tatu, The All American Rejects, The Dawn, The Faint, The Feeling, The Format, The Pillows, The Speaks, The Veronicas, T.M. Revolution, Thousand Foot Crutch, Utada Hikaru, Vhong Navarro, Vinylshakerz, Vitamin C, Westlife, Wilie Revillame and *Within Temptation* to name a few but i enjoy a lot of music and i'm always ready to listen to a song someone gives me, those are the best :D unless it's like some crap that's way too depressing, like i wanna be depressed?

Music is my life. I can't play an instrument or anything (well) to be able to say that to say the truth. But seriously, without music i would die. The emotion trapped within those words sets me free. to me music isn't any good if it's not blasting loud and you can hear every angry note, feel the energy in the rhythms. Music is alive, and really there is nothing to describe it because no matter what it's in everyone's lives. When the music stops is the saddest time i could ever imagine feeling, sometimes i even cry at the end of a song because it moves me that much to hear and experience the emotion. I'm the only person i know that actually gets a high off music. Just hearing a song will send a chill through my body being overcome with pleasure caused by each note. The lyrics tell my story and the beat holds my feeling. Music makes me know that i am alive.
sometimes i listen to korean and japanese music, i don't usually look up translations to the songs because if it's good music, you should just be able to feel the emotion, and sometimes...it's better not to know the true intentions of your words...

Movies:

Disney Movie dork. Mulan = awesome. Transformers was a good movie, the best i've seen in a couple years. I love Suspense movies, not so much gore..Also i love foreign films. I'll watch dick flicks [opp of chick flicks, explosions, car chases etc.] every once in a while, chick flicks will make me cry and will only watch them when 'm in the mood. I'm one of the few people that did not enjoy Napoleon Dynamite and I still can't get through Talladega Nights without leaving. Those kinds of movies just really aren't in my taste.

Television:

Bridezillas has officially become my new favorite show because of all the bitchiness; I love the-n: degrassi and south of nowhere; Comedy Central: Mind of Mencia, MadTV, and South Park; Adult Swim, Family guy and Futurama; Logo: movies, music, short films, series, and news pretty much everything; National Geographic shows from time to time; I love and *eat* the Food Network; Science Channel (yes i'm a dork): they have this one show called "how it's made" and i find it interesting; Discovery Medicine. enough said; Asian Dramas: Meteor Garden, Mars, and Full House (Korea)

Will and Grace

Noah's Arc

Degrassi: TNG

Books:

I really have stopped reading and should start again. One book i always carry with me is my Tagalog Dictionary. I like DNAngel Manga, Grav Manga, MARS manga. Carol Plum-ucci is a good author, i enjoyed the body of christopher creed, the she, and what happened to lani garver. i like to read philisophy, call me weird. i enjoy freud. the giver was a good book i recommend it along with gathering blue. farenheight 451 i recommend. catcher in the rye sucked ass. yeah i just went through a few books on my shelf...

Heroes:


Ashite ru, Mahal kita, Te amo, I love you
i have to face the facts
i am addicted to my friends
and why shouldn't i be?
they're just awesome and always there for me
but i won't be a bitch like some people
and go on about how they are so much better than yours
because they're awesome to ME
and that's all that matters =)
Marivic
One of the best neices i could ask for. She'll make me laugh when life is far from funny. I'm sad that we have to stay so far apart on different sides of the world, of course i'm sad that any of my family or friends has to be far from me. But i hope one day i can not have to say goodbye and always be able to see that smiling face.
Morgan
Morgan...aahhh, Morgan. One of the nicest most random people you will ever meet. She is a very smart person and super fun to talk to. Has a bit of an obsession with Asians but who can blame her. I love having conversations with her because she will pull out the randomest information on whatever subject and it never ceases to amaze me. To the people that think she is weird, FUCK YOU! She‘s effin awesome and one of my best friends. She‘s not afraid to be herself or let out her sexy side.
Carmen
Self proclaimed sister, crazy, ticklish, gets drunk off apple juice. Never forget the random things she does, or all the times she helped me when i needed it most, and made the tears stop falling. poked me till i died. I love this girl so much.
Rozzy
Rozzy is wonderfulamazingfunnylovablesexy. I could go on for days, weeks, forever! I really don't see much of her being two grades apart, and I wish I had more time to talk to her but lovelovelove the time we have. Very interesting conversations we can have…very interesting haha. Riding with her and her brother to practice or to office max is great, so fun. Always gotta sing. I swear I'm gonna miss her so much this year because she's in college.
Chesca
Koala is like the best guitarist I know. Even though I'm older than her, and we're not related i still like to call her Ate. She's just that awesome. She's great, Filipina, Jesus freak, my koala sibling, and can make simple Japanese greetings sound dramatic. Love her because she's the only one who will talk to me in Tagalog though I can't respond. I'm so grateful to know Chesuka.
Jezza
My first ever adopted freshman. Awesome filipina. Great guitarist. She's a very shy person but that's okay she'll say what she means in few words and get the message across. Very random and quite funny. You can't stop the fun when we get together haha. Love Jezza and couldn't ask for a better Ading.
"Aoi Mizu" Melanie
Melanie is one of my best friends, Dance buddies; She is my Twin, and partner in crime. Melanie is uber sweet and a great singer. She is hard to open up at first because she's very shy but once she starts talking she can go on for hours if she feels like it. I love her laughing disorder, because it's so contagious. She will laugh at anything and then i start for no reason. Melanie is seriously the best, because she can put up with me and my annoying-ness and Michael and Mickey and Melissa and everyone. She's the sweetest person i've ever met, and she is so innocent it's not even funny but i love her. I love to sing with her, because her voice is uber awesome. Even though her once loved dream of a singer is no longer her desire, she's famous for me, and I'm her number one fan.Even when we're old and decrepit, i hope that we'll always find some time to do some kareoke together.
Tori
Tori is the best. i think she was one of the first people i could actually talk to without holding back because she could understand what i was going through and i love her for that. she's sweet, funny, short (*and damn proud*) and one of the most awesome people i know. Childlike that she’s so curious of the world and yet mature enough that she’s one of the few people I can have serious talks with. i can always count on tori to poke me till i smile and always to have the best koreans, stolen of course. i really hope we can do all the things we talk about, H2O's first album, becoming J-roomies, because that would be so awesome-o.
Steve
Steve...is the coolest. Future culinary artist, the next Emiril. BAM! I knew him in second grade and he is one of my closest friends Our little inner circle. I can’t ever find a dull moment with Steve because we can talk about everything. I mean seriously even ceiling fans we can make interesting. Steve has just always been there for me to tell me the truth, not sugar coat it like anyone else. That’s what I admire about him and I’m so glad that he’s my friend. I wouldn't have it any other way.
Ate Anah
Although we're far apart, me in the US and my cousin in the P.I., we still try as much as we can through all our busy lives to keep in touch. i miss her, her smile, her laugh, her jokes, playing tong eat and sitting on the window sill listening to the rain pour down through the night, singing Ulan in Charisse's room with the peeling wallpaper. i miss dancing to "my humps" with her. Everything she does just makes me happy. when i went to the P.I. we were always together, you could never separate us. among all my cousins, she was the one i was closest to. i hope one day i can bring her over here though. Her and everyone else
Carlo
Kuya, i'd call him a free spirit, and a dork. This guy really is awesome. He taught me to let go, and made me learn that sometimes you have to bend a few rules to have fun. His personality has a sort of gravity to it and you're just drawn to him. I'm grateful to have met this boy, My life changed a lot since i have.
Krista
Krista is amazing. She is the first friend i ever made at Health Careers and stood by me through all the drama. She is the sunshine in my life because even though i know it's not true, she is the *only* one who's ever made me feel like i was perfect like i could do the stupidest things and she'd still love me. I'll always remember the weirdest questions she would ask "big as the room" and "if i were a food" because they're just unique to her, and also salsa dancing at lunch. she's one of a kind and i'm glad to know her.
My Son Rudan
Rudan, ah Rudan. what would have done had he not adopted me as his father?? Our family tree is so messed up you would not even know. He is a great c-walker, and one crazy filipino. he has a big heart and a gangsta spirit, a sense of humor that never stops along with his feet because he never ceases to dance even in random public places where he videos it. Be nice to him, or i'll mess you up. no one messes with my son.
Jeremy
I would say Kuya Jem has all the qualities of a good friend. Thoughtful, Caring, Funny. Distracting haha. He's a great listener and will make you smile when you're down. In more ways than one i probably would be lost without him. When he talks to you, you might be a little confused, 20 miles off the original topic, but it's unique to him and only makes him more lovable. "Like a teddy bear,...with pierced nipples."
Manveer
Manveer is...One of a kind, sweet, random, the greatest person you'll ever meet if you get the chance. she's not afraid to talk to crazy ladies on the bus who point weird people out, and she can make everything, i mean EVERYTHING interesting with butterflies or jazz or earthquakes or scandals or whatever! with a song and news of all kinds, Manveer always brightens up my day everyday that i see her and i'm so thankful [to whoever runs this world] for meeting her.
Caleb
Caleb, always there to listen, a good friend, excludikah, random as f***. One of my best friends my freshman year, even if our views have changed and even now we don't talk as much, i still think of him as one of my close friends. I'm glad to have met this boy, without him, my high school days would probably not be as crazy.
Kels
wow...kels is...indescribable. I love her so much it's not even funny. She may be the only one who has seen me at my worst. She knows me in depth. My thoughts, beliefs, feelings. I would never have gotten through freshman year had it not been for her. She makes the depression bearable, and gave me laughter when I needed it the most. I love her forever because she is my Kelsey. If anyone messes with her, breaks her heart, makes her sad, I will make them pay. I would kill for this girl, seriously.
Melmel
Melmel is the greatest person in the world i've known her practically all my life [11 years baby!]. She is the peanut to my butter, the hair to my spray, the the fan to my Carl Lagerfeld [haha]. I can talk to her about anything, and even if we fight or disagree i know that we'll always be joking around the next day because being best friends for so long, you can't stay mad for petty things. I hope I know her for all my life and we can live next to each other when we get old and still be the best friends we are now. Melmel just makes me smile and she doesn't even realize it. She doesn't even have to be talking to me to do it. When I think of her, I remember all the good times we've had and I'm just happy, my life turns around. I'm able to talk to her about anything and we can go on for hours late at night in deep conversation questioning the very fabric of reality. She knows more about me than anyone, my adopted sister and the only thing in life I really hold to be true. When I say this it every word is even more true than the last, I love Melmel.
Matsu‘s Details
Relationship Status: Hopelessly Crushing
Give or Receive: Versatile
Personality Type: Dress Preppy, Nerdy, Badboy, Party Animal, Gullible
Here For: Friends, Networking, Party
Body Type: 5' 5", Fine as Hell
Hometown: Lipa City, Batangas
Race: Filipino
Religion: Deciding
Smoke / Drink: No / Yes
Sign: Taurus
Children: 1 Son
Education: High School
Occupation: Pharmacy Tech, Dancer, Student, Stripper
Income: Less than $30,000
Matsu's Schools
Health Careers H S
San Antonio, TX
Graduated: 2009
Student status: Alumni
Degree: High School Diploma
Major: Pharmacology
Clubs: Hosa, Dance Revolution
2005 to 2009
Where Matsu has worked
Broadway and Hildebrand
San Antonio, TX US
2005 - present
Yamashita and Chiba Co.
Seoul, KR
Instructor
Section 2: B & B
2005 - 2007
Karilagan Filipino Dance Inc.
San Antonio, TX US
Rookie/Dancer
2006 - present

My Blog

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Though the illusions of yesterday proven false today the feeling stays though somewhat dismayed hope is never lost Love You....
Posted by Matsu on Sun, 23 Sep 2007 11:30:00 PST

I realize that...

Many people don't actually go through and read my profile, but I do have a few people who read my blog So I just wanted to put this up here, for maybe potential lovers, or people passing by. [It'...
Posted by Matsu on Tue, 11 Sep 2007 09:45:00 PST

There's something about....

San Antonio that makes me want to just move out of here. probably the fact that everywhere i go, i'm reminded of another bad memory. Or a memory i'd like to forget...i probably would have liked it bet...
Posted by Matsu on Sun, 01 Jul 2007 08:55:00 PST

why should people subscribe to my blog?

+ it's fun+ it's exciting+ it's about me/my life+ i often post random fun facts, quizzes, poems+ thought provoking+ addictive+ you can say you read my early works+ often features other people or ...
Posted by Matsu on Thu, 07 Jun 2007 07:12:00 PST

you know what's hot?

when people talk to me in another language. =)i just think it's very sexy and i kind of turn to jell-o when they do it. well it can't be like a rough language like german, i remember i asked my dad ho...
Posted by Matsu on Thu, 07 Jun 2007 08:39:00 PST

If you're bored...try these! (from manveer)

Ice-skating Mini-golf Jogging in the neighborhood Bowling Hide and Seek Learn to surf Go to Disneyland Have a sleepover Earn some cash Karaoke with people Watch a movie Bonfires Swim in the swimming ...
Posted by Matsu on Wed, 06 Jun 2007 04:46:00 PST

A.O.

Is it bad to say that i will for sure date to an asian if any ever showed interest, but other people have to work for my attention. it's not my fault, Asian Obsession has got the better of me. It's no...
Posted by Matsu on Wed, 30 May 2007 12:32:00 PST

Color is a good thing

more asians ...
Posted by Matsu on Wed, 23 May 2007 04:21:00 PST

who i really love...

actually i do have a list on one of my blogs of all my crushes, i dunno if it's that current though. i think i updated it a while ago, not many of the names have changed. maybe one was dropped and tha...
Posted by Matsu on Tue, 22 May 2007 10:38:00 PST

Sinulog =P

so awesome Karilagan won 1st place 2nd year in a row =). also best costume and best interpretation. yeah i wasn't there when they won the first time but i'm glad i was this time i had a lot of fu...
Posted by Matsu on Mon, 21 May 2007 07:33:00 PST