[Carrie]

Dating your best friend is like living in an amusmement park & Eating desert for breakfast.Who says I cant act like I'm five...it's called a personality...get one. I know my age, I dont need to be reminded..I just happen to live life to the fullest.There is an idea of a Caretha Jean some kind of abstraction. But there is no real me: only an entity, something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comprable... I simply am not there.
My name is Carrie AKA Caretha Jean...I'm 29 years old...I'm adopted (I was 2) I have a gigantor family...Really I DO!!! 11 siblings...6 deceased....19 nieces and nephews 5 greats. My MOM is a blood sucking whore monster who is the spawn of satan NUFF SAID......I was born in NORTHERN Cali...lived in Oregon for about 7 years, moved to San Fran and then this shit hole. I resided in the OC for all of 3 years GO ME!! I was born with a hole in my heart....I have an artifical valve bi-passing two major arteries.....they called me the "Miracle Baby"....don’t ask me about it cause I will just pretend I don’t know anything...its called DENIAL...I suffered...YES SUFFERED a heart attack at 21....but survived....well I guess I survived I was dead for a little over 5 minutes....I’m over it (apparently I didn’t torture enough souls...so I'm back to finish what I started)So as if the old crappy childhood and heart attack weren’t enough I went and got diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure at 24, 2 weeks before x-mas....I'll be dead by 35...WHATEVER try to fucking bring me down I dare you....I'll kill every last doctor on earth.
just fix me first then I'll kill you.OK so now were current...I live in Anaheim about 3 blocks from Disneyland in a quant little abode surrounded by crooks and drug dealers, I fear for my life on a daily basis...I live with the absolute epitome of fun, sunshine & smiles..Jon Gruber...he is my world....I drive a pimp ride or atleast think I do...I'm obsessed with chapstick...I talk to my cat as if she cares about my shitty day...I decided recently I'm never getting married or having ANY children get over it...I love punk rock, hardcore and Johnny Cash and a bunch of other music that makes she shake my ass...I’m WAY into horror movies and Silent films...Jon and I are obsessed with watching CSI...I love to dance and speak in random accents...I ♥ to cook for EVERY holiday, I spend way too much money and time on people cause it makes me SUPER HAPPY....I love taking massive amounts of pictures and I could give hugs for days...I'm FUN, spunky and OH SO full of life...I’m pretty much the most LOYAL, Understanding, HONEST & REAL person you will meet. I love everyone and even get along with people that NO ONE else does...CAUSE IM COOL LIKE THAT and find sparkle and shine in ALL PEOPLE. My friends mean more to me than chocolate and Sushi...if you now me, THATs A LOT!!! They fill my heart with joy and make me laugh so hard I piss myself daily...without them I am nothing and with them I am everything. NO BIG DEAL!!!