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emily

Though this be madness, yet there is method in it.

About Me

call me Em. I'm quiet in person, until I feel comfortable. a lot of my inspiration comes from music, but I have no musical ability whatsoever. I'm usually a very nice person. I'm a writer. I am Intersexed. I'm horrible at confrontation. I sometimes have trouble letting things go. I am not defined by who I fuck, don't label me. I don't fuck indiscriminately and I don't do men, even if they want to bring their girl along. I see things from both sides. my gender identity is fluid. I sometimes have no idea what's going on in my head. don't ask me what I'm thinking, I'll never be able to give you a straight answer. I'm crazy, don't fuck with me. get too close and I'll probably push you away, but it's not you, it's me. I am not a real girl. when I fall, I fall hard. I hate silence. I love music. I am passive aggressive to the point of apathy. I love being alone, but hate feeling lonely. I love to go out and have fun, but give me a good movie and someone to snuggle with and I'm more than happy to stay at home and cuddle on the couch. I don't understand girls and I don't think I ever will. I cried at St. Elmo's Fire. my life is full of sharp, bitter, and complex moments. sometimes, yeah, I just need a good fuck. I like playing drinking games. straight girls are forever telling me I have perfect skin. I like parties. I have non-sexual crushes on boys. I have sexual crushes on girls. I hate drama and I'll tell you what's what rather than deal with stupid, unimportant bullshit. I'm very blunt and that's gotten me in trouble more than a few times. I am jaded by past relationships. I work in retail.
talk to me.
[AIM] - pheonixenvy

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

all I want is someone I can't resist...

cuddle/snuggle whores.

a girl who knows what she wants and isn't afraid to take it.

and really random people that do really random things.

My Blog

fuck off

I really wish people could get over themselves and stop trying to fuck with a good thing. it puts me in a really bad mood.  
Posted by emily on Wed, 24 Oct 2007 11:46:00 PST

this is what I call a life?

I'm pretty much 5 seconds away from walking out on my job. the only thing keeping me from doing it is the fact that I can't go any length of time without income, my life would fall apart very rapidly....
Posted by emily on Thu, 27 Sep 2007 09:06:00 PST

and yet...

so I slammed my face into the pavement in the middle of campus, trying to take a turn on my shitty bike that locked up on me and became totally useless. I busted my lip. had to take the day off work....
Posted by emily on Fri, 07 Sep 2007 09:48:00 PST

I’m sick

of being shy. I'm tired of hearing, from EVERY girl I try to get close to, that I'm too slow to open up. but I don't really know what to do about it. this is just me. I have a weird problem with ...
Posted by emily on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 09:08:00 PST

breathe

this month so far has been intense. emotionally, physically, financially, everything has been pretty crazy. but it's starting to calm down, the bad stuff anyway. the good things are just beginning, a...
Posted by emily on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 11:27:00 PST

the end

after a year and a half, I'm single again. it always comes back to this. it's hard, and parts of it suck beyond the telling of it, but it's what I need.     the end....
Posted by emily on Sun, 29 Jul 2007 09:21:00 PST

I would love it...

if just once, something, anything, would work out in my favor. I'm tired of life being so hard all the time. pity party. I'm not happy. in any way, shape or form...and I have no idea how to get there...
Posted by emily on Tue, 24 Jul 2007 08:15:00 PST

could I please...

..get a fucking real job where I don't have to randomly clean up explosive diarrhea in the bathroom? please. I hate retail/food service, with a passion that can only come from being stuck there for g...
Posted by emily on Sun, 22 Jul 2007 08:18:00 PST

today...

I have to work from 4 to midnight, which is possibly the worst shift other than 3rd. it's putting me in a bad mood. my mood has been really weird lately anyway. dealing with multiple people's emotions...
Posted by emily on Thu, 28 Jun 2007 12:32:00 PST

run away with me...

...to a land where everyone speaks their mind and no one takes it too personally, where everyone is free to do as they wish and jealousy doesn't exist. anyone? I'm offering a drama free paradise here...
Posted by emily on Sat, 23 Jun 2007 09:07:00 PST