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Pain Redefined.

I Have Loved In Life, Therefore I Will Have No Sorrow In Death

About Me

How did I get into the world? Why was I not asked about it, why was I not informed of the rules and regulations but just thrust into the ranks as if I had been bought by a peddling shanghaier of human beings? How did I get involved in this big enterprise called actuality? Why should I be involved? Isn't it a matter of choice? And if I am compelled to be involved, where is the manager—I have something to say about this. Is there no manager? To whom shall I make my complaint? "Søren Aabye Kierkegaard" Existance precedes Essence. Time. It never stops. It is the most basic constant in the universe. It has always been and always be. For most people, there is never enough. For some, there is too much. For me, all I have is time. Time is my constant. It is my life, my tormentor, my master. I have much and not enough time. Time is everything. I have an affinity for vampires and the vampiric traits that follow. Vampires are not blood sucking feinds that prey on the weak but sexual creatures. Though the ways of them are not always considered to be normal (biting and blood) the basic vampiric tendencies are sexually oriented. Vampires are good at the art of seduction and pleasure. Knowing what their partners deepest and darkest fantasies and bringing them into fruition. This is a fascinating subject and an art form. Truly having vampiric characteristics is a natural ability and can seldom be "learned". However, it can be taught to a certain degree. Vampires in this case are real. The "blood sucking creature of the night" is a myth but the rest is real. If you want to learn more then ask me and I shall be more than happy to share. On a more personal note, if you live near me and wish for a more "personal" demonstration I will be more than happy to show you. ^^ I am an open book for all to read, however, some chapters are only for those who I deem worthy to read. My deepest, darkest feelings, thoughts, and secrets are not for the faint of heart. Much of my life is dark. Even still, there are things no one knows about me. Unfortunately, I have not yet found anyone I can or will tell everything to. If I don't want you to know something, trust me, you won't. I carry a great burden of memory. I know more than I let on, much more. There is, however, one thing I will always share freely, my opinion. I enjoy good company. I like things that many guys would laugh at me for. I am a sensitive person even if i dont seem it. I like girls to suprise me sometimes (I dont care how). I am insane, deep, thoughtful, kind, and quick to tear out your throat. Well lets see..... 1st of all im a Juggalo! bitches!!!! i love video games(especially Final Fantasy games) my biggest hobby is Medievil reanactment. That means that i sword fight with real swords( im really good) and we fight with axes, maces, polearms, and pretty much everything else. This kinda stuff hurts but its well worth it. I my self am a pretty laid back guy,not many things get me freaked out or scared. If you have a problem, im the guy u can come to and i will try and fix it for you( i can keep secerets very well). I also enjoy rollerblading, long walks along a beach???(maybe) :) I love to walk through woods in winter because of the dead trees accompanied with the snow falling at night with a pale moon in the sky. I will not back down if i am right, and i have no problem with disagreeing with you. many people confuse this with being an asshole but i dont care its just who i am. i may not act it, but i am a very intellectual person and in desperate search of someone who i can carry on an intelligent conversation with. i have typed this at 4 am my time so if there are any mistakes in this that u want me to correct U CAN ALL KISS MY ASS!!! j/k send me an email and i will make the corrections. if you read this i will be happy and to let me know that some people actually know how to read send me an email after reading this. i also love horror movies. the scarier and gorier the better. thank you. MyGen Profile Generator

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Music:

Christian Turner, Journey, My Chemical Romance, Linkin Park, Green Day, Switchfoot, Incubus, Disturbed, Marylin Manson,Slipknot, A.F.I., Three Days Grace, ICP, Twisted, Atomic Kitten, Godsmack, Tech 9, Nightwish

Movies:

All the Alien movies, All the Nightmare on Elm Street movies, All the Friday the 13th movies, and any other horror/ actoin movies. Pitch Black, Interview With A Vampire, Queen of the Damned

Books:

The Vampire Chronicles, Necroscope, The Game

My Blog

For Everyone Who Has Loved And Lost

I sit here, anger and hurt fills my heart. Anger at myself for not being stronger for you like I should have been. Hurt by the way things turned out. I bury my pain in a shallow grave. I can't get...
Posted by Pain Redefined. on Thu, 14 Jun 2007 10:37:00 PST

My story.

As she sat there alone in the dark tower staring out the window at the dark world beyond, she remembered being free. Her cold, stoney proson tormenting her wild restless soul. She had been locked aw...
Posted by Pain Redefined. on Mon, 04 Jun 2007 05:41:00 PST

Escape

I stand here looking, searching, begging for an escape from my thoughts. They haunt me. They are all around me. I can SEE my thoughts taking form, like movies playing in from of me. They are of us...
Posted by Pain Redefined. on Tue, 29 May 2007 05:24:00 PST

Hollow on the inside.

As I sit here, staring at the bottom of a bottle, I think about why I am seeing what I am. This is all your fault. I never asked to be put in this position. I never wanted to be here. I wanted to ...
Posted by Pain Redefined. on Thu, 03 May 2007 02:28:00 PST

Shadows are security and Light is painful

As I stand on the edge of of this cliff, I stare into the chasm below. The moon is high and not a cloud in sight. The gaping hole in the earh is mysterious and beautiful. I am on the verge of a bre...
Posted by Pain Redefined. on Sat, 21 Apr 2007 05:20:00 PST

My Gift My Curse

These are my gifts and and my curses. I am typing this not to talk my self up but to help people understand me a bit more. My gifts are my ability to listen, give advice, and picking up those that h...
Posted by Pain Redefined. on Tue, 27 Mar 2007 01:47:00 PST

Memories, Past, Future, Scars

We as people tend to dwell in the past. Wether it be good or bad, we remember the past and stay in it. These memories are safe. We have already lived them. We know them, how they turn out, how it...
Posted by Pain Redefined. on Mon, 05 Mar 2007 06:55:00 PST

Girlfriend Application. Fill It Out or Else Suffer A Roundhouse Kick To The Head.

1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Fave Color: 4. Eye/Hair colour: HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ... 1. Are we friends? 2. Do you have a crush on me? 3. Would you kiss me? 4. ...with tongue? 5. Would you enjoy it?...
Posted by Pain Redefined. on Tue, 13 Feb 2007 09:54:00 PST

Feelings

As I sit here, I am confronted by all these feelings. Feelings of love, hate, joy, sorrow, life, and death. The bad ones I know well. The good ones I have not felt in along time. I sit here and tr...
Posted by Pain Redefined. on Sun, 14 Jan 2007 07:50:00 PST

I Know Why I'm Here

Why are we here? This question has plagued everyone throught the centuries. What is out purpose in life? Is there a point to out lives? Well, I know my answer. Yes, there is a purpose. In my yea...
Posted by Pain Redefined. on Sun, 14 Jan 2007 07:31:00 PST