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The theory of movement. Tijuana, Mexico. December, 2007. Everything is so easy that does not move. Any how easy it is static, therefore does not require a change and changes require much. Everything moves, at least all living things move, because at the moment it stops, dies. My whole life I have been on the move, and I am not used to it. Something that costs me more than to live is that, movement. Because when something moves, it changes. I just found that I'm fried then, because what frightens me, it's life and that is to have an empty body. It's to live without deserving it. I have had many big changes in my life, and they have always been costly. Especially for those I have left behind. But after so many changes I understood why it is so hard. Eventhough I felt that I should have become accustomed. Now I know why, because change is motion and I am afraid of change. Change or motion implies going from a safe place to an unsafe one; what is known to the unknown, what is stable in the unstable; from total control to the lack of it; to what at first is structured to the messy; what is encrypted, to chaos. And that's life, movement, chaos. And in the artist's life consciousness is meaningful. The artist can not be passive, the artist can not be without movement, because then the artist does not live and then is not an artist, is just an unemployed artist. The artist only finds real meaning in their lives and her environment in the extreme circumstances in life. I do not mean by “Extreme circumstances” to the times that take you to the brink of death. I refer to all those moments that threaten your stability, you control, your domain, your understanding. When you find change and then you realize the truth, that you have nothing to hold on to in life. Because at the end it does not even matter, It has no meaning because the truth is that everything is unstable. It is then, when one starts to live. Welcome to the world! You have born again. Now that you understand life and this is supposed to come. You have evolved and discovered mobility. That means you've discovered how life works, what life is all about. When you discover the movement, you learn to seize the moment and the opportunities, because your senses are open to change. You are ready to live, to go in harmony with the natural change with which all living things survive and advance. Now, I understand the movement. I thought, I was passive and therefore happy, because I felt calm. And in reality it was not peace, was the security of being in what I understood. Today I met the movement and I forget what I thought I was. What we thought before knowing the movement, I forgot it. When one discovers that everything is unstable and then begins to live, is not by something else that because you discover yourself flowing with life, enjoying it. Discovering the movement you know suddenly shared and not selfish, because everything changes. What's happening at the moment will not last more than this time let alone forever. This is the theory of movement, he who does not understand it, he has not learn to live.