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-Just a lil' somethin' about me.-- --Letting go of the past.- ---Black sheep of the family.
Hello, the name is Xay but I was raised bein' called James, but only my family calls me James, and I don't like to be called by james only by my family and because its a common name, so I like to go by Xay =) and yeah yes I am gay! So what I like guys? who are you to judge? It aint your life, if you got a problem with it, I dare you come say it to my face, and ill bluntly say "Fuck you..." to your face. Yeah for those people who don't talk to me no more after I graduated and what not, yeah yall some shady ass people, it really shows who your true friends and family are. Now after moving to Cali, I've lost so many people, yet I gained some. I'm glad to have a few select people who are supportive for me. Anyways I'm still the same Xay or James that you know and love and will always be. I've grown up, and in many different ways, I handle things on a careful manner. Yeah there have been rough patches in my life and whatnot but I'm still young, and growing and trying to figure myself out. I believe I am an angry person for the way I was raised, because my parents are hella fucked up in the head for leavin my brother and I hangin pretty much. To this day I do not understand why but if I was to ever see them again id be all up in their face and bitch at them. I think its fine if they don't want to be there for my brother and I. I guess I am naive in believing that my parents should be loving and there for us but they aren't, because of the way I was influenced to believe this being raised this way. im just learning that there are some fucked up parents out there (its a major reality check, and im just waking up), and my parents are one of them so fuck them (yes I told you I am angry), yeah even though my own mom brought me into this world, she's told me a few times as I was growing up that I should die. I've been in denial in believing that my parents would come back to me but I was wrong, I was being naive. I give credit to mostly my brother cuz he took care of me when my mom didnt., and when our dad was gone n never came n saw us for many years. All I got is my loving older brother, my sister jan and their kids, I love them all to death. There's too much to say on here, so just hit me up, or add me, thanks. -Xay
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