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If i died tomorrow i know that everything i have done or been through would all be worth it. I can honestly say that i feel i've made the best choices and decisions in my life. And in life, i would rather be dirt poor and happy, than rich and misserable. I have to admit,i'm rather a mess. I'm very off the wall in many ways...something that a lot of people don't quite get. But it allows me to have fun. I'm quirky. Yes,i just used the word quirky. Most people take one look at me and don't give me a chance to prove myself. I'm not scary, hateful or psychotic. For the most part i'm mentally sane, aside from the depression which i am actually doing a good job at fighting. Otherwise, i live just the same as the person next to me. I work and take care of myself. I believe that i'm a good friend...i'd give just about anything for those i care about and i would hope that i get the same respect in return. I love to laugh and have fun. Whether it be just sitting around talking with intelligent people or driving around listening to music as loud as it will go. Yes,i love cars. None of that ricer shit either. You can find me at the track quite often actually... and i'm always trying to get more people involved. Music is always going to be number one on my list of things i need in life. I have a love for The Birthday Massacre, Otep and Assemblage 23 that will be very hard to match. Most know that i'm pretty understanding and accepting. I don't judge on looks,it's what you think,say and do that either impresses me or makes you just another face in the crowd. And i will be honest on how i feel about you too. I like to think i'm intelligent. And yes,i am opinionated but i have enough respect to listen and empathize with others the best i can. You know the saying good guys finish last? It's true. I'm a good person,but even with all i've been through i always manage to let go and try again. I've picked myself up after some of the hardest shit in life. I've been able to keep a smile for the most part. But there are moments when i get hurt. So sometimes i do make mistakes. Sometimes i hurt people when i don't mean to. But I'd rather fall than watch others i care about do so. In life i don't want much, just good friends, good memories, to keep learning and growing with each mistake and be able to say it's all worth it. And last but not least, there are certain people, both who know me and those who don't know me, that make me look like a horrible person. But if you would rather believe someone else before getting to know me than your not worth my time. I'm more than willing to be a friend, but i have to know you don't follow a crowd that just tears eacother apart....