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I can't be beautiful all the time

About Me


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If i died tomorrow i know that everything i have done or been through would all be worth it. I can honestly say that i feel i've made the best choices and decisions in my life. And in life, i would rather be dirt poor and happy, than rich and misserable. I have to admit,i'm rather a mess. I'm very off the wall in many ways...something that a lot of people don't quite get. But it allows me to have fun. I'm quirky. Yes,i just used the word quirky. Most people take one look at me and don't give me a chance to prove myself. I'm not scary, hateful or psychotic. For the most part i'm mentally sane, aside from the depression which i am actually doing a good job at fighting. Otherwise, i live just the same as the person next to me. I work and take care of myself. I believe that i'm a good friend...i'd give just about anything for those i care about and i would hope that i get the same respect in return. I love to laugh and have fun. Whether it be just sitting around talking with intelligent people or driving around listening to music as loud as it will go. Yes,i love cars. None of that ricer shit either. You can find me at the track quite often actually... and i'm always trying to get more people involved. Music is always going to be number one on my list of things i need in life. I have a love for The Birthday Massacre, Otep and Assemblage 23 that will be very hard to match. Most know that i'm pretty understanding and accepting. I don't judge on looks,it's what you think,say and do that either impresses me or makes you just another face in the crowd. And i will be honest on how i feel about you too. I like to think i'm intelligent. And yes,i am opinionated but i have enough respect to listen and empathize with others the best i can. You know the saying good guys finish last? It's true. I'm a good person,but even with all i've been through i always manage to let go and try again. I've picked myself up after some of the hardest shit in life. I've been able to keep a smile for the most part. But there are moments when i get hurt. So sometimes i do make mistakes. Sometimes i hurt people when i don't mean to. But I'd rather fall than watch others i care about do so. In life i don't want much, just good friends, good memories, to keep learning and growing with each mistake and be able to say it's all worth it. And last but not least, there are certain people, both who know me and those who don't know me, that make me look like a horrible person. But if you would rather believe someone else before getting to know me than your not worth my time. I'm more than willing to be a friend, but i have to know you don't follow a crowd that just tears eacother apart....

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Intelligent, fun, artistic people. Those who appreciate music in a way that most don't understand. People who admit to their flaws but are still strong. Those that can relate to me on some level, without judging too quickly. But most importantly, people who are genuine and have a good heart.
.. - Get Your Own

Music:

Music is my life,blood and soul...you can never take that away from me. The internal workings of the sounds of my obsessions. My brain cannot handle the level of beauty some of the music in my life holds,but my soul will never let go.

Movies:

Performances that really mean something. Critics mean nothing to me,i will make my own judgement. For the most part i like off the wall movies, stuff that makes you think, and those fucked up movies that either make you cry or wonder what's next.


Get Your Sexy Name

Television:

Don't really watch tv. There is so much more to do and see...

Books:

Feeding the mind. I wish that i could say i read a lot,but in fact i don't. Writing is an art form to me and i'm easily bored if it doesn't speak to me.

Heroes:

It may be a flaw to idolize those who seem perfect. I want to see clearly,so i keep this list empty.

My Blog

Stop and listen...it's beautiful

On my way home today, driving down John Stockbauer, i looked over and noticed maybe 4 deer just grazing in a field. Mind you this is off a busy street. It's interesting to see that they share a part o...
Posted by Poetic Cunt <DedikateD Soul> on Thu, 18 Jan 2007 11:08:00 PST

Todays the day we'll find our way...

Life is changing. It's a new year. Not like that really makes a difference with me since i like to make changes no matter what day or month it may be. But this just seems like a good time to make even...
Posted by Poetic Cunt <DedikateD Soul> on Tue, 09 Jan 2007 09:43:00 PST

Change

So things are looking up a lot lately. The meds are working a lot better than i expected and it's making it so much easier for me to be truly happy without that depressed feeling being there. I'm just...
Posted by Poetic Cunt <DedikateD Soul> on Fri, 29 Dec 2006 11:49:00 PST

Gave Over? Never!

I think that certain people from my past have been brought back in to my life for a reason. It's just another reminder i have to keep doing what i have, growing, learning and changing for the better. ...
Posted by Poetic Cunt <DedikateD Soul> on Tue, 12 Dec 2006 09:02:00 PST

a breath of fresh air

So there is a lot lately that has gone through my head. I just havn't put it out there for many people to see because i know that's not what people want to deal with. Maybe that's not completely true...
Posted by Poetic Cunt <DedikateD Soul> on Fri, 08 Dec 2006 09:48:00 PST

In the end...

I deserve better than what i've had in the past and i'm going to wait for that, no matter how long it takes. I'll be okay as long as i keep my friends and the things in life i love close to me. As lon...
Posted by Poetic Cunt <DedikateD Soul> on Thu, 16 Nov 2006 08:41:00 PST

No regrets

Life would be nothing without inspiration but so few people find that. Inspiration as defined in the dictionary is as follows: a. a divine influence directly and immediately exerted upon the mind or s...
Posted by Poetic Cunt <DedikateD Soul> on Tue, 07 Nov 2006 12:44:00 PST

I hope your listening.

Well, this weekend made my attitude change quite a bit. Things just feel better now. I think i needed the weekend to be here so i could let go of the shit i was feeling during the week. It's so sad th...
Posted by Poetic Cunt <DedikateD Soul> on Mon, 02 Oct 2006 02:33:00 PST

Shut the Fuck Up

Right now it feels like everything is going wrong in my life. Why is it that i feel like i know so much more than many of the people around me, yet i still can't seem to get ahead in my own life? It's...
Posted by Poetic Cunt <DedikateD Soul> on Wed, 27 Sep 2006 01:33:00 PST

Just Forget the World.

I am 19 years old. And my 20th birthday is coming soon, weeks from now. I sit here looking at the screen with my mind reeling with so many thoughts. Not necissarily bad, but things that i can't hold i...
Posted by Poetic Cunt <DedikateD Soul> on Thu, 14 Sep 2006 01:25:00 PST