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J smoothe

this is the end of running away

About Me

well now i've moved 2 burlington vt for college @ champlain college. it's awesome up here. it's gonna take some geting used to but i think this place is gonna be fucking amazing. i've got 3 roommates whom are great. we're rockin the fuck out of this wellness dorm. bankus hall won't have a clue what hit it. i love to get out and party and chill with people. so holla @ me and we'll do that
I've been looking through these eyes
Of black and white for far too long
And now these deepened colors seem so shocking
Bless the cold, cold moon
That moves the sea that makes the waves
That made this scene for me to see and be moved
Will my life be long enough
To see the things I want to see?
I believe this world is just too big for me
Every cloud that passes by
Is another cloud I'll never see
Maybe I just try too hard
To understand all of these things
Bless the hands of painters
Who have captured melon skies
And starry nights for us to see and feel
For all of time
Will my life be long enough
To see the things I want to see?
I believe this world is just too big for me
This life is just a blink of an eye
A glimpse into a world we were never meant to see
So don't hang on to anything at all
And all the things we have
And all the people we have known
Will fade away so quickly
Into the deep
And memories of love will be
The only warmth we have in the end

- &hearts Debussie &hearts
~ &hearts Daphney &hearts Loves &hearts Derby &hearts
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My Interests

poety, newly into photography, humping the amish(cuz that's how we do here, rite kelli?), sleep and how i never seem to get enough of it, philosophy, bob dole and pants

I'd like to meet:


music video code by urbnmix.net
bright eyes - first day of my life

someone to teach me about that damned 4 letter word called &hearts

Music:

armor for sleep
rilo kiley
bright eyes
conor oberst
coheed and cambria
linkin park
papa roach
my chemical romance
lost prophets
dead poetic
the juliana theory modest mouse
incubus
dashboard confessional
barenaked ladies
korn
blink 182
3 doors down
america
matchbox 20
eagles
kansas
h.i.m.
cky
rammstein
staind
the used
boys night out
death cab for cutie
pretty girls make graves
senses fail
saves the day
at the drive in
every time i die
hawthorne heights
motion city soundtrack
i can make a mess like nobody's busines
underoath
smile empty soul
the faint
at the drive in
anatomy of a ghost
from autumn to ashes
incubus
the mars volta
matchbook romance
the goo goo dolls
taking back sunday
the early november
yellowcard
zebrahead

Movies:

american history x, ghost, con air, dawn of the dead(old and new school), donnie darko, super troopers, fight club, sucide club, battle royale, kill bill 1&2

Television:

the simpsons, chappelle's show, reno 911, mash, nip/tuck, the shield, stargate sg-1, the daily show with john stewart, MXC, stand up commedy, aqua teen hunget force, sealab 2021, evangelion(not really tv, well in the US neway), and any show that featues things blowing up

Books:

u know dean koontz and the master of it all steven king hold this shit down. but dan brown and james patterson rock my literary cock.and then there was house of leaves....

Heroes:

wiL- the balls to move out of his house and taking care of angie as he does mike-i'd have blown up my computer by now if it weren't for him erik- for putting up with wiL and i and always being impossibly cooler than everyone else

My Blog

the end of the world

well kids i think tonight should be the end of the world.  why?  cuz i've already been to heaven tonight.  words do my love for her no justice.
Posted by J smoothe on Sat, 03 Dec 2005 12:45:00 PST

happy, for once

well today, how do i put into words how today was. amazingly spectacular comes to mind so i met this wonderful girl we spent 3hrs at the waterfront talking and staring at the stars sat night watched t...
Posted by J smoothe on Wed, 05 Oct 2005 10:58:00 PST

if when it rains, it pours, what does it do when it pours?

so i finally wrote another poem, first one in over 2 months.  i've beem meaning to write, it just hasn't been happening.  i don't think this one is too good, it's kinda all over the place, i...
Posted by J smoothe on Wed, 28 Sep 2005 10:15:00 PST

i reiterate once more

well 2day was an odd day.  i really wanted 2 get drunk today but that didn't happen.  praying for it 2morrow.  i don't like to think that i need to drink, but i'm getting to that point....
Posted by J smoothe on Sat, 24 Sep 2005 12:42:00 PST

im tryin

to make friends and hang out and be chill with people.  but it just doesn't seem to be workin for me.  its hard for me 2 feel comfortable with all these new people.  it's not that they ...
Posted by J smoothe on Fri, 16 Sep 2005 11:44:00 PST

damn my good memory

i hate myself for being able to remember so well: how she smelled how her lips tasted how her lips felt on mine how her hand fit into mine so perfectly how so not alone i felt with my arm around he...
Posted by J smoothe on Sun, 11 Sep 2005 01:09:00 PST

yet another night...

...of drinking away my pains.  theres just far 2 much 2 think about.  of the things from previous posts, also my parents r getting divorced.  so shit went well for like 5 days and now e...
Posted by J smoothe on Fri, 09 Sep 2005 08:39:00 PST

ok i can deal

  so yeah if she wants to do that, she can rip my fucking heart out, what does it matter i never used it anyway.  so i call up kate 2nite 2 c if she wants 2 hang out 2nite and get drunk and...
Posted by J smoothe on Thu, 08 Sep 2005 11:36:00 PST

just when things were starting to look up

well u know they say when it rains it pours.  they weren't kidding.  2 people i know died in a car crash 2 days ago, krystal may have cancer, the girl i've been hanging out with, kate, has b...
Posted by J smoothe on Sun, 04 Sep 2005 09:58:00 PST

wow

since college has started and we're actually going 2 classes and getting work, sorta settling into a routine, it's getting much better.  i'm pretty happy right now.  things are going well.&n...
Posted by J smoothe on Thu, 01 Sep 2005 07:24:00 PST