Who is Micah? That's a very good question. I'm not sure if i even know completely anymore or if anyone will ever know me completely, i have lived about 10 lifetimes in just this one. Sometimes i get lost in myself. So much has happened over the course of my life that has changed me into different people at different times. I have been every type of person, gone through every fad looking for my place in this world. I have been forced to adapt quickly and change throughout the course of my life, i guess that's why change is easy for me when it's harder for others. I have walked all over this planet, felt every spectrum of every emotion. I like to believe i am a loving, happy, crazy, funny, trustworthy, exciting, twisted, complicated, spontaneous, respectful, smart, deep, and unique person. I am a hopeless romantic, a lover but also a fighter when i need to be, a dreamer, an artist, a philosopher, a thinker, an over analyzer (I'm a Leo, that comes with the territory). I am also an avid skydiver, dancer, smoker; i enjoy working out unfortunately i don't go as often as i should, enjoy good wine with a wonderful meal. I am a good father, and i love being a father, its the best thing i have ever done with my life. I love you Blaise, you are my entire life and there isn't anything i wouldn't do for you. I can honestly say, i am truly one in a million. If this a blessing or a curse is the real question. I live to love, and love to live. I live with my heart on my sleeve, and even though that makes me vulnerable to be hurt, i rather live that way then to keep my emotions inside, holding back, missing opportunities, having regrets, and not be the loving person that i am. I have a huge heart despite the fact that it has been hurt many times in this life. I am a man who is willing to be a man, who looks forward to taking care of his child and future family and children when that day ever comes, who would do anything to take care of them regardless of cost to self. A man that would die willingly without hesitation for his friends, and those he truly loves. A man that doesn't follow the normal rules, a man that isn't afraid of commitment or afraid to love. A man who is on a journey to find love in it's greatest and purest form. A man that has finally gotten to the point that he knows what he wants and doesn't want to settle for anything less. A man that means the words that come out of his mouth, and they are his bond. I live my life for me and those i love. For those i love i will sacrifice, and for the ones i love no sacrifice i must make is to great. I am a man that is covered in tattoos, and piercings, a demon disguised in the beauty of an angel. But my appearance does not make me the typical person you would expect when meeting me for the first time, or judging me by my appearance. It's actually quite the opposite. But my tattoos tell the story of my life, tells of those i love and those who had the greatest influences on my life, those people who were there and those special moments i never want to forget. It has been said i have a want to be accepted, or that i am looking for love by others, but with that same thing being said there is nothing i do b/c i worry or care what anyone has to say about me. I do what i want, i say what i want, regardless of the thoughts or reactions of others. To know me is to love me. If you don't like me walk away, fuck you my life won't miss you. I have nothin to prove to anyone. If you were a person that got something over on me in my past i say what ever i lost was worth the price to pay to get you out of my life. I don't need negative or bad people around me. I only need the people that truly love me and will always have my back no matter what this life tries to put in my path. I am a grateful even for the negative experiences in my life b/c they taught me who my real friends were and who would always be there for me until this life took them from me. I am not a follower by any means, and i have always marched to the beat of my own drum. I am a man who had the world, and has lost everything. A man who had many lessons to learn, but yet despite the trials of life, i'm still on top standing determined to not let anything ever stop me, or take me out. Nothing will break me. I am a man who knows the value of life, the value of love, the value of true friends, and all the things that really matter in this world. I am a man who also lost both of his best friends, most of his crew, all of his family, save for his son, lost his world, lost his life, lost himself, found his way back and now walks the planet alone. A man that carries a pain in his heart, every minute of every day, the place where he carries the guilt and unending love for them both. I am a man that knows unfortunately exactly what its like to look into the face of death multiple times only to walk away, who has searched this world for an answer only to discover that there is no answer. There's not always a reason. I would do it all over again just to have their love again for the time i was lucky enough to have it. I am a man who has been brought back from death by not only my son Blaise, but by a few others as well that have walked with me in this world and also in another life before, and more then likely again the next time around. I am not a religous person, but i am open to being a spiritual person. I have seen to much and had some miracles, and instances that can't be explained by any logic except for knowing a higher power or something else i couldn't understand was at work. I believe we are all here to learn valuable lessons, and if you don't learn them you will be back. I used to believe that i was a person who was a risk taker, as long as the high was worth the risk, but i have learned the hard way, that sometimes the high really wasn't worth the risk at all. I have reached a point in my life where i still crave excitement, and old phases of my life but at the end of the day, some lessons i would have rather not learned, and now choose to avoid going forward. & i am constantly looking now to always try to make life better, but also to have constant improvement and self growth. I haven't come close to becoming the person i want to be in life, but i do believe a successful person will never get to the point where they have achieved all their dreams or goals, that never gets to the point that they stop trying to have improvements and a better life. I believe once you meet those personal goals/dreams, that should propel you to making more goals to see how far you can truly go to being the best person you can be in life. I will never stop trying to be the person i want to be, and he is the guy that is better then me yesterday and today. The hard part is to not get discouraged and scarred along the way. To not get hardened, to hold on, to be strong and never give up, even when the world looks its worst and may tell you that your crazy. I believe it can't rain all the time, and you just got to hold on and wait for that brighter day, for the day when the roller coaster of life brings you back up again. I am a man who believes nothing in this world matters but love, that it is the most wonderful thing we can experience, the reason we truly live in this world. B/c i never truly live as much as i do when i have love in my life. I believe love conquers all, and nothing can stop love. Not even death. Love will outlast anything and everything else. I believe love can reach you even from the grave b/c i have felt its touch. I have felt its safety and guidance, its protection and its overwhelming love. I am a person that believes you can have more then one soulmate, and soul mates come on different levels. Its not just the one version that you feel with the opposite sex that moment of oneness, that unity where you feel your souls touching and causing the other to live, but if your lucky enough also a version where there is such unconditional love and acceptance for that other person. A feeling between you that you can't remember how you met but that person was always there and felt like they had been there even before. That feeling that binds you to each other from this life and into the next. I am lucky enough to say i have had 3 soul mates in my life, and now 2 of them are my angels, that I miss and love deeply and I know love me. Love last longer then death....I told you Hopeless Romantic in every sense of the word. LOL Well, that is a start to who I am, but there is more then a few books or maybe a movie about my life that would have to be written to sum up all that i am, all that i have done and seen, and all that encompasses and makes me, me.
