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I am an outgoing, active, and creative person. I am always coming up with little projects, or making something weather it is music, a drawing, a collage, ect. I have to keep myself busy and challenged all the time or I get down. I am really out going and like to have fun and try new things. I'm open minded and a free spirit...the only thing I tend to be close minded about is people with closed minds. I'm also in recovery from dependance on drugs. I used to party alot until it almost ended my life. I made alot of shitty decisions that put me in danger that I would have never made if i wasn't obsessed with getting and using drugs. Don't get me wrong, I don't look down on those who use or think I am better. If anything I am jealous of people who can use and still have a normal life. I was so in love with my drug of choice there's only a few things I would want more than be able to use and have a normal life. I can't though, I turn into a different person, a horrible, deprived, loveless person who hurts ME on a daily basis. I'm so happy to be sober now and have the capacity to be happy...I'm not always happy but at least I have the ability...
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Add to My Profile | More VideosIf you read through my page you'll find I'm very silly and just having fun, but there is a very serious side of my life and I would like to share it with you here. Every one has different perspectives in life, but I'm sure as a white American mine has been quite unique...at least in Fargo/Moorhead. I was raised by parents, my mum a spiritual scientist who was raised Wiccan, and my Father a Christian rejecting Athiest. They are both brilliant people who taught me to always question, choose my beliefs for myself, and not be afraid to change those beliefs over time. We all change and grow and so does my faith. Like science I will admit when I'm wrong and will revise, aware someday I will find something more truthful but will never attain the ultimate truth. I swim in the human condition of growth and questioning. I have been looked at by my comunity and outer family as a sinner and a condemed to hell. Imagine being at the Christmas get together and when you look into the eyes of your loved ones they look back at you in pity with a sense of failed duty. Imagine kids at school spreading rumors that you and your family are satanists. Even as a wiccan now it doesn't hurt but more surprises me. Wicca predates satanism astonishingly and has nothing to do with it. I worship the earth that bore me and my goal in life is to spread and be positive energy the best I can. Well, enough of that. Here some food for thought and if you don't know what this pic is about look it up.I also included two informational videos. Your fellow humans want you to open your ears to them.The following videos contain disturbing content, so prepare to be ripped out of your bubble. The first is good on info, the second a horrific colage of truth. ..
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I like to meet active out going people in the FM area, and heres the catch, I can't chill with people who drink or drug...not that I judge that but I've finally got a foot hold in my recovery from those exact activities that I just can't be around it. Party on my friends cuz I would if I could.

My Blog

Keeping up with it!

So far so good, with living with John.  Taking care of Velcro is causing me some anxiety because I am so eager to make her life good and take care of her properly.  Link has been on the major hide out...
Posted by on Wed, 29 Apr 2009 13:02:00 GMT

Different now

Alot has changed since my last blog, I don't blog often so its interesting to see my life in exerpts.  My last blog spoke of the effecrts of my drug use.  Cant sleep, no job, feel so alone...i was alo...
Posted by on Sun, 26 Apr 2009 19:23:00 GMT

I am wonderful

I had a weird weekend, my sleep schedule is all kinds of effed up.  I didn't sleep last night.  I played depressed lesbian and watched 10 episodes of the L word, ate all my roommates cookies...
Posted by on Sun, 14 Sep 2008 05:00:00 GMT

A response to Kelsey

I wrote a response to one of kelseys blogs and I ended up going more into it then I had expected.  I thought it was kinda cool.  Here's kels blog for reference with my comment. http://blog.m...
Posted by on Mon, 28 Apr 2008 11:50:00 GMT

A very strange and frustrating dream.

I had a very strange dream last night. It felt like it was the only dream I had and it wouldn’t go away.  It felt like it lasted days.  I did wake up feeling kida sick as well so I pro...
Posted by on Fri, 28 Mar 2008 10:19:00 GMT

Eric and I are engaged!!!!!!!!!!!

I am really excited about eric and I being engaged. We are going to have the wedding on Halloween of 2009. It won’t be a traditional ceramony, but we won’t be speding too much on it. Most ...
Posted by on Tue, 25 Mar 2008 22:57:00 GMT

truely now

Truely now I sit here and I have to decide what  is meaningful the world is a torpido of violent being congeling our world into tapestries of completed life I guess I’ll just go on being f...
Posted by on Tue, 18 Mar 2008 01:34:00 GMT

a very dark peom on life

fester in dark lusting corners of the mind be aware of the forbidding shadow it eats at the cobweb silhouettes of our souls loose control of the nephiline cries of dusty lust i scream laughter of rot...
Posted by on Sat, 08 Mar 2008 20:49:00 GMT

READ AND PASS ON FOR THE SAKE OF OUR KIND

Am I really that different? Is everybody really on such a different keal than me?  Am I the only one who dosn't believe these lies? Who sees this shit in the air. The culture created of greed and cont...
Posted by on Tue, 29 Jan 2008 08:00:00 GMT

Movie Review 2

The Fountain This is This is a really good movie for people who like artsy, meaningful stuff. It may also interest you if you like pretty effects too.  This is definately not for anyone who doesn...
Posted by on Tue, 15 Jan 2008 16:29:00 GMT