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Mandolin Star: Against City &lt;BWC&gt;

I am here for Friends

About Me

Roses Are Red.
Violets are blue.
You're ugly.
and. umm.
I'm pretty.

no stereotype.
I am infatuated with the taste of lime.
I’m not a surface kind of girl.
I believe that what you are is what you are. and it doesn't really matter to me what you are. as long as you are something
I love to watch movies that no one sees any point to.
I love things that make you think.
I love vegetables.
I Hate onions with a passion.
I'm hella dysfunctional. And i'll probably never change.
I am weird.
I'm hella sarcastic.
I'm extremely open and understanding.
I will listen and help anyone with their problems. Even people i dont like.
I’m one of the clumsiest people you’ll ever meet.
I am really obnoxious when I'm with certain people.
In the winter I long for the sun.
In the summer I long for rain.
No matter how hard you try, you'll never really know me.
I wish I could know everything about everyone.
I’m a bully...but I love everyone.
I ramble a lot.
I was named after a Boston song that I hate.
[I only hate it bcuz i know no one will ever be that sweet to me.]
I confuse easily.
I love the gays. Flamboyance makes me smile.
I love playing football in the rain and mud, just so long as everyone else gets dirtier than I do.
I love to learn. Unless I have to.
I don’t like to do what I’m told…and I don’t like to do what I’m told not to.
[reverse psychology has no effect on me]
I force a smile every day of my life…and I’m used to it.
I love to be held.
I hate to be looked at. But if you don’t look it seems like you don’t care.
I am hypocritical.
I once tried to write an essay for school about “who I am”…it was 6 pages long and didn’t describe a thing about me.
I’m always wishing I could control time.
I am extremely complex but love the simplest things.
I think magic is only non-existent now because Corporate America has ruined our minds.
Politics is only another reason for people to bicker…yet sometimes I find it fascinating.
I always think too much to ever sleep.
I love to look at the stars.
I love big cities.
I believe in aliens.
I believe in ghosts.
I don’t believe in organized religion,I believe in faith.
I cry to some songs. A lot of those songs aren't even sad.
I’m a train wreck of lost words.
I think many people are driven insane by an over-abundance of sanity.
I’m a firm believer that some of the most beautiful packages come in the worst wrapping.
I’m a pro at analyzing dreams.
My heart feels empty because it’s just too full.
I hide because I’m vulnerable. But I’m good at acting like the strongest girl alive.
I try so hard to have trust in men but I’ve been let down since I was born…literally.
I’m like the cutest little puppy with the deadliest bite.
People never cease to amaze me.
People are like art to me.
I would love to live for one day with everyone’s masks removed. (including my own)
I want to be beautiful enough for… Eating disorders aren’t for fat people…they are for the emotionally unstable.
I cuss so fucking much.
I LOVE WORDS.
I couldn't live without music.
I want to live by the ocean.
I want all of the experience in growing old…but I don’t want the age.
I would love to live for one day without ANY LIES…just to see how it would go.
I wish I was as strong as my mother.
I want to travel the world so I can really see whose better off.
Money can never create happiness, but it sure makes it easier to cover up sadness.
I WAS an alcoholic because drinking gives me an excuse to be honest.
Honesty isn’t enough on its own anymore.
I love to write.
I love poetry that you have to read 3-4 times before it paints a perfect picture.
Individualism loses its meaning when it becomes a trend.
Chauvinists suck.
I never hate anyone.
I am a strong believer in existentialism.
I get bored easily.
My favorite color is RAINBOW .
I LOVE the rain but hate getting my hair wet.
Yes. Image does matter to me.
No. It it's not EVERYTHING.
My goldfish's name is Hurley Post Shredded Wheat Pomegranite.
Nothing's better than long talks about nothing.
Sometimes I want to erase my mind so i don't have so much to think about.
I am too good at screwing everything up.
Laughing till I cry is my favorite.
I'm a mess.
I can never seem to give up on anyone.
Sometimes I think the world is falling apart...and sometimes I wish it really was.
I wish I could fly.
Too often I get scared bcuz I think I've lost myself.
I can never throw anything away.
When i was younger, i was obsessive compulsive about stepping on the cracks in the sidewalk.
I take advantaqe of the things that I have.
I dont like grass.
I refuse to eat pancakes/waffles without crunchy peanut butter.
I don't usually eat popcorn without mustard or hot sauce.
I sometimes think people are only happy bcuz they purposely blind themselves to how corrupt the world really is.
I HATE FEET.
I'm not too proud to cry. Sometimes I'm just too stubborn.
I'm such a terrible role model.
For some reason kids LOVE ME...it makes me feel awkward.
I smoke because I subconciously blind myself to the consequences.
I wish I had a twin.
I wish I could move from town to town and be someone new each time.
I wish I could have more than one life.
I absolutely LOVE 80's music.
I can't stand Christmas music.
SOmetimes I wish I had a real Dad.
I'm sick of wasted days and lonely nights.
I want someone to give me a white rose.
Everyday I know my mom wishes for a cure...I wish I was smart enough to find one for her.
Sometimes I close myself off to the world because I know I'm too open of a person.
I wish someone would kidnap me in the morning just to get coffee and go watch the sunrise.
I love the dark.
If I'm mean to you...it generally means i like you.
Sometimes everyone around me looks so perfect and I wonder why I don't.
I'll be friends with ALMOST anyone.
But I hate fakesters.
I always feel like a million different people in one.
I love to kiss. Every kiss I give means something. Only about 10% of them ever meant enough.
i like scrreeaammy music. and showtunes.
Let’s go on a road trip. I don’t care where.
I love faces.
I love to sit in a public place and analyze people walking by.
I LOVE MAKING NEW MEMORIES TO OLD SONGS
Its hard to get me to stop talking.
I love to make fun of people in my head.
Don't censor me. I'll kick your ass.
Don't hit on me. Unless you know for a fact that I want you to. That too could easily cause me to kick your ass
I love everyone
I wish I could see everything once before I die.
I want to live forever.

My Interests

MUSIC.
partying.
singing.
laughing.
hanging out.
going to shows.
beaching.
mock ska dancing.
acting like an idiot.
starbucks.
LOVE.
keyboard.
embarassing myself.
thinking.
You.
rainbows.

haha my favorite
little boyfriend

I'd like to meet:

someone who will sing me to sleep...

Music:

JOURNEY.
LED ZEPPELIN
Sublime
ROY ORBISON
Joy Division
AC DC
Styx
Def Leppard
The MISFITS
Depeche Mode
The Ramones
Cream
Incubus
The SUBWAYS
Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Some By Sea
LOSTOCEAN
Metallica
No Doubt
Taking Back Sunday
Angels and Airwaves
Marilyn Manson
Muse
Modest Mouse
Coheed and Cambria
The Used
Brand New
Jewel
Yellow Card
Story Of the Year
Foo Fighters
Nirvana
Blink 182
Billy Idol
Heart
Van Halen
Bad Religion
Oasis
Smile Empty Soul
Beastie Boys
Norma Jean
Alice In Chains
The Hives
The Von Bondies
The Cure
Aqualung
Guns n Roses
Silverstein
Poison
Blondie
Dashboard Confessional
Lost Profits
Pat Benatar
Slipknot
Franz Ferdinand
Velvet Revolver
David Bowie
Queen
MotorHead
Cute Is What We Aim For
A Billion Ernies
YES
Five For Fighting
Nazareth
Alanis Morissette
SAOSIN
From First To Last
Collective Soul
Aerosmith
Coldplay
Jet
AFI
New Found Glory
Red Hot Chili Peppers
The Doors
Papa Roach
Rock Kills Kid
The Beatles
Pink Floyd
The White Stripes
Al Green
Courtney Love
Sugarcult
The Rolling Stones
My Chemical Romance
Snow Patrol
Straylight Run
Fall Out Boy
Something Corporate
Belle and Sebastian
The Vandals
Tsunami BOMB
Farewell Unknown
Best Tomorrow
The F-Bombs
Self Against City
The Burning Tree Project
Stutterfly
The God Awfuls
Antifreeze
Adolescents
Useless I.D.
Ozma
The Matches
Still Life Projector
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Kane Hodder
Five Minute Ride
Wolfmother
AFFIRMATIVE CAMERAMAN
Crash Romeo
Arctic Monkeys
A Heartwell Ending
Action Action
The Brian Jonestown Massacre
No Use For a Name
The Junior Varsity
9VOLTPENPAL
PANIC! At The Disco
The Blood Brothers
JACK'S MANNEQUIN
An Angle
The Mars Volta
Less Than Jake
DAPHNE LOVES DERBY
Greenfront
THE NEW AMSTERDAMS
HelloGoodbye
Head Automatica
Deathcab for Cutie
DANCE GAVIN DANCE
Kansas
Jimi Hendrix
Halifax
The Babys
Motion City Soundtrack
Hot Action Cop
SAOSIN.
Gritz.
SOULJA BOYYYY!
Shiny Toy Guns.
Under the Influence of Giants.
The Cribs.
PARAMORE.

Movies:

SLC PUNK.
Rent.
American History X.
The United States of Leland.
A lot Like Love.
Brokeback Mountain.
Napolean Dynamite.
Love Me If You Dare.
The goddamn Notebook.
Zoolander.
Sixteen Candles.
Donny Darko.
The Breakfast Club.
Saint Elmo's Fire.
Freddy Got Fingered.
The Anarchist Cookbook.
The Nightmare Before Christmas.
Grease. ( 1 NOT 2)
Sin City.
Hedwig and the Angry Inch.
Labrynth.
Prozac Nation.
FUCKING ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW

Television:

AQUATEEN HUNGER FORCE
Big Brother
Family Guy
House
Futurama
MAD tv
SNL
The Real World
BEAVIS AND BUTTHEAD
Degrassi
CSI
Crossing Jordan
Discovery Health Channel
THE SIMPLE LIFE
DOG The Bounty Hunter
LOGO (channel)
Gene Simmons Family Jewels

Books:

Hemingway.

Heroes:

FAVORITESSS;;
Danae Lagala.
There is so much to say about this girl that...I don't even know where to start. Mr. Palafox. Freshman Year. This whole charade started with the words "hey, aren't you friends with Danessa?" and then random discussions about Russians. and palafox. making fun of people. 90% of our friendship has been us trying desperately to breathe. We laugh till we cry and if anyone heard our daily conversations they would have us committed into SEPERATE institutions. OMG especially if they caught us snorkle scootering...oh man then we'd really be in trouble. hahaha This is the one girl I can literally talk to about ANYTHING. WE've never judged eachother and ALWAYS have eachothers back. we are the fucking BWC . No one can even come close to matching how much this girl means to me. She's closer than a sister. We dont even have to speak when we're talking to eachother because we can read eachother's minds. That surely doesn't stop us though. You can't shut us up for anything. WE're loud and obnoxious and we dont give a fuck. Cuz we own. heartbreak = me + nae + train tracks [i'll bring the cigarettes. you bring the cookies] big LOVE
Leah Brown
Leah Brown MY ROOMIE is the funniest girl i know. We met a horrible way but almost instantly became best friends. I can talk to her about anything and we help level eachother out in situations. But we also have more fun than anyone with our crazy dance moves in the car and running around acting like little kids. haha I am SOO lucky to have found this girlCAMERON GUY
The only things you regret in life are the risks that you didnt take..
SHELBALINA!!
Like thumbelina! get it? cos she's so fucking tinyyyy.. hahaa one of my new bestt friends;; i hekka love this fucking girlll.. DUUUDE;; SOULJA BOY! haha
ANNIE BOOO;;
LOVE
JAIMELYNN KILLER
LOVE
LAURIEE;;
LOVE
JESSIE CA CA
LOVE
COMPTON ASS KENNY
Kansas boii.
i miss you.
ERIC_LIZ
MIKEYYYY;;
ohhh man
BOY GOGGLES a

My Blog

something to go on ::

'you didnt have to do it but you did it to say that you didnt have to do it but you would anyway to give you something to go on' i'm such a fucking douche;; denial should be my middle name i feel...
Posted by Mandolin Star: Against City [[BWC]] on Sat, 03 Nov 2007 06:08:00 PST

end of his short story::

One day you're gonna want that girl. That girl that knew she wasn't good enough but tried to be for you. The girl that believed the bits and pieces of you that she was given were worth hangi...
Posted by Mandolin Star: Against City [[BWC]] on Fri, 14 Sep 2007 08:21:00 PST

shallow;;to me its just another lesson learned

my face has been carved into a semi-permanent frown not just for it; but even more for what BRED it not even the slightest level of respect for good hearts can be upheld in shallow chest cavities to b...
Posted by Mandolin Star: Against City [[BWC]] on Thu, 12 Jul 2007 10:47:00 PST

you cant be a pimp and a prostitute;;RIDICULOUS

i hate big corporation;;this country is soo fucking lazyi hate the way this country has been breeding it's people// this place is fake;; and most of the people in it are NOT ATTACHED TO REALITY...
Posted by Mandolin Star: Against City [[BWC]] on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 02:24:00 PST

evil

i am soo tired. physically. mentally. i think i live in an evil world. Lately it feel like i'm in jail...with no cell mate. The only guys who want me have GIRLFRIENDS. People call me because...
Posted by Mandolin Star: Against City [[BWC]] on Sun, 25 Feb 2007 03:09:00 PST

best friends, boys, beds, and surround sound snoring

dang so. my last blog is really depressing. but lately everything has been shit. and people keep dying. maybe it's the season. but i'm pretty okay. nae saves my life all the time. and i save hers also...
Posted by Mandolin Star: Against City [[BWC]] on Sat, 27 Jan 2007 12:10:00 PST

the last breath is the hardest...this day was the hardest...

i dont understand this day.watching one of the best people i've ever known die.holding his hand and feeling his pulse until there was no more pulse to feel. i took my breaths in time with his. i warm...
Posted by Mandolin Star: Against City [[BWC]] on Tue, 12 Dec 2006 10:00:00 PST

DANG. I hekk of figured something out. about the male species.

So i talk to my new friend Leah [who, by the way, is freaking gorgeous and can have any guy she wants and deserves to be treated like a fucking QUEEN thank you] like everyday now cuz she needs so...
Posted by Mandolin Star: Against City [[BWC]] on Thu, 19 Oct 2006 05:47:00 PST

currrently...my frustration. in a bitter coffee flavoured nutshell.

swimming in an empty ocean. coffee. diet pills. and chocolate mint flavoured primetimes. and endless thought.   current frustrations. "Love": Love is such the complicated subject. and my sit...
Posted by Mandolin Star: Against City [[BWC]] on Mon, 21 Aug 2006 02:25:00 PST

where will we be when the sun rises next?

early morning and i feel like putting together a ridiculous culmination of words that mean future that no one cares about. i don't know what i'm supposed to do with myself next. I desperately wan...
Posted by Mandolin Star: Against City [[BWC]] on Thu, 03 Aug 2006 03:39:00 PST