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About Me

Brod's life was a slow realization that the world was not for her, and that for whatever reason, she would never be happy and honest at the same time. She felt as if she were brimming, always producing and hoarding more love inside her. But there was no release. Table, ivory elephant charm, rainbow, onion, hairdo, mollusk, Shabbos, violence, cuticle, melodrama, ditch, honey, doily... None of it moved her. She addressed her world honestly, searching for something deserving of the volumes of love she knew she had within her, but to each she would have to say, I don't love you. Bark-brown fence post: I don't love you. Poem too long: I don't love you. Lunch in a bowl: I don't love you. Physics, the idea of you, the laws of you: I don't love you. Nothing felt like anything more than what it actually was. Everything was just a thing, mired completely in it thingness. If we were to turn to a random page in her journal--- which she must have kept and kept with her at all times, not fearing that it would be lost, or discovered and read, but that she would one day stumble upon that thing which was finally worth writing about and remembering, only to find that she had no place to write it---we would find some rendering of the following sentiment: I am not in love. So she had to satisfy herself with the idea of love----loving the loving of things whose existence she didn't care at all about. Love itself became the object of her love. She loved herself in love, she loved loving love, as love loves loving, and was able, in that way, to reconcile herself with a world that fell so short of what she would have hoped for. It was not the world that was the great and saving lie, but her willingness to make it beautiful and fair, to live a once-removed life, in a world once-removed from the one in which everyone else seemed to exist.

My Interests

"This is the basis of car culture, the idea that the world and all of the world's people are merely in its way."-- Travis Hugh Culley.

I'd like to meet:

(1) anyone who can cajole me when I'm sad. (2) assertive women.

Music:

strictly Regina Spektor & Cat Power

My Blog

ah me....

Today was a bad day. Nothing necessarily bad happend, but from the time I woke up this morning, I had that old 'Oh shit, life" feeling. One of those days where nothing comes easy and nothing seems as ...
Posted by Dr. Information on Wed, 17 Oct 2007 08:56:00 PST

To learn life lessons, somtimes you have to break a few hearts

Sometimes its tough for me to take advice from others, even my friends. I'm trying to be better at this. Some friends of mine have made great effort to help me make sense of myself, which I grea...
Posted by Dr. Information on Mon, 24 Sep 2007 11:43:00 PST

The new aesthetic

1. live like a ghost inside your own life2. only ruin your own life, not someone else's ( do no harm)3. a lifetime isn't forever, even when it seems like it is4. there might be something wrong inside ...
Posted by Dr. Information on Mon, 10 Sep 2007 09:44:00 PST

Space Talk

After the end,Lost satellitesOrbit withNo one to talk toEvermore
Posted by Dr. Information on Tue, 04 Sep 2007 10:52:00 PST

-/--

Fuck the world.Fuck my nemiseses.Fuck the bearers of good news. Fuck everyone.Fuck me.
Posted by Dr. Information on Sat, 18 Aug 2007 11:58:00 PST

The lonely west was never won

Due to a recent change in my life, I'm not sure what to do with myself. I don't have a lot of free time, but what little I have, I don't have any good use for. In the past, I've tended slightly toward...
Posted by Dr. Information on Thu, 14 Jun 2007 12:21:00 PST

Don't be like me

Unemployment and my particular flavor of mental hang-ups don't go very well together. It's been two months and 8 days since I did any honest work (read, work I got paid for). About once a week for tha...
Posted by Dr. Information on Tue, 17 Apr 2007 08:37:00 PST

and suddenly, sadness

Dear Life, Now, I'm pretty fond of you for many reasons, not the least of which are the little unexpected suprises you are so good at. I hope we can continue being friends for a good long while yet. I...
Posted by Dr. Information on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 01:46:00 PST

Goodbye New York, hello Midwest!

After an action packed week in the city that is the center of the universe, I'm coming home. What a great experience this has been- just travelling around without a care in the world, taking what come...
Posted by Dr. Information on Fri, 16 Feb 2007 06:47:00 PST

increadibly indulgent

So, I'm losing my job in a week, or, more correctly, this Thursday. What did I go and do? Book a flight to New York. Well, it probably won't get me any closer to a job, but tickets were cheap and I ne...
Posted by Dr. Information on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 10:48:00 PST