Ash....

Meh, these days life is pretty dull, boring and monotenous. Everyone and everything seems the same and i cant really be bothered to try and fit in with you "in crowd". Im me and if you dont like that then i dont really want to know you, if you do then good on you and chat i'm nice (well so im told :P). Yeh i must say though i do have some of the most amazing friends in the world, yeh this town is pretty boring but there is rarely a dull moment when im around my friends. Easily some of the most amazing and fun people i have ever or could ever hope to meet and i love each and every one of them.Lately has been a bit rocky i guess, had its ups and downs like life does but mainly been down. Everything seems to be changing and honestly i dont like it, yes things could improve but i like things the way they are at the moment. Although lately im working more and more out about who i was and who i want to be. I know i dont want to be what i am right now, and that i could be so much of a better person. I know that i need to change but im not sure how honestly, i dont like who i am now but im not sure who that is. I dont know much about the me now, just who i have been and the kind of person i want to be. But honestly the big thanks has to go to the friends that have stuck by me, even though i know im an idiot and dont deserve them. I couldnt live without the friends i have right now and honestly i wouldnt want to, they make life better and help me get through each day even if they dont realise it. I owe each and everyone of them so much and dont think i could ever repay them, my friends are my inspiration and the people i wish i could be like, and i do hope that wont ever change. Mainly one person i have to thank is Alex, this girl is amazing and shes done more for me then i could have asked for. I dont know her too well and havent seen her much, but shes stuck by me no matter what and i really dont know how i could ever thank her. Oh and i also have to add in Kaura, shes bloody amazing, bloody beautiful and i love her so bloody much!!!